[jacky8807]

I am feeling so much better. I want to be social and I just feel well. Hope it sticks!

[Coffeee]

I'm doing OK, a little tired but doing all that needs doing albeit slowly. Better slowly then never right!

I did three [3] loads of laundry today! I also got out to the mall to check my blood pressure, get a break from my apartment and my dog and people-watch and pick up a few groceries.

[Wander]

Feeling much better since stopping Prozac. Was only on it three days but it immediately made me loopy. Agitated, irritable, couldn't sleep and very depresses. Pdoc said to stop it and now two days later I feel better. Still a bit low but not as agitated thank god. Yesterday I went for to long walks to burn off the agitation and boost my mood and they really helped.

Dropped a unit at uni as I was overwhelmed by the workload. It seems I need a lot of downtime these days just to keep my head above the water. PTSD and BP has made me very sensitive to stress. I am in recovery from years of intense stress and trauma. The good thing is the worst has passed and I believe I will recover. It will just take time.

[bizi]

survived the floods....tried to work in the shelters but could not because I was overwhelmed.
Got jury notice and tried to get my pdoc doctor to write a letter like she did 10 years ago....she can not so.... I will have to plea hardship or burden or excessive inconvenience...which are both true.
bizi

[OctobersBlackRose]

Having this weird effect with my Geodon, that I actually had when I was in it in middle school, it is where if I miss a dose by even an hour, I start to get really sick to my stomach, which doesn't help.that I got to take it with food, idk I'll let my psychiatrist know on the 31st when I see her, if it doesn't go away.
Have DBT group, and then individual therapy tomorrow, gotta get some sleep, but I'm only half tired, plus the cat can't decide if he wants in or out of my room ever 10 minutes.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by OctobersBlackRose

Having this weird effect with my Geodon, that I actually had when I was in it in middle school, it is where if I miss a dose by even an hour, I start to get really sick to my stomach, which doesn't help.that I got to take it with food, idk I'll let my psychiatrist know on the 31st when I see her, if it doesn't go away.
Have DBT group, and then individual therapy tomorrow, gotta get some sleep, but I'm only half tired, plus the cat can't decide if he wants in or out of my room ever 10 minutes.

Are you sure it is the geodon?
sorry for the nausea.
bizi
do you take it twice a day?

Originally Posted by vjdragonfly

I'm in the same boat mermaid, only I'm waiting on a nurse to call. My appt. is the 9th of September and I don't think I can make it. My pdoc is booked out 6 months in advance and it is like pulling hens teeth to be considered for a cancellation.

Yes... I haven't been called once for a cancellation

I'm burning heavy Ernie right now:



We had to fire our main contractor today. This is how it sounded and felt, especially after Bert really leans into the drum at 0:16:

I'm profoundly mentally ill with a cardiac issue. Don't start something there won't be nothing: I won't go nonlinear on your dumbass lava-bumpkin crew and your tough-guy Napoleon complex, and my heart won't pop like a zit.



Sukhoi Aviation Corporation Su-30

[Moreta]

Dug out my CD case and have been ripping all this 90s and early 2000s music. Man it brings back so many memories.

Been having anxiety, but yesterday didn't wake up with any. I must have the best therapist ever. lmao.

So I went to get a blood test today to make sure my meds aren't increasing my cholesterol or blood sugar.

The phlebotomist was like, "You're too young for this. You shouldn't need to be here. You need to take better care or yourself." What the f*** is that supposed to mean?

Great way to start the day!

[bizi]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

So I went to get a blood test today to make sure my meds aren't increasing my cholesterol or blood sugar.

The phlebotomist was like, "You're too young for this. You shouldn't need to be here. You need to take better care or yourself." What the f*** is that supposed to mean?

Great way to start the day!

It is none of her business!!!!!!!!
How judgementala nd rude and unprofessional. She can think but not say what she did, I think I might have reported her to her supervisor.
grrrr!
bizi

another day wasted.

looked something like this: ate too much in the morning, and in the afternoon got triggered by a tv show

was meant to order groceries today... didn't

[hopeless2015]

Felt my mood take a major nose dive last night, home today in bed sigh, I'm tired of this Rollercoaster of moods

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[Coconutzo]

Feeling better and better. Sleeping is still a little rough. Anxiety dreams and racing thoughts.
Great sex before bed though!

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having a bout of crs.

Everything is going to be okay today. Going to wrap up and mail some sketches to a library in Washington, gonna pay some people, do some bookkeeping, keep up the website, assemble some cabinets, sketch out plans for a structural lumber work table, live by my wits, substitute pushups for benzodiazepines, hide in plain sight and tell no one. It's nearly 9AM, that's the plan and I'm sticking to it.

Good morning to my sisters and brothers in madness.

[vjdragonfly]

Nurse called me back, but my pdoc is out till Friday so have to wait till he gets the info and decides what to do with it. Battling every step of the way just to make it through another day.

[Unrigged64072835]

My husband definitely doesn't like splitting the chores. I try to get him to, but he prefers to do everything. I sneak in and help when I can. I hate it when he does this because then I feel lazy. I would just let him do it but he has a bad back like I do. I think I will be happy when he's on jury duty so I can get stuff done for a change.

Noooooooo!
I've been doing SO well. Hoping this is just a wobble. A few things had had me on a cautious (but not overly-concerned) hypo-watch. Then Sunday and Monday, pretty agitated and irritable (including a few public displays thereof ). Hitting some depressive spells. Can't have it latch on. Still, been laying in bed for several hours now completely unmotivated. And a little hostile.

It's good I can't "remember" these times in a truly visceral sense when stable. Though that does contribute (when stable) to thinking, "it's all ok now". I may need the reminder it's delusive, but I don't like it.

Oh please let it just be a wobble....

[OctobersBlackRose]

Originally Posted by bizi

Are you sure it is the geodon?
sorry for the nausea.
bizi
do you take it twice a day?

I don't know, it seems like it is the Geodon, but whatever is causing it, I hope it goes away soon.

[OctobersBlackRose]

Went to my group and individual therapy, that went well, I actually had stuff to talk about in my therapy session. Still have really bad nausea, idk what really is causing it, I suspect the Geodon, but it could also be Abilify withdrawals too, or a stomach bug, who knows, but wasn't able to eat anything today. Idk I hope it goes away soon though... But other than that it wasn't a bad day overall, it rained a little so I was happy.

Doing ok... I just can't get myself to do the work I am supposed to do
I have to dig really deep to get all the motivation I have left to get the job done. Then I am exhausted. Want to see my pdoc.

[Wander]

Feeling beaten down by life and this illness. Lost for words. Searching my brain for them but all I find is emptiness. Walking to boost my mood. Helps a bit. Feel overwhelmed. No joy. Study is difficult, as is work. In my downtime I am at a loss as to what to do. I may be down but I am not defeated. I will rise again. Just give me time to heal.

isolated

like people pretend to understand but don't

someone asked me today: how are you?, and i'm like.. well to be honest, i've not had a good week at all- and they are like, oh good, well i hope it gets worse for you

things like that make me feel so isolated and alone