[Bipolarchic14]

Don't really have more to add to that question other than I have been feeling suicidal and I believe I am hypomanic.

Sometimes I get "angry hypomania" where I don't feel happy... I just feel pissed 100% of the time. When I'm pissed, I want to kill myself because I don't want to deal with the anger.

I'm sure my case is different from what you're talking about, but yes, I have had suicidal thoughts.

i have while manic. I consider myself hypo, if I'm up, but it's not effecting my life much. Once problems are occurring, or I become suicidal, it's either a mixed state or full blown mania. Please take care of yourself if you are feeling this way. It's very dangerous. (((Hugs)))

[Wild Coyote]

I grew up with constant suicide threats around me, along with a few suicides.

Suicide was presented as a viable option by relatives since I can remember.
It's tough to get that deleted from my consciousness. However, no attempts to date.

However, I truly only seriously think about possible suicide when I am in so much severe, relentless physical neuropathic pain. When this goes on for months, without relief, no matter what doctors do to try to help. This is when I start to think about leaving Earth.

Eventually, I get a break somehow. I regroup.

[Bipolarchic14]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Sometimes I get "angry hypomania" where I don't feel happy... I just feel pissed 100% of the time. When I'm pissed, I want to kill myself because I don't want to deal with the anger.

I'm sure my case is different from what you're talking about, but yes, I have had suicidal thoughts.

Yes and no. I have times I get so angry at everyone that I want to kill myself so I don't have to deal with anyone. I really have not been irritable this time but was really bad a couple of months ago! My energy is excessive. Sleeping 3-5 hrs a night. I have been exercising 3 to 4 hrs a day because I don't know what to do with myself. Today I skipped work which I should not have. I was feeling really suicidal last night. I took the day off and went to the beach with a friend. Needed time to decompress. I hope my job does not misinterpret that. Anyway I am bringing up the episode fri. I think they knew it was coming. I was overwhelmed with thoughts a week ago and discussed it in group. The first question out of my therapists mouth when I went to therapy was how irritable have I been. Ironically I was not able to recall the week so could not really answer that.

[Nammu]

Hypo mania ? No, I'm feeling too good. Mixed? yes, constantly.

[OctobersBlackRose]

More if I'm manic or mixed, not so.much during hypomania.

[pirilin]

Never. Depressed yes.

[Wander]

Not when pure hypomanic but almost always when mixed (hypo and depressed). Are you ok?

[Spaceyspace]

Hypo no, but for me that's a short carriage ride to maniaville. Mixed absolutely, it is so physically agitating and my mood and thoughts are awful.

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I grew up with constant suicide threats around me, along with a few suicides.

Suicide was presented as a viable option by relatives since I can remember.
It's tough to get that deleted from my consciousness. However, no attempts to date.

However, I truly only seriously think about possible suicide when I am in so much severe, relentless physical neuropathic pain. When this goes on for months, without relief, no matter what doctors do to try to help. This is when I start to think about leaving Earth.

Eventually, I get a break somehow. I regroup.

i grew up with suicide too

i know i posted it before in another thread, but my first proper attempt (knew what i was doing and everything) was at 9 years old

people still talk about that to me... you must have been desperate, they say

and yeah, i suppose i was. i mean what kind of 9 year old kid do you know who understands suicide and what it actually means

[Wander]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

i grew up with suicide too

i know i posted it before in another thread, but my first proper attempt (knew what i was doing and everything) was at 9 years old

people still talk about that to me... you must have been desperate, they say

and yeah, i suppose i was. i mean what kind of 9 year old kid do you know who understands suicide and what it actually means

My first attempt was at 9 years old too. It is incredibly sad when a child so young wants to die. I was desperate and traumatised. I don't know where I got the idea but somehow I figured it out.

[spiritpanda]

yes, every time I have a manic episode, I fly off the rail and attempt suicide every time. however I'm one of the lucky ones since it takes a lot for me to enter mania

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[Anxiousvalkyrie]

When I'm hypo things are usually great initially but I always end up getting suicidal, and when the full blown mania hits I become even more suicidal. Depression doesn't make me nearly as suicidal as mania and hypomania can for some reason. But my depressive episodes are usually far less often than the manias. Right now I feel like I'm hypo having come off of an incredibly intense mania and I'm quite suicidal. I told my psychiatrist he other week that I think about suicide every single day but I don't think I real,y want to die. If I did it it would be an impulsive thing and not something I planned.

[Bipolarchic14]

I had a mixed episode last year so that is possible. I did sleep almost a full night last night. First time in a week. I did not exercise after a certain time put all distractions away took a nice cool shower. My clothes were annoying me so I slept nude. 😁 I know TMI! All of those helped. I also started decorating a house in my mind to distract me from the hundreds of other things floating around. I still felt high and excited the whole day for absolutely no reason. I don't mind that obviously but it sucks when you realize your excited for nothing! No suicidal urges though.

[letsgogh]

More when I'm mixed.

Which I get more mixed episodes than pure hypos anyway.