[Victoria'smom]

I'm drawing blanks. I told her to spot mood swings but other then that. Which she thinks I have good incite. She says between you guys and my husband I have a strong support system. She will not work on getting off meds. So at this point. Neither of us really know the point. I'm no longer in episode. I feel like I mine as well not go anymore and it's only week two. I don't really have issues outside BP and I keep my life super simple. So any idea's or should I just leave?

I think therapy is useful. Sometimes things pop up in your life and it's good to have someone professional to talk to.

You didn't need a T for a while, but the minute you started an episode, you needed a T, am I right?

You can always change your appointments such that you go every 1-3 months. Or you could use your T on an "as needed basis".

It doesn't sound like you're getting much out of it now, but I remember you said before that you weren't sure if you connected with this new T. You could always try a new T too

I have no idea. Therapy is going slow for me and I'm paying out of pocket. It's feeling a little pointless but I'm trying to have a positive attitude about it.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

What did you do with the therapist you liked who left? Could you do the same with this one? I agree that having someone to check in with is probably good. You did really well with insight this time but in the past it's been a big struggle for you (and it seems like the past isn't all that far away? My memory is very hazy for a while).

[wiretwister]

not seeing mine now either ... but she is on speed dial ...

[cincidak]

I'm stable but I'm still seeing my psychologist once a month just to make sure I'm doing okay. I could go every three months I suppose, unless I need her sooner, then I'd just make an appointment.

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[~Christina]

Over the years I have know you .. well its obvious You need therapy for numerous reasons.

You often become non compliant with your medications but even on medications your often dealing with paranoia, thoughts of self harm and homicidal thoughts about your husband and son, You often want a divorce out of the blue, You lose the ability to eat and drink and understand english and people around you in general.

In the past when your taking your meds as prescribed and seeing a T on a regular basis you are able to stay in a better place physically , mentally and certainly emotionally.

Yes Bipolar often reaches up and slaps the snot out of us even when we are doing everything possible to stay stable. But your Therapy as proven over and over in the past to be very helpful.

I hope you continue

[Victoria'smom]

You often become non compliant with your medications but even on medications your often dealing with paranoia, thoughts of self harm and homicidal thoughts about your husband and son, You often want a divorce out of the blue, You lose the ability to eat and drink and understand English and people around you in general.

She thinks because I have a good support system that I listen too and understand my thoughts are "Off" I'm good. Idk. I know it's really hard to get in when I need it so maybe go every other week.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

But do you really listen? Can you go back through your history and see if it seems like you are listening? I think you get beyond the point that you do see that what we are saying is realistic; I've seen that happen several times with you. I think the therapist is making judgments that are pretty rapid.

I'm not trying to insult you in any way, I just think you have had a lot of times with very poor insight in the time I've known you. And an online group is limited support; if you tell us you are going to kill yourself or if you are in full-blown psychosis we can do nothing to help you beyond encouraging you not to hurt yourself and to seek help you may not believe you need. You need people in your life who can get you to help more rapidly than we can.

[bizi]

spot on.
bizi

[MusicLover82]

From what other PC Bipolar Forum people are saying (I don't know you that well), I would say you need a new T. If she thinks there is nothing to talk about or work on, I suspect she is not that good. -OR- she could be a good T and you may not be totally open and honest about your WORST days. You can't just talk about how you're feeling now, you need to bring up your worst days to your T so you can figure out how to manage them. Same goes with being totally open and honest with your psychiatrist. That's even more important, to make sure you are being medicated properly. Make sure your pdoc knows when you are experiencing hypomania and mania, not just telling him or her when you are depressed, for example.

My husband had this problem with therapy: he wasn't honest about his worst days. Maybe you should keep a journal so you can have some specific things to talk about. Seeing a therapist once a month is good for maintenance, now that you're currently feeling stable. Best wishes!!

[Victoria'smom]

I think I have sucky insight. I listen as much as I can but when I'm gone, I'm gone. She saw me at my highest in a while. I told her about thinking if I cut a healing light would come out of me and the time I tried to preform a tummy tuck on myself. She seems to think it's okay because I stop myself before things get to far. I don't know if it's her or me but asking me what I want to work on/why am I in therapy stresses me and I don't know the answer and I know I need it. It keeps me out of the hospital. I just want to be sane.

[cincidak]

Having someone to talk to is comforting. If it keeps you out of the hospital then that's a good thing.

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[cincidak]

I think you may need a new therapist who takes you seiously. Just my opinion

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[annielovesbacon]

Unfortunately I don't know you very well as I'm new(ish) to PC but from what others have said it seems to me like therapy is important for helping keep you on track in the times when you are not doing as well as you are doing now... and sadly we all know those times will come whether we want them to or not.
I've found (and this is just me, it may or may not apply to you) that therapy hasbeen reallly useful in identifying bad thought patterns and finding ways to fix them so to help me feel better because sometimes better thought = better feelings. At least for me anyway.
I wish you well!

You have very poor insight into your own condition a great deal of the time. You need a therapist who will see you regularly and help monitor your status. You need a therapist who will work with you on developing that insight and skills so that you don't decompensate so severely and so quickly. Apparently this therapist is not the one if she thinks you are doing that already. Saying an online forum and a mentally ill husband are you support system; therefore, you don't need a therapist is a crock.

[bizi]

It seems like you could use a new therapist...
just my opinion as well.
bizi
sorry this is so hard.
(((((HUGS)))))

[Nammu]

You need a T who you can be open with and not put on the automatic mask of ; I'm fine

You need a T to teach you coping skills when things aren't fine

You need a T who can help you recognize when you are not doing well