[ozzy1313]

Does your depression hit you as soon as you open your eyes? Some days I wake up and "forget" how crappy I feel and then after being awake for a bit it slams into me.

I slept all day yesterday and almost left the house last night bc they would be better without me but I had taken my meds and soon passed out. kind of funny thinking back on it

If I'm in a severe depression, I'm aware of it as soon as my eyes open and I don't feel like getting out of bed and starting my day. If I'm in a mild depression, as I am now, it doesn't hit me first thing. I have to think about my life for a while and then I'm reminded of the depression.

[gayleggg]

Mine usually sets in a little later in the day. If I have anything I need to get done I do it first thing in the morning. Later in the day I sink and have trouble getting things done.

[ozzy1313]

I just got back from dropping the kids off at school and it has hit. This is the first year I have not worked full time days and I know when I am like this that 8 hours alone is the worst thing for me, but I am too "nothing" to do anything about it.

I think back to even 6-8 weeks ago where I was re-doing my house and painted 4 rooms in like 2 weeks. I can't even imagine picking up a paintbrush now.

Went to a boyscout banquet last night and barely made it through. There is something fundamentally wrong with me. I am so empty. Some of these boys have had great achievements and all I could feel was that I didn't feel anything. I felt it was all a waste of time. Why bother working on badges etc. Why do we even do anything- it's all pointless.

It's pretty bad when I am trying not to cry at a banquet and thinking all these boys and their parents are the stupidest people ever.

[touched by fire]

I guess I would have to say, I don't even really think about it. I just won't get out of bed and keep trying to go back to sleep. Eventually, I start thinking about all the things I 'could' do or 'should' do and this makes me even more depressed. So I will lay there, maybe surf on my phone or watch tv shows and waste half my day. When I have nothing I'm committed to that day... is when I'm the worst. I was off two weeks for xmas/new years and I did not even go outside for 3 days on that final weekend.

[fingers1]

Most people with Bipolar disorder have some kind of sleep problems
Their Circadium rhytms become shifted.
Try keeping a good sleep hygene and
Try using a sunrise alarm to reset your Circadium Rhythms.
You should then wake up feeling much better

fingers1

[Angry1541]

I think I can tell by what it feels like to not wanna get outta bed. Some times I don't wanna get outta bed cuz it'd cold or something. Sometimes cuz I don't wanna face my day.

[touched by fire]

Originally Posted by fingers1

Most people with Bipolar disorder have some kind of sleep problems
Their Circadium rhytms become shifted.
Try keeping a good sleep hygene and
Try using a sunrise alarm to reset your Circadium Rhythms.
You should then wake up feeling much better

fingers1

Do you have an alarm suggestion? Which app do you like?

Mild depression, I usually don't register it when I wake up. I can sense it but it's not that important to me until it starts interfering with my plans.

In your face depression, I wake up and lay there, then forcing myself to the couch where I lay for the next few days.

[Tucson]

I feel depressed very quickly after I wake up to sometimes actually waking up depressed.

[Gale-in-UH]

My depression is bad right now - I know it all the time, usually I wake up with anxiety - I take my meds - care for my dogs - go back to bed, then toss and turn amid the anxiety and guilt - eventually between 12:30 pm and 3:30 pm I come up with a very non-demanding plan to move through the rest of the day - I'm well loved and have great medical support - I hate the fall from manic to this non-functional dark place. I've worked hard to be well for 18 years - I won't stop today - or next week; it is so important not to hate yourself.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by ozzy1313

Does your depression hit you as soon as you open your eyes? Some days I wake up and "forget" how crappy I feel and then after being awake for a bit it slams into me….

Yes, first thing. Eyes open. Mouth says, "****." Usually followed by, "another day" (to deal with). Groan. Cry or totally numb. Mornings are traditionally my worst time of day, so…
Anyhow, that is how it goes with moderate to severe depression. Mild depression…. I couldn't really say. It probably varies more, but I'd have to pay attention and track it to know.

[LDB1]

Most nights I go to bed thinking "I hope I don't wake up."
Most mornings I wake thinking "Crap, I woke up."

[Atypical_Disaster]

When I'm in a severe depressive episode I notice it as soon as I wake up. It's like I forgot it while I was sleeping and then I wake up and think, "oh my god I can't do this." and stay in bed hating the world.

[Zippo]

I wake up crying. The day goes downhill from there.

[avlady]

cant believe this post is here because i woke up wondering how i got up in the mornings all these years, especially as a child. we had to be at school by 8, my mom would have to make breakfast before 7 to get us off, there were 13 of us. i woke up a 9 this moorning and felt so guilty for sleeping in,which used to be a no no as a child. especially saturdays we'd have to be up early to do chores. now that i'm older way older it still affects me. i get up early just to appease myself, even if i don' have anything to do till later. i feel like @### when i first wake up. Then if and after a shower i feel better, for awhile.Well just wondering if anyone else has similiar sleep issues. Thanks for reading my post

Originally Posted by Gale-in-UH

My depression is bad right now - I know it all the time, usually I wake up with anxiety - I take my meds - care for my dogs - go back to bed, then toss and turn amid the anxiety and guilt - eventually between 12:30 pm and 3:30 pm I come up with a very non-demanding plan to move through the rest of the day - I'm well loved and have great medical support - I hate the fall from manic to this non-functional dark place. I've worked hard to be well for 18 years - I won't stop today - or next week; it is so important not to hate yourself.

I like your last sentence: that you won't stop trying hard to be well and that you won't hate yourself.

I can never ever 'forget' about my depression when I am in a full blown episode. I wake with it, dreading that I have survived another night. It is constant and there from the moment I wake til the moment I sleep, then it haunts my dreams.

Very very mild low mood I can fake it a bit, try to convince myself Im ok, but thats about as close to forgetting about it as it gets.

[Hexagram]

Originally Posted by ozzy1313

Does your depression hit you as soon as you open your eyes? Some days I wake up and "forget" how crappy I feel and then after being awake for a bit it slams into me.

I know exactly what you're talking about. I experienced it just this morning, and not for the first time... I woke relaxed and refreshed from a dreamless diphenhydramine-induced slumber, then, only seconds later, it all falls on me like a crushing weight: shame, anxiety, regrets, despair. I tried to return to the peace I felt when I first woke but it was gone. Benzodiazepines for breakfast.

[Nammu]

I don't think when I'm depressed, I just lie there staring at the ceiling with my mind blank. If it's not serious depression then I wake up depressed but I get better as the day progresses.