Crying Right Now

I am crying right now. I have been having these crying spells for a while. It hurts. I just spoke to my closest co-workers on what I am going through. Although they were sympathetic, their general attitude was, "you can make yourself snap out of it." I am not on speaking terms with God. What kind of parent hears a child cry and not rush to pick that child up and comfort the child? Why won't God just make it stop?

I am so sorry that you are hurting this badly right now.
You confided with your co-workers and they did not get it...which I am sure was equally hard to accept and not be bitter about.
If they are your friends they will stick with you and try to support you the best way that they can.
You may need to ask for help though....
Do your doctors know that you are suffering like this?
((((HUGS))))
bizi

(((((((((((((((sending warm hugs to you))))))))))))

look after yourself

ps sorry about mutley he makes me laugh and cheers me up i hope he made you smile too

I am so sorry that you are feeling so bad. It can be so hard when friends aren't supportive. Please know we are here and we care. I know that it is not the same as IRL. Is there someone else IRL that you can talk to? Please PM me anytime.

BB

Doubting Thomasina,

I'm so sorry you are going through such a hard time right now.

Generally coworkers tend to be unsympathetic, and in a competitive environment, it can cause problems for you, if they take your story to the boss.

I like the saying sometimes God calms the storm, and sometimes he strengthens His child.

God is often closest when we can't feel Him at all.

You can tell Him how mad and hurt you are.

Feel free to PM me if you like.

Hugs,

EJ

Thanks for the support. The crying spells have not stopped. Last night I called my uncle in Detroit and told him I had just been sitting in my bath tub with a knife in my hands trying to decide how long it takes to bleed out and if there is any pain. He put me on a three way phone call to my younger sister and best friend. I kept crying all evening but they stayed on the phone with me. Looking back, what hurts the most was not how bad I felt, but the paing and confusion and helplessness my younger sister felt. I never want to hear that in her voice again. It's worse than my own pain. I don't want to put her through that again. EVER! They have kept calling me every day. My sister (who is a no-nonsense kind of person) wants me to give her my boss' phone number to give her a good talking to because she denied my on-month request to go back to Africa for a little R and R. My boss gave me 12 working days in October instead. My sister is ready to march to the American embassy and tell them she wants an emergency visa to come see me. I am trying to talk her out of that. She says if she does not get, she will hold the embassy personally responsible for me. (Ha ha ha ha.) Sisters never changes...her nickname as a child was "scorpion" Go figure.

Thanks for all the hugs I got. I feel loved right now. Jinnyan, mutley does make me laugh!

Dear Doubting,

I think your sister is right in what she wants to do for you.

Keep us posted.

Hugs,

EJ

I am so glad that you had/have your family to help you cope with all of these issues.
I am glad that you called for help.
I wish you wellness.
bizi

hi,I geuss it would be scary to live far away the people you are us to .it sounds like you have alot of people that love and care about you well being.even God cares evean when you think he don't.My cring spells don't usaully last but a couple of days.Hopefully yours won't either.If you need to talk i am here.Keep posted how you are. ))HUGGS(((