i have not cut though yet.

woohoo

[bizi]

need to get that 2nd cup of coffee!
bizi
need to get ready for work!

Originally Posted by bizi

need to get that 2nd cup of coffee!
bizi
need to get ready for work!

think i'm sticking to J2O and cola today

[Coconutzo]

This akathisia is worse than I thought.Kept up half the night with anxious energy and fidgety limbs. Had a total meltdown over it at the gym. I could barely function. My trainer knows what I struggle with and was very supportive but it was embarrassing. Oh well. It's over now. Today I am back to work. Hopefully I can keep my **** together

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[Unrigged64072835]

Got final referral scheduled for next month. Got my wedding ring cleaned and inspected before all the back-to-school shoppers hit the mall. I'm now tired but not enough to go to sleep. I'm just existing, not much else.

Had bad allergy attack today. Caused my nose and throat to nearly swell completely shut!

I have no clue what caused it, but it must be some kind of plant or tree outside. The problem is that I'm in Poland, so who knows what kind of allergens they have.

I bought some allergy medicine from one of the Polski pharmacists (is Polski the right word? I hope it's not racist.. Or is it Polish?). I spent 10 minutes with her trying to get the right medicine. She spoke very little English!

And for those who don't know, you can't just buy OTC medicines in Poland. All the OTCs are locked behind a glass wall and a pharmacist has to get things for you. I found that out the hard way!

[p00dlez]

Beginning to think I was lied to about these dogs (poodles). They really don't seem like they are 2 or 3 years old. I am beginning to think they are really puppies and as large as they are, they are standard poodle puppies. I don't have the room for two giant standard poodles in my house!

They play like puppies all day long and are wearing me out. They have zero training or manners for inside the house. They eat my papers and shred them all over the house. I wonder if that's where that letter from my pdocs office saying my appointment was canceled went?

At least house training is going good only if I could get them to tell me when they got to go. Right now I just take them out every hour or so.

[hopeless2015]

Had to report for jury duty this morning but released and back to work by 10:30, doing much better today than yesterday, I'm so thankful for that!!

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[raspberrytorte]

Originally Posted by Coconutzo

This akathisia is worse than I thought.Kept up half the night with anxious energy and fidgety limbs. Had a total meltdown over it at the gym. I could barely function. My trainer knows what I struggle with and was very supportive but it was embarrassing. Oh well. It's over now. Today I am back to work. Hopefully I can keep my **** together

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Oh no! I know how horrible it can get. I hate it. I end up pacing all over the place and not being able to sit for even a few minutes without having extreme discomfort! I really hope it gets better for you. And I hope you don't have a job where you have to sit all day. That would be torture!

[Coconutzo]

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

Oh no! I know how horrible it can get. I hate it. I end up pacing all over the place and not being able to sit for even a few minutes without having extreme discomfort! I really hope it gets better for you. And I hope you don't have a job where you have to sit all day. That would be torture!

Thanks!
I'm a hairdresser so I get to move a lot.

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[OctobersBlackRose]

Went to my meeting with my case manager, then my DBT group, and then therapy, it was a long morning/afternoon. We did mindfulness I'm group today, have a really thick packet on mindfulness skills. Actually slept through the night for the first time in a few months. Now just laying in bed and lurking around here. No voices today, and I'm a little more.grounded in reality, but my depression is still high, didn't want to go to my appointments/group today, but I forced myself to, and forcing myself to take my meds and eat as well. But I have no problem showering as that is more of a compulsion than anything. Today want a bad day either, just depressed. Talked to my Dad a little bit, he thinks just going out will cure my depression, I had to tell him it's a chemical imbalance, and I'm barely able to get out of bed most days, let alone go anywhere. But he understands a little bit, I just need to explain to him how my brain works is all.

Hope everyone else is doing okay, hugs to you all.

[Coffeee]

Today was a good day, got to set up a volunteer opportunity that might lead to a job. Went to group and was feeling happy and energetic today which is a nice change from the depression. Still some anxiety though.

[xRavenx]

I think today is finally going to be the day where I call my previous therapist up and make an appointment. It has been about a year since I went, and there's situations in my life I just don't know how to deal with. The reason I stopped going was because of the money and because my work schedule conflicted with hers often. A lot of other therapists are out of network or not in the area, but this time I'm really going to try to make it work.

I feel anxious and depressed lately, and I'm recovering from the aftermath of a manic episode, so there's definitely a lot of stuff I'd like to address. I just want to get some confidence and heal. Hopefully it will help.

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Had bad allergy attack today. Caused my nose and throat to nearly swell completely shut!

I have no clue what caused it, but it must be some kind of plant or tree outside. The problem is that I'm in Poland, so who knows what kind of allergens they have.

I bought some allergy medicine from one of the Polski pharmacists (is Polski the right word? I hope it's not racist.. Or is it Polish?). I spent 10 minutes with her trying to get the right medicine. She spoke very little English!

And for those who don't know, you can't just buy OTC medicines in Poland. All the OTCs are locked behind a glass wall and a pharmacist has to get things for you. I found that out the hard way!

i'm not sure if Polski is the right word or not, but i know it's not racist.. i've listened to some pollish online radio stations- and Polski is usually how they describe their music, or in some instances it helps form the name of the station

[Daonnachd]

Yesterday I was descending a steep hill on my mountain bike and did a faceplant. I bit through my lip, as well as grinding skin off in lots of places around my body. Today I'm just floating through a fog of pain, but on the upside, it distracts me from the state my mind is in.

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Originally Posted by vertigo

Yesterday I was descending a steep hill on my mountain bike and did a faceplant. I bit through my lip, as well as grinding skin off in lots of places around my body. Today I'm just floating through a fog of pain, but on the upside, it distracts me from the state my mind is in.

Ouch! Hope everything heals up quickly!

Not much going on today. I'm getting my nails done, and that's about it. I have pdoc tomorrow, so need to figure out to leave my med regime as is or to lower the doses until I get over this anxiety. I don't know if the meds are making the anxiety worse or not, so I need to talk to her about it.

Edit: my husband just found out he has two weeks of jury duty at the end of the month. That means missing T because we're down to one car and I'm too scared to use a cab. Oh well.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by vertigo

Yesterday I was descending a steep hill on my mountain bike and did a faceplant. I bit through my lip, as well as grinding skin off in lots of places around my body. Today I'm just floating through a fog of pain, but on the upside, it distracts me from the state my mind is in.

ouch!
lots of advil today, be kind to yourself, sorry that happened.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Originally Posted by vertigo

Yesterday I was descending a steep hill on my mountain bike and did a faceplant. I bit through my lip, as well as grinding skin off in lots of places around my body. Today I'm just floating through a fog of pain, but on the upside, it distracts me from the state my mind is in.

Ouch. I feel your pain.

I've never face planted off my bike, but I have ripped up my skin like that. Hurts like a b****.

Hope you feel better!

Is your bike okay, btw? Or did it get damaged?

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Is your bike okay, btw? Or did it get damaged?

Thanks, Blue. Yeah, surprisingly, the bike came out fine. It's lucky in that I went down on the non-derailleur side.

[Coconutzo]

Originally Posted by xRavenx

I think today is finally going to be the day where I call my previous therapist up and make an appointment. It has been about a year since I went, and there's situations in my life I just don't know how to deal with. The reason I stopped going was because of the money and because my work schedule conflicted with hers often. A lot of other therapists are out of network or not in the area, but this time I'm really going to try to make it work.

I feel anxious and depressed lately, and I'm recovering from the aftermath of a manic episode, so there's definitely a lot of stuff I'd like to address. I just want to get some confidence and heal. Hopefully it will help.

Good for you, calling your old t back. That's hard to do and a big step!
Xo

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[franz kafka]

depressed, self-harming, just want to sleep and be unconscious. **** bipolar depression.

[OctobersBlackRose]

Only got 2hrs of sleep in the past 32hrs, and I don't even feel tired, and have a lot of energy, and racing thoughts, but can't get out of bed barely due to the depression. Wtf is going on with me? Hearing some voices, but they're mostly saying my name, and they're few and far between. Maybe a couple of benadryl will calm me down...

[Nammu]

I hate the combo of symptoms. The lack of sleep make my brain go haywire and the idea that I should excercise to make my body tired...are you kidding! Last time I was in that state I tried reading a book, it was a mystery, I read it four times in a row cause I couldn't remember who did it. So I mindlessly stared at the tv hour after hour.

[Coffeee]

Today I'm tired and kinda down. Maybe from having a beer last night? Is that a thing?

[hopeless2015]

Had a terrible stomach ache all day, finally starting to feel a little better

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