[Toodles333]

And so it begins. After my 6 month manic episode, I'm back in the hole and feeling like shite. I was grounded by the meds in May but I've never felt took. Now this. I have zero motivation and the fukin anxiety is back again. I rang my mh team earlier to see if a doctor could do a med change over the phone, but the duty nurse never rang me back (no surprise there). The psychiatrist at my review last month said I needed to motivate myself and exercise/eat properly. Like I don't know that. Easier said than done when you can't even get out of bed.
It's going to get worse. Just in time for Christmas. Fukin dirty illness.

[Mountainbard]

I'm sorry you've crashed so hard. This illness is dirty-- it stinks. And that psychiatrist was full of shite. Telling a depressed person "you need to motivate yourself" tells me he doesn't know shite about depression. I hope it doesn't get worse for you, and that you can get that med change done.

[gina_re]

Oh I've had that happen to me before. My pdoc told me at the end of a visit that I need to exercise to help with the depression. No s**t! But if it was that easy, I would be doing it! Anyway, I'm sorry you're struggling. I'm still climbing out of my hole too. It's a horrible feeling, but it will eventually change and I hope it's sooner rather than later for you. The hard part is the waiting when you feel absolutely miserable. You're not alone, take care.

[WibblyWobbly]

Originally Posted by Toodles333

The psychiatrist at my review last month said I needed to motivate myself and exercise/eat properly. Like I don't know that. Easier said than done when you can't even get out of bed.

Whenever I hear this I want to strangle the person talking.

[L.Green]

Yeah, it sucks. I'm there right now also. I figured out something that helps me deal, but I haven't perfected it. I pick something in my eye sight that mildly distracts me, then just get lost in it. Like concentrate on all the possibilities of that particular object, focusing on the details. It's strange but more times than not, I'd forget I was depressed.

[raspberrytorte]

Yes. This illness sucks. I try to look at it in a positive light, but I've been failing lately. I'm far enough out from my last episode where I can look at my actions from a third person perspective and I'm terrified that's going to happen to me again. And my anxiety has reached an all time high. You should tell that psychiatrist he should exercise. Jeez. I hate it when people tell me to do that! I hope you start feeling better soon.

[Toodles333]

I knew it was coming. I tried to get help for it at my review but the psychiatrist had me in and out in 10 minutes. I told him I'd calmed down since I'd been taking my mood stabiliser and anti psychotic and that was enough for him. I need an AD of some description but I don't have a review until next year now. My GP won't prescribe me an AD as mirtazapine sent me manic 18 months ago. My local MH team is pretty much useless. Christmas is going to be a big trigger for me. Dreading that like the plague.

[gina_re]

Originally Posted by Toodles333

I knew it was coming. I tried to get help for it at my review but the psychiatrist had me in and out in 10 minutes. I told him I'd calmed down since I'd been taking my mood stabiliser and anti psychotic and that was enough for him. I need an AD of some description but I don't have a review until next year now. My GP won't prescribe me an AD as mirtazapine sent me manic 18 months ago. My local MH team is pretty much useless. Christmas is going to be a big trigger for me. Dreading that like the plague.

Christmas. I know everyone loves that holiday, but I just can't get excited about it, and I haven't been since adolescence. It's a trigger for me as well since my grandmother passed on Christmas day two years ago. Too many feelings between that and other holiday nonsense that goes overboard around that time of year.
Festivus for the rest of us!

[Toodles333]

Originally Posted by gina_re

Christmas. I know everyone loves that holiday, but I just can't get excited about it, and I haven't been since adolescence. It's a trigger for me as well since my grandmother passed on Christmas day two years ago. Too many feelings between that and other holiday nonsense that goes overboard around that time of year.
Festivus for the rest of us!

I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. I'm a pretty isolated individual and Christmas just shoves down my throat that isolation. Bah humbug over here I'm afraid.

[gina_re]

Originally Posted by Toodles333

I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. I'm a pretty isolated individual and Christmas just shoves down my throat that isolation. Bah humbug over here I'm afraid.

Yes! Me too!! It's like it forces me to look at how alone I am. Bad humbug!

[tigger_57]

Originally Posted by Toodles333

And so it begins. After my 6 month manic episode, I'm back in the hole and feeling like shite. I was grounded by the meds in May but I've never felt took. Now this. I have zero motivation and the fukin anxiety is back again. I rang my mh team earlier to see if a doctor could do a med change over the phone, but the duty nurse never rang me back (no surprise there). The psychiatrist at my review last month said I needed to motivate myself and exercise/eat properly. Like I don't know that. Easier said than done when you can't even get out of bed.
It's going to get worse. Just in time for Christmas. Fukin dirty illness.

There are fewer more painful events than being "rejected" by the ones we turn to for help ... holidays are hard for me too ... no good advise except to be kind to yourself ... love yourself ... if you don't who will ....