[RACEKA]

I've been diagnoised with Cyclothmia which is like a Bipolar III. I also have anxiety. I don't feel on the inside like I present on the outside. I walk around with a smile on my face and can't wait to get home to cry. I feel so irritable inside. People really %#@&#! me off on the inside, but I don't ever show it. If peole knew what I was really like they would hate me. I am all or nothing. I have to get everything done in order to stop or eat. Last Saturday I was mowing the grass and was feeling out of breath. I then started to panic thinking I was having a hard attack. I still wouldn't let myself stop until I was done.
I wear myself out. I have no balance in my life at all.

[Reesie]

Are you taking any medication?

[RACEKA]

Yes. 60 mg cymbalta, 200 mg welbutrin, 600 mg. trileptal.

[darkeyes]

Is it possible you may need a change in dosages or different meds?
Sadly, some meds don't always work, but the good news is there are so many different ones than many years ago.
Though it can take time, working with your pdoc and being open to try different meds, it is possible to hit on the right combo or even just one med, which can bring stability in your life, sort of like a custom made regimen that can and will be the best therapeutic med and dosage.
Please keep the faith, and contact the prescribing pdoc if you are not feeling right or things are getting worse.
Also keep in mind if you find the treatment you are getting is not helping with any improvment or if your pdoc isn't listening to you,etc. never hesitate on seeking a new pdoc, sometimes some of them just don't seem to mesh with a patient and/or the patients type of disorder.
Please, do not give up on yourself, things can get better, with patience,time, and compliance.
Take care,
DE