[raspberrytorte]

I'm having a damn anxiety attack, heart pounding, feel like I can't swallow, shaking, chest pains.

My parents are holding my meds because I had a bad reaction to lorazepam the other night.

I need a propranolol right now.

I asked if I could have one.

My parents are drunk right now.

Response: Seriously?! You don't need that. Give us a break. You can deal with it on your own. You don't need meds. You need to learn to deal with this on your own!!!

They are nasty right now. So mean. My mom commanded me to sit down by them. Hell no! I'm not hanging out with them right now when they're drunk and mean and denying me propranolol, which I am prescribed to take as needed for anxiety attacks!

[BleakGeek]

Is there anywhere else you can go that is more supportive? I feel bad for you!

[raspberrytorte]

Unfortunately no.

[BleakGeek]

What about breathing techniques? Breath out slowly.

[Victoria'smom]

Take a shower see if that helps a little.

[~Christina]

Can you contact your Pdoc or T Monday and explain the situation ? maybe they can call or keep your meds and you come in every couple days and pick up your prescribed meds for2-3 days at a time?

My Pdoc office offers this if anyone needs it .. That way you wont ever have enough to actually harm yourself , But it would be you at least getting your meds rather than depend on unstable parents ..

Just a thought ..

I'm sorry that your dealing with more bulllshyt

Hang in there, sweetie. I am thinking of you.

Omg! I'm so sorry.

[OctobersBlackRose]

Sending you hugs.

[hopeless2015]

I'm so sorry rasp...that's awful

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[raspberrytorte]

My husband doesn't want me, so I guess I'm just going to have to deal with it.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Can your husband mediate and have them give you a small supply of the propanolol to use at your will? Obviously when they aren't drunk but also when they aren't trying to protect their child; hearing it from someone else who cares about you might help? I don't know. Maybe when you finally see the pdoc they can write out how much of each med you can have at once? That was part of my safety plan after leaving the hospital after going in with intent once. I was monitored in filling pill boxes and only allowed to have a certain amount of medication at once, especially anything that could hurt me.

[raspberrytorte]

Thanks, rainbow.

I'm not suicidal right now. I just sort of feel like my life is completely meaningless. I mean, my husband and my daughter were the most important people in my life, and now they're gone. So, what's the point of my life? I'm just going to float around for awhile and spend the rest of my life numbed and completely pointless.

That's my life goal. Float around for awhile in meaninglessness.

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

Thanks, rainbow.

I'm not suicidal right now. I just sort of feel like my life is completely meaningless. I mean, my husband and my daughter were the most important people in my life, and now they're gone. So, what's the point of my life? I'm just going to float around for awhile and spend the rest of my life numbed and completely pointless.

That's my life goal. Float around for awhile in meaninglessness.

I hope you're able to see your husband and daughter soon (in less than 6 months), or that the 6 months goes by quickly for you.

[Unrigged64072835]

So sorry to hear that you're going through this. Big hugs to you.

[raspberrytorte]

Well, my mom finally let me have a propranolol after I begged her this morning for one because my heart was still pounding and I couldn't sleep last night because of it.

I feel much better now.

Your situation sounds so hard...I really hope things get better soon. Is there anything you can do to distract yourself for a bit? Like take online classes or something you can easily do from home? Not sure what your interests are but awhile back I started to teach myself code and it was really fun and empowering (and you can find tons of classes for free online ). Anything to give you a sense of purpose/focus/structure (if you're not too down)...

[Yours_Truly]

[xRavenx]

((HUGS)) I feel for you. I remember with my parents growing up, they did not agree with medication.....there was a lot of blaming and the whole "suck it up, pull yourself up by your bootstraps" approach. My dad didn't deal with things well......he had a drinking problem. I'm sorry you do not have the support you need from outside resources, but of course you always have the support here. You are not alone. I used to find comfort in finding things to read and sometimes journaling/writing down my thoughts (I still do, actually). It's hard to rely on just coping skills when meds are needed, but please hang in there!

[Wild Coyote]

My heart goes out to you. You have so much on your plate. You need the meds you need. Plain and simple.

Continue to request your meds, as any backing off in requesting may be misinterpreted by your parents (that they are correct, you don't need meds).

I hope there's a way to get control of your own meds. Please ask your pdoc, letting him/her know you are denied meds by your parents.

In the meantime, please keep reaching out here and wherever you find helpful.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.


WC

[sugahorse1]

Wow that is borderline abuse - withholding doctor prescribed medication.
Can you maybe rather leave your meds with a friend and collect as you need them? Kind of like Christina's suggestion

[pirilin]

Talk to the prescribing doctor. Maybe the only person that will make your parents understand.

Originally Posted by pirilin

Talk to the prescribing doctor. Maybe the only person that will make your parents understand.

I agree. I know my pdoc would have been absolutely livid if someone tried that on me. He would have gotten in touch with them and read them the riot act.

[Hashi/bipolar mom]

Oh man! I'm so sorry! I've been thinking about you! That is abuse, plain and simple. I hope things change for you!

[raspberrytorte]

You guys are all so nice. Thank you.