random thoughts thread

Angelique67 · Jul 29, 2016, 11:42 PM

I guess even older women can be "mean girls". Thanks to them for showing me. And from their moral high ground yet! Lol. Yep, really gives me confidence in them! 🙃 Just something I noticed. Not from pc.

Jul 30, 2016, 01:40 AM

I'm better. Slept 13 hours. Still mixed. Woke up a sobbing mess.

See pdoc on Monday. I am still mixed. I see pdoc Monday. I'll pull through.

ty for support. I will support everyone more when I am more stabilized. Still mixed. Pdoc on Monday.

Not typing coherently.

Standup2me · Jul 30, 2016, 01:41 AM

Not sleeping
Pre manic
Wheeeeeeeeee

OctobersBlackRose · Jul 30, 2016, 01:50 AM

Rainy nights are so calming...

gina_re · Jul 30, 2016, 08:52 AM

I don't understand what's the point of why people are so narrow minded. IRL and here on PC.

gina_re · Jul 30, 2016, 08:53 AM

You're so annoying

OctobersBlackRose · Jul 30, 2016, 09:03 AM

Cloudy cool day today, nice for.a.changemfrom the heat...

Unrigged64072835 · Jul 30, 2016, 10:39 AM

Need to get into something. Not sure what yet.

Standup2me · Jul 30, 2016, 07:44 PM

Feel self destructive
Ashamed of failure
I deserve to treat myself better than I do

LadyShadow · Jul 30, 2016, 07:50 PM

What a calm night tonight.....

OctobersBlackRose · Jul 30, 2016, 10:41 PM

I should listen to some music to calm down, but at the same time can't muster up the energy to do so.

xRavenx · Jul 31, 2016, 02:07 AM

I can't sleep. I've been feeling really lethargic the past few days. Usually I'm manicky or mixed, but ever since Thursday, I've been feeling more depressed and withdrawn. There's some confusing life changes going on, so maybe that's part of it, but I can tell the Bipolar is making it much harder. I just want to get back on track again.

Jul 31, 2016, 06:18 AM

I have not adjusted to the European time zone yet. I keep sleeping at random times of the day. I get like 4 hours of sleep a night, then take like 1 or 2 naps.

Unrigged64072835 · Jul 31, 2016, 09:12 AM

I don't know why starting this new project is causing me so much anxiety. It's just a hobby, after all. It's not like it's for a job. It feels like my mind is not set up to try anything new anymore for fear of failure, even though that is only imagined. There's no way I can fail this even though my mind and body seem to think so. And if I can't get over this how in the heck am I ever going to be able to go back to school if I need or want to? And I don't know if Latuda is actually making things worse. I still had this anxiety before switching meds, but not to this degree. It's just frustrating and sad.

junkDNA · Jul 31, 2016, 10:15 AM

i want biscuits

gina_re · Jul 31, 2016, 10:28 AM

I don't feel like cleaning

Wild Coyote · Jul 31, 2016, 01:53 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by gina_re

I don't feel like cleaning

I feel the same!

Wild Coyote · Jul 31, 2016, 01:57 PM

I feel like some people around me are clueless, even when they have seen me in excruciating physical pain in a chronic way, for years -- they still say absurd stuff to me. It's demoralizing to know some around me are that clueless, that disconnected, no matter what I do or say.

WC

Wild Coyote · Jul 31, 2016, 02:00 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I have not adjusted to the European time zone yet. I keep sleeping at random times of the day. I get like 4 hours of sleep a night, then take like 1 or 2 naps.

This is how I sleep chronically. I feel very fortunate if I get a 4 hour period of sleep!

It is not fun, Blue. I hope your sleep cycle adjusts, pronto!

WC

OctobersBlackRose · Jul 31, 2016, 07:50 PM

I want to paint my room a.dark blue.

Standup2me · Jul 31, 2016, 08:27 PM

Billy Corgan is BP. I can hear it in his music.

hahayeahtotallylol · Jul 31, 2016, 09:54 PM

i wish i knew what people feel all the time like in the movie What Women Want, but not for manipulative reasons, if only to know how i effect others

when i smoke weed, which hasn't been in a while, and sometimes when i am very depressed, i feel like i am more connected to the things around me, and i hear, see and notice subtle things that remind me how big of an impact i can have on people, or how big an impact anyone can have, for that matter

it makes me feel like i am being cheated of the right to be "in the loop". i feel like the only time i understand social things is when i make a best guess based on an elaborate resonance table created from bits and pieces of interactions i've collect throughout the years, or when someone slaps me in the face with a que or behavior that forces me to become aware of the depth of the situation

fer fuks sake breh.

and im in so much debt its quite horrible

cant even pay my defense attorney that is 6 months past due. afraid they may revoke my 3 criminal charges that were reduced to violations

fukin A.