Missing Euphoria

I miss feeling euphoric, as I do during hypomania. I look back and logically know that these experiences were not healthy and resulted in damage emotionally and financially, but I still cannot stop craving the experiences I had during the height of hypomania and that feeling of being so on top of the world and excited for the future.

I know it gives me a skewed view of what it means to be truly healthy and happy, but I can't stop myself from grieving the times where I felt good as a result of hypomania. I suspect that I don't know what it feels like to feel happiness without the hypomania....maybe. Which is bad since I know the happiness I felt while hypomanic was just an illusion. Basically, lately I'm addicted to feeling that rush that I would get while "up," in spite of its consequences. I regret those decisions, but crave the high feeling.

For those of you who can relate, what helps you cope with these feelings?

I often yearn for the days of hypomania, but now $12,000 later I don't miss it. How do I cope? I write, I try to find passion in things I love. I connect with people either on the internet or in real life. I try to the enjoy the life I have, even though it may not be as "fun" as hypomania.

Just have to live without I guess, and I cope by finding joy in just being "stable"

I still miss it.

I miss it, too.


WC

It's like the best drug in the world. I miss it terribly some times but I try to remind myself of the horrible mixed states I tend to go into after. There is almost nothing I wouldn't do to avoid them.

I miss being hypo but I don't miss the crashes I have afterwards.

I'm really craving that feeling right now too

totally. haven't been high in over a year. it reminds me of the let-down people describe after taking ecstasy or LSD...oh, this is my reality? but the other reality was so much better!

I feel like that every moment of my existence when I am not hypo. There is no feeling in the world which will ever compare to that. I am unmedicated so knowing that sooner or later I will be hypomanic again helps me cope.

In my non hypo depressed phase which lasts almost 6-9 months I try and stay afloat by exercising , playing snooker and doing anything which gives me a sense of accomplishment.

I wont lie, it is hard. Really ****ing hard. But its the price youve gotta pay if you wanna experience hypomania.

I miss the euphoria but i get so unrealistic and reckless financially that i'm glad i haven't had one in over a year and am hopefully done with them. I feel such crippling shame afterwards -- it's not worth it. And nearly bankrupting myself is too dangerous. Crashing was always extremely painful too. I know it's great to be on top of the world but i'll accept a less stimulating life to avoid the pitfalls -- no contest.