[Coconutzo]

Originally Posted by Blaire

I can't communicate this stuff to my doc either. I'm a bumbling mess in person. I usually have to write it all out ahead of time and just hand it to her to read. That gets the job done. Wishing you the best, I can relate to so much of what you said.

I will have to do that next time

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[Nammu]

Didn't take my ambien Monday night. Although I tried it was impossible to sleep. Now I'm paying for it...I'm too old to skip a night of sleep.

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

I'm feeling calm and peaceful today...hope it lasts

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same.

feeling calm is wonderful isn't it?

[Pikku Myy]

Anxious just want to run away from it all.

Last night I came very close to going to the ER. But too scared.

I can't trust anyone.

They twist everything for their own ends. Or just plain don't get it. Too dangerous. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. It's all used against me.
****.

I think I'm have a bad reaction to with Risperidone or latuda. I itchy everywhere. My ears, inside my mouth, my lips itch and burn, the palms of my hands are on fire and I can't stop itching them. My private parts itch. I have painful goosebumps everywhere. Can't tell if I'm hot or cold. I'm chilled with the worst feeling goosebumps imaginable. I'm popping benedryl like candy. Even using my Ativan to try for relief. Nothing works. I wrote my GP and PDOC. PDOC is out of the office but hopefully my GP can offer suggestions. I didn't take my pills, I'm too afraid. I can't handle the itching. I've had bad itching before but nothing like this. I need relief and I need it now. I hate side effects. I feel so uncomfortable in my skin. I may be going to the ER tonight if it gets worse. I'm fearful they will commit me against my will again. Feeling really low and don't know what to do.

[bizi]

sorry that you are having your reaction. Sounds awful!
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bizi

[Nammu]

That's sound horrible Elsa, I can't imagine that themed want to put you impatient for having a reaction to meds. Depending on how bad it is they might keep you in a regular hospital for observation tho. Do go to ER if you don't improve.

I'm doing ok. Stable. I see the psych nurse in a week and I hope she just keeps my meds the way they are. Been watching politics all day. Can't believe some of the things happening. Like trump omg! Anyway won't say anymore....been a stable day.

[Blaire]

Challenging day, but I think I'm ok. I posted about my EMDR session and how it was probably too much for me right now. Still feeling kind of depressed and angry, but it isn't bothering me too much. Really hoping it won't get worse. Time to load up on seroquel and see if I can get a good night's sleep.

My body broke out in giant hives so I went to the ER. They confirmed it was an allergic response from the meds. They gave me steroids, 2 different antihistamines, took me off Risperdal and latuda and switched me back to Abilify. I got some OTC stuff for the itching and hope I will feel and look normal soon. Thanks for caring everyone.

[Curiosity77]

Confused

[bizi]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

My body broke out in giant hives so I went to the ER. They confirmed it was an allergic response from the meds. They gave me steroids, 2 different antihistamines, took me off Risperdal and latuda and switched me back to Abilify. I got some OTC stuff for the itching and hope I will feel and look normal soon. Thanks for caring everyone.

I am so sorry elsa.....
bizi
hoping that you were able to sleep last night.

Hm... had another hallucination this morning... I woke up to a soft BEEEEEEP that sounded like it was right next to my ear. It sounded like a video camera when you hit the "record" button.

Huh... so weird. No idea why I've suddenly been getting these hallucinations... but at least it's not a voice this time.

Anyway, hope today is as productive as yesterday.

[Icare dixit]

2 pm, 800 IU vitamin E, 1200 mg acetylcysteine, 1600 mcg mB12 and 1600 mcg methylfolate, 150 mg 5-HTP.

Does anyone know a good way to remove blood stains from clothing? It's a thin cotton fabric. New trousers, yay...

Edit:
It's not like it drenched in blood or anything but I didn't expect it to show through. Water did it for now, at least for the most part, from what I can see.

Not well. I had a flip flop of my mental health going from quite healthy and stable to deep depression over a period of 48 hours.

[hopeless2015]

Still doing good got up the last two days without feeling doom and dread, been getting through the work day without being full of anxiety and fear

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[smallwonderer]

Subject evals came back for my class, and I don't even want to look at them because students usually dislike me so much and I don't want to ruin my day. Can't decide if that's progress or avoidance. Probably both. Also way behind on throwing together a proposal....ugh.

Bipolar is fine-ish at least. I was doing really well a few weeks back (nice and calm) but have been bumpier since... missing that one really good week....

[Icare dixit]

Originally Posted by Icare dixit

2 pm, 800 IU vitamin E, 1200 mg acetylcysteine, 1600 mcg mB12 and 1600 mcg methylfolate, 150 mg 5-HTP.

Seemingly at baseline and quite stable. Just a 90 minute rather severe depressive mood. Most surprisingly: no euphoria or ecstasy. Nothing to regret (). Grounded and in control (!).

If it has anything to do with the supplements it would probably be the vitamin E, the acetylcysteine or both. That there was not in any way anything manic might mean that all these things taken together keep me grounded.

I started to become depressed pretty much exactly 6 hours after I took the supplements, which is consistent with earlier findings. However, I didn't stay depressed for long.

Another remarkable, possibly the most remarkable, thing is that I only smoked 2 cigarettes between 2 and 8 pm. That would normally have been like 10–20 cigarettes, depending on whether I'm manic or not.

It could all be a coincidence because I woke up without depression but also no signs of mania. I will take the same supplements on Saturday.

Monday I'll start taking these supplements for one week without antipsychotic.

[Victoria'smom]

Still want to systematically destroy my life and I'm happy as hell about it.

[Prism Bunny]

Slow start. I am feeling sluggish, I have a small amount of energy, and my anxiety keeps nagging me, but I do feel more relaxed now.

[Icare dixit]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

Still want to systematically destroy my life and I'm happy as hell about it.

Just imagine it. Or buy things just to destroy them. Don't destroy your life (or any important part of it).

[Blaire]

Definitely less stable today than I was the past few days. Having that mixed episode intensity. I'm calmer this evening, less pressure in my body and thoughts have slowed down so I can focus. It helps just to be alone doing my own thing, being around people is very intense when I'm like this.

Speaking of which, my friend took me out to lunch today. He's like a brother to me, nothing romantic between us, but I had such a strong urge to touch him. Like I wanted to cuddle up to him and touch his face and neck. I don't usually like touching people, so that was a big red flag that I'm not entirely myself right now. Whatever "myself" is anyway.

Good day today. Had a long talk with my son about all kinds of things. It went well. Been listening to music all day pretty much. Cleaned some. Good day...

[Ppoppy]

Okay day so far but it's still early. Cross at myself for having a panic episode last night when I couldn't reach my son, just 30 mins before he left I told him how important it is that I need to be able to reach him at all times. I'm just cross I let it unbalance me.