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What have you destroyed out of anger? When was your last destructive incident?
- Smashed 3 phones - Smashed 2 laptops - Put a hole through my closet door - Put a dent in a wall - Ripped up a shirt with my bare hands (not that bad, I know) - Dented my old refrigerator door with a swift, but hard kick - Broke a cabinet door by slamming it really hard (wood cracked) My last destructive incident was last month when I destroyed my Samsung Galaxy S5. Got mad that it wasn't working properly, so I whipped it at the wall and put a dent in the wall. I'm normally a very kind, selfless person, but when I'm depressed or hypo/manic, that's when my anger flares up. |
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Hasn't happened in a while,but I knocked down a bookcase and threw the contents every where breaking as many things as possible.
A real nice antique wooden cigar box.
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My 3 day old car that I had just paid off
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Broke a cabinet door from slamming it, broke a freezer shelf when I slammed the door. Broke a knob off my dishwasher by throwing a chair at it. Broke one of my daughters toys by slamming it on the table.
I felt like smashing a bunch of glass dishes tonight but held back. I have kids and don't want my neighbours to call the cops, also don't want to scare my kids. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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Awhile back I stood on my bed and threw my laptop to the ground. Broke ex boyfriends old cell Cuz it still had ex gf's text on it. Just a few days ago I broke the wood door frame from slamming it. Whatever.
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I may have broke my marriage ... will see if this new T can help us ... we both see her tomorrow ... her at 8 ,, me at 10 ... way wife wanted it ...
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I've broken a few keyboards, at work and at home.
I've punched holes in drywall and wooden fences. Smashed a radio into a cement floor.
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Put a hole in the wall because I threw a shelf at it.
Pretty sure I have destroyed some of my kid's toys. More recently, I smashed a carton of broth on my (carpeted) living room floor. Sent from my LGLS990 using Tapatalk |
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So far just tons of broken glasses and plates, wanted to destroy more stuff but my dad threatened to leave the house and never return and I got scared and started crying and became hysterical.
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I destroyed/damaged lots: pretty much only non-material stuff. Way back I damaged someone's head.
Non-material stuff tends to grow stronger if not too severely damaged, though. I am very thankful for that. I always try to take the fullest possible responsibility, taking paradoxical effects for my mental stability into account, even if only later. Not having it happen too often is the best I can manage. Balancing the odds.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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I tend to destroy things that are mine and/or from my past. Pictures, journals, souvenirs, yearbooks. I tend to get worked up until I'm furious, then I get furious with myself, and I take the rage out by destroying myself figuratively. It's scary, sometimes - it feels like I'm erasing myself and any evidence of my time on earth. It feels like the world is a computer and I'm trying to delete my whole life's file, every trace of me, but more rageful.
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mostly I've destroyed relationships. People become afraid of me even though I've never hit them or broken things, my rages are fearsome things.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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Quote:
For me such things only happen when depressed. It's actually in essence just depressive behaviour, I guess: not worthy of traces, not wanna be seen or heard. Wasting valuable time and space. Memories of you that shouldn't be. Sometimes includes food.
Possible trigger:
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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Lives...
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Friendships. So many friendships.
When I was a teen, I slammed the door so hard and so often that door got to the point that it couldn't even close properly... ![]() |
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Relationships with people in such awful ways that there is no re-building
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Basically everything. Sad thing is I've replaced everything 3-4-5 times. Too many exes to count.
An even sadder thing is that we aren't even any where done yet...unintentionally of course of course....right people? ![]() |
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Not much really.
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]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
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I love and construct. Others hate and destroy. I'm so perfect!!.
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]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
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For some reason, I don't get angry and haven't broken anything I can remember. I am either out crushing on men (and women), telling whoppers of lies, etc. when manic. When depressed I am immobile in bed or on the couch. I have long wondered why some bipolar folks don't get angry and others really do. It's weird.
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I haven't yet destroyed or broken anything, but I do tend to throw things into the trash or think very seriously about breaking things. Except for a few small things, what I've thrown in the trash was retrievable. The most recent was my Iron Gym door bar, but my husband retrieved it. I was glad he did.
I've very often thought about taking my guitars, which I haven't played in quite a while, and smashing them, or just putting them out with the trash on trash pickup day, and taking my music books and lead sheets and dumping then. But then when I calm down I realize that I would have regretted doing something like that. Whom am I spiting? ![]() |
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Generally when I get frustrated and angry I self-harm or put holes in the wall (with my head)
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The death star. And some other things...
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In recent years, Mirrors (like 4), crockery, cupboards, trinkets, damaged the fridge, the washing machine.... Generally whatever was in front me at the time.
Before I had my daughter, I actually used to be very calculated with my rage, I could feel it boiling and prepped for it because I didn't want to hurt anyone.... I would remove all the special breakables in my room and then completely trash it. Upside down bed, cupboard lying on it's side, clothing flying around, throwing things against the wall. I'm only 1.52m tall and don't weigh much, so my parents never understood how I caused so much damage. Lol Sigh 😔 then I had to hold all of that in because my daughter and I shared a room and never found another outlet. Thus the "whatever is in front of me" method. But yeah, the breaking random things inevitably scared her so I promised her I would work on it. I've been breakage free for over a year! My dream house has a sound proof basement, containing an infinite amount of things to smash and has a sign on the door that says "Break Room"
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I've smashed 2 laptops in the past......
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