[gina_re]

Made myself go to my mom's since my sister was there and could do my hair. So it was nice to see my nephews for a few hours. Still some anxiety leftover though. Eh, such is life.

[Espurr1989]

I start full-time work in the morning, so I'm kinda scared. I'm starting to get mentally and physically ready for my day and week tomorrow. I took my pills just now because before my last med change, taking them 12 hours before I needed to be up meant I wouldn't be groggy for very long after I got up. Going to get my clothes together and everything I need tomorrow and shower before bed too. Trying to keep the whole ordeal in perspective. Coloring to try to keep my anxiety in check.

Pros: Working a 9-5 will probably help with my sleep schedule.
While this is anxiety provoking, it relieves the anxiety of not knowing where I'm going to get my internship hours and I'm progressing in my goals.
Money lol.

Cons: Not sure how working full-time is going to affect my symptoms and overall mental state.
I'm going to have way less alone and relax time.
Being around people all the time means I'm not going to want to be around anyone at night and on weekends.

I'm exhausted. I'm just living from day to day. I'm in bed for 12 hours at night plus i have two naps. But i realize i am lucky to be able to indulge my depression this way. I don't feel like making any effort at all. I cancelled out of my cooking class. My dog is my only obligation.

[bizi]

I am sorry jane.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

still feeling a little suicidal, and want to hide

but trying to just distract myself with other stuff.. i have another amazon parcel ariving today, i'm hopefully going to have beef burgers for dinner, and i'm currently on here

still it's all not enough

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( hugs )))))))

[Gs550]

Another bad day. I haven't spoken to anyone since Wednesday, now I'm depressed and anxious so I can't even nap or watch Netflix.

[hopeless2015]

As much as I didn't want to I dragged myself out of bed and got on with my day. I don't think it was bp related this morning..just Monday morning, I don't wanna go to work thing lol

[Coconutzo]

Holy moly, this weekend was trying.
My (very small) house has turned into a home for wayward souls. It's a lot of chaos. 5 people and a couple of dogs. Helping my boyfriend care for his drug addicted and undiagnosed mentally ill sister. We don't know which of her struggles come from which problem. It's like having a defiant nonsensical grown up child to care for. But one I feel deep empathy for. She is waking up screaming and hearing voices non stop. Tomorrow I'm taking the day off to fix her hair for her and to get her a state ID and state insurance. Hopefully we can get her some medical attention. She is in rough physical shape as well as mental.Also housing a friend in between homes. There are people everywhere I look, and I'm just trying to keep everything clean and food stocked. Also monitoring my boyfriends mental state. He is super triggered by situations like these. Keeping candy on hand and trying to make him laugh as much as possible.
Woof. One day at a time...
Side note: Of course this would go down when I'm weeks overdue for a therapy appointment and can't get in until the end of the month. Thank sweet baby Jesus for gym therapy.(and maybe some retail therapy)

[jacky8807]

Feeling pressure from life work kids my sons football schedule is killing me while I try trileptal and maybe transferring jobs within my company and not feeling like I can match the standards of life or other ppl
Other than that I'm ok lol

[scatterbrained04]

I'm mentally exhausted. For whatever reason, every patient I talked to this morning felt like ripping my face off. Happy Monday!

Glad to be home.

[Gabyunbound]

I'm trying to find the gumption in me to go for a drive. I've had a few days off from work and need to get out of here and do something other than taking long walks (and one visit to a friend). I just need a little (ok, a lot) of courage to jump in my car and do some exploring. I moved here a year ago, and still don't know much of my surroundings.

[OctobersBlackRose]

Went to the store.amd out to eat.with my Grandma. Redid my hair, back to black! Now just listening to music and laying down.

[Unrigged64072835]

Went to T today. The session was okay. Other than that not much else.

[fishin fool]

Kind of a sad day. Found out a few things that were kept from me about my brother.
Him and I were once so close but we have not spoken in about two years and I am not
sure if we ever will speak again. Tough day.

[Nammu]

Mum and I drove to the cable company and after some negotiations have got wirerless internet for her house. Went to Dairy Queen my treat for a celebration.

[mindwrench]

Rockin and rollin. Probably going to be all night long! I love the euphoria stage! Does it make me bad if I like this?

[VerMOZZica]

Feeling kind of low right now.Tomorrow I have a doctor appointment and I really hate going to those.They make nervous.

[raspberrytorte]

Feeling a little stressed out. Rough day.

Got a huge medical bill in the mail. Another one. This one pushing one thousand dollars.

[Gabyunbound]

Gathered the courage to get on hwy 1 South to see what I found. I ended up stopping in Carmel, where I had already been once, but I'm proud of myself: I have no sense of direction and am always really scared about driving to places I'm not really familiar with.

Another day spent lying around. In a stand-off with showering. It's three days now and i look pretty shabby. Stuck to my diet at least. Tomorrow is weigh-in. Eee!

[gina_re]

I have a job interview tomorrow! Hooray! A little nervous, but it's the HR interview and those aren't usually too bad. Trying to move on up in the world!

[dangerousanimals]

I don't want to go to my psych appointment tomorrow...
I'm in one of those "I need to leave" moods...I'm never sure what it really means. Past psych docs thought this urge was mania...current psych docs don't--they see this as me actively making decisions to go somewhere...maybe they'll feel differently about it when they see me tomorrow.
I'm supposed to visit a friend this weekend--2 hour drive--but I'm not sure if that's going far enough away.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by gina_re

I have a job interview tomorrow! Hooray! A little nervous, but it's the HR interview and those aren't usually too bad. Trying to move on up in the world!

good luck regina!

Mentally, relaxed. Sleeping well. Physically, chronic pain plus a nasty cold. Low energy.