Note to my pdoc

Feel free to judge and give your opinion!

My anxiety is still okay. I've only had a couple of panic attacks.

I'm really depressed.

The seroquel seems to be working. The racing head isn't as intense. I'm still hearing and seeing things, but not as much as before. It's hard for me to tell if what I'm seeing is real or not. I'm still paranoid that my house has been bugged and I'm being watched.

I also sometime feel that my meds are fake and I shouldn't take them.

I haven't had any side effects from the seroquel.

It's good to keep up with your symptoms like this and tell your pdoc. I'm sorry you're going through such a rough time with depression, paranoia, and possible mild psychosis (?). Maybe your pdoc will increase your Seroquel or other meds until you stabilize more. Good luck! If you are seeing/hearing things too much and getting out of touch with reality, I would go to the hospital and they can stabilize you faster in IP. When do you see your pdoc next?

try journeing these effects and thouughts ... the pattern formed over time will help yourself and your pdoc to come to the best decisions for your care .... take care my friend ... if you feel even a tiny bit dangerous to yourself of others go to the er .... Tigger . ... 사랑해 . 당신은 강한이되어야한다

I've never had psychosis before, is this what it feels like? I don't want to go to the hospital on my own or against my will. Will that happen? I don't want to be sent away. I'm only seeing/hearing things sometimes. It was a lot before, but it has decreased, probably from the seroquel. The paranoia is new to me, it just started like a month ago. My next visit is next week.

As long as you are safe and most likely treatment compliant...I would think you'll stay out of the hospital. The only other way you could be hospitalized is being a danger to yourself or others. You feeling the meds are fake and you shouldn't take them is part of the psychosis. If you're concerned there's minimal benefit contact your pdoc. Most likely it'll need to be adjusted...your meds that is. It takes a LOT to be involuntarily admitted to a psych.

I'm not sure I follow, but are you saying that you've always seen and heard things, but now you're also experiencing paranoia? And you just started seroquel? If so, the first thing to consider is that this is either a side-effect of the seroquel itself, or maybe a side-effect of the combination of it and your other meds. Like my old Pdoc used to tell me, when something new comes up like you're experiencing, the first place you look is at the last med you started.

I had an episode not too long ago and was seeing and hearing things a lot. Now that I'm depressed I don't see or hear anything as often. I've been experiencing the paranoia since before I started seroquel.

So it is psychosis? That's scary to me, I've never experienced that. I'm just scared I'll be put in the hospital. I do think my meds are fake 100%. But I'll take them if it keeps me out of the hospital. I just don't know what to do.

Sounds like it but I'm not a professional.

Well thank you for helping! Any other input from anyone would be appreciated.

I called and got an appointment for sooner so hopefully things will turn out alright.

Anyone else have any thoughts/tips/opinions?

I've had psychosis before. Just do your best to take it easy and keep stress to a minimum. I think the best thing you can do right now is keep taking your medicine and do your best to get about 8 hours sleep a night. If the psychosis is mild, you can have insight that what you are thinking doesn't quite make sense and keep telling yoursel that you can keep yourself safe until it passes.