[raspberrytorte]

Originally Posted by jacky8807

What is her reasoning for taking you off this med if it works for your anxiety? I don't get pdoc sometimes

Because, blah blah blah, gabapentin isn't for anxiety. It's just meant for pain. You're on too high of a dose, etc.

I told her it was helping me with my anxiety and she told me that propranolol would be enough.

Um, no, I was just on propranolol before being put on gabapentin and it didn't help enough!

SHE DOESN'T LISTEN TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!! FU.CK!

[raspberrytorte]

I mean... here we go again.

[Coconutzo]

I'm stressed out. I'm too busy. Things are too intense. Not In a bipolar my-brain-is-screwing-with-me way, but in a situational way. I keep telling myself that I am a bad ***** and can handle anything. But I'm actually a bit worried

[hopeless2015]

Anxious today....trying to figure out what my deal is and just get through the work day. I've had to step away from my desk a few times already. I'm determined to get through this pay period and not miss any time though. I can do this!!

[GGChar]

Raspberrytorte, WHAT? I'm taking Gabapentin for anxiety and have been for years. It was prescribed by my pdoc along with Baclofen and my other meds. I just looked and it is easily noted on many sites that Gabapentin is used for anxiety.

Her "reasoning" doesn't make sense and just isn't true! Can you insist that you stay on it? Who is the paying consumer here? Here is one website:

Gabapentin For Anxiety Disorders: An Off-Label Treatment

[Unrigged64072835]

Day went okay. Still had a bit of anxiety. Took a nap and my husband finished patching up the hole in my home office. I can't tell there was a hole there. There's a bit of dust but nothing that can't be cleaned up. Now to have something to do...the local hospital is looking for volunteers. I'm not sure what I can do because of the agoraphobia but it would be nice to get out and do something.

[Wild Coyote]

While tired, made a med mistake last night, one which interfered with my day today. Tomorrow is another day!


WC

[fishin fool]

Hello I am still here

[OctobersBlackRose]

Went to my DBT group and individual therapy session today, went well, we learned Radical Acceptance today, a unit I desperately need. My Uncle came over today which was nice, I was social for a change. And forgot to take my Lamictal today, crap...

I walked over by the river today, under a canopy of trees. It was lovely!

[Gs550]

I think I might have lost my job.

I haven't been on in awhile. Nice to be back. I'm working on getting my drivers license again. It's been 18 yrs! I got my permit and now I'm taking driving lessons. Went out yesterday and went on some busy roads. I did really good. My second lesson. I think I'll only need a couple more then I can take the driving test. I'm really excited about it.

Still stable. Went through some depression there for a little while but we increased my AD and I'm doing much better. Have off days here and there but that's life ya know.

I can't wait to get driving. It's going to open up so much for me. Hope to start going to this community center we have here and take some classes. Also hope to volunteer somewhere but I'm not sure where yet. Oh and I've lost 34 lbs since lowering my zyprexa dose from 15 mgs to 2.5 mgs. I'm gonna have to start working harder on it tho. The weight isn't coming off as fast as it was.

So life's going good, my sons well. Glad to be back...

[Gs550]

Things have started to swing the other way. The meds I'm on have been pretty good about preventing me from getting full on hypo, but I do sometimes just get optimistic and motivated. Not the racing thoughts and grandiose ideas. Just, today I feel like my life isn't so bad, that I have the power to change things for the better, and the desire to do productive things.

I recognize that I'm probably just cycling. But I'm going to enjoy it while I can.

[hopeless2015]

Got up late but managed to get to work on time. Feeling bored with things right now but I'm not depressed. Anxiety is high but not out of control so I think I'm doing good right now.

[bizi]

I am feeling hopeful today.
bizi

[dangerousanimals]

Trying to force creativity this morning... ended up talking to a friend for an hour. I really wanted to lounge in the wet grass outside, but it's weird during the day--at night it's called "stargazing."
Hopefully I can paint something that's less creepy.
Also, don't want to check in with my psych doctor today.

[Coconutzo]

I'm really weepy and emotional today. Everything is upsetting me. I missed my morning run, and I just can't figure anything out. My house is crazy. I'm working so hard to help everyone and working crazy long days and I feel like a mess. Everyone around me is too stressed out for me to be a priority or even worth time or attention. I also haven't been able to see my therapist in 3 weeks and whatever.
Goal #1: Call clinics to get my sister in law some medical/mental health attention
Goal #2: Work 12 hours in (faked) good spirits/humor
Goal #3: Get through the day without crying in front of anyone

This is cool... I'm officially on 9 meds as of this morning -- and if you count vitamins and stuff, then it's 12 "meds".

How awesome. Now I feel like I'm a sickly 90 year old. Next thing I know, I won't even be able to wipe my own ***

[raspberrytorte]

Originally Posted by GGChar

Raspberrytorte, WHAT? I'm taking Gabapentin for anxiety and have been for years. It was prescribed by my pdoc along with Baclofen and my other meds. I just looked and it is easily noted on many sites that Gabapentin is used for anxiety.

Her "reasoning" doesn't make sense and just isn't true! Can you insist that you stay on it? Who is the paying consumer here? Here is one website:

Gabapentin For Anxiety Disorders: An Off-Label Treatment

The last two pdocs I had were okay with me taking it for anxiety. My last one actually upped my dose to 2400mg.

My current pdoc is an ***. There will be no way of convincing her.

[OctobersBlackRose]

Remembered to take my Lamictal today. Nearly passed out this morning, my BP dropped, amd I fell in my kitchen, could still feel it even after.eating amd sleeping. Didn't hurt my self after falling so that's good. Idk if is the meds or what, I don't want to switch APs again, cause all that are left for me.to try have moderate to high potential for weight gain, ugh. Maybe it's from missing 2 days of my Lamictal. I'm starting to feel better now. Oh and less anxious today than I was for the past.2 days.

Originally Posted by dangerousanimals

I really wanted to lounge in the wet grass outside, but it's weird during the day--at night it's called "stargazing."
Hopefully I can paint something that's less creepy.

Have no fear! Not weird during the day-- cloud watching is called nephelococcygia. And it's great! Sounds like a condition though, doesn't it? So maybe you can use it for an excuse when you want to take a day off. "Sorry, can't come in. I've got a bad case of nephelococcygia."

Not been on much a couple/few days, so catching up. Not doing great, but it could be worse.

[Victoria'smom]

Saw new T yesterday after a bit of confusion. I'll only see her about 1x a month. I'm not sure that's enough for me. I was suppose to see NP Tuesday but I forgot. So I see her next Tuesday @ 10:45. I'm so scattered lately anyway and my mouth hurts from cavities. Maybe I should have stayed at the other center. I'm at my in-laws for the weekend and I already want to go home and go back to bed. I like them and all but it's so stressful being awake.

[Gabyunbound]

Sleeping terribly, and since I practically have to get up in the middle of the night to get to work, I'm having a very very hard time getting through the day. Didn't have work today, so slept for over 10 hours.

Because of sleeping so badly, I'm afraid of going into an episode, but so far so good. It helps to have a couple of days off during the week, I just couldn't work full time, but I'm getting less hours now (I'm a freelancer) and I'm very concerned about my finances.

I'm continuing to explore south of here, going south on 1 to see what I find. Last time I went alone and ended up in Carmel and was very proud of myself because I'm usually so scared about driving to new places. Today I'm going with a friend, though, and I think we're going to exit at Pebble Beach/Pacific Grove and explore there. I've never been there before and it's supposed to be really beautiful! It's a sunny day, which is rare where I live where there's so much fog, so I'm pretty psyched.

[Unrigged64072835]

Got a new set of nails put on, so now they look better. Not much else going on.

[p00dlez]

Well after how today went I finally made a decision. I am going to stay the heck away from people. All they ever do is cause me grief and pain. I have tried and tried to fit in, to get people to like me, but nothing ever works.

Maybe its time to just cut my losses and throw in the towel and become a hermit. Its lonely with no friends or anyone that really cares if I live or die besides my husband and kids but maybe its for the best. I seriously cant take no more. Tired of crying over and over because of this.

Folks I don't know if I will come back anymore. Right now even being here seems like too big of a risk. I just cant try anymore, it hurts too much to keep being rejected like I am some sort of human trash. Sometimes I wonder why I was even born.

Why do people got to be so mean? I mean would it kill someone to be my friend? Am I really that bad? I don't know maybe I am. I am crying to hard to type anymore so I guess I will just say good bye and I really do hope all of you have wonderful lives. I hope you feel better and don't let bipolar disorder get you down. Good bye