Scary new hallucination

jtassar93 · Nov 09, 2016, 03:37 PM

I'm used to certain kinds of auditory/visual hallucinations but this was different. It was red, scary, and evil looking. I sometimes can't tell what's real or not. But this...I knew it wasn't real but I was terrified. It just wouldn't go away. I think it was making sounds? Or maybe that was just me hearing something else? It happened when I got up in the middle of the night so it was hard to get back to sleep...I slept with the lights on after that.

Nov 09, 2016, 03:52 PM

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Originally Posted by jtassar93

I'm used to certain kinds of auditory/visual hallucinations but this was different. It was red, scary, and evil looking. I sometimes can't tell what's real or not. But this...I knew it wasn't real but I was terrified. It just wouldn't go away. I think it was making sounds? Or maybe that was just me hearing something else? It happened when I got up in the middle of the night so it was hard to get back to sleep...I slept with the lights on after that.

That sounds scary and I'm sorry you are dealing with this. (((Hugs)))

DelusionsDaily · Nov 09, 2016, 03:54 PM

Well, hopefully your appt with pdoc is early again. Just be clear with pdoc about the frequency of and the affect the hallucinations are having on you and That there definitely needs to be an attempt at resolution.

jtassar93 · Nov 09, 2016, 05:19 PM

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Originally Posted by ElsaMars

That sounds scary and I'm sorry you are dealing with this. (((Hugs)))

It was terrifying. And thank you <3

jtassar93 · Nov 09, 2016, 05:23 PM

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Originally Posted by DelusionsDaily

Well, hopefully your appt with pdoc is early again. Just be clear with pdoc about the frequency of and the affect the hallucinations are having on you and That there definitely needs to be an attempt at resolution.

Appt is early tomorrow. I wrote everything down so it should be clear and to the point. I'm hoping the med change this time is for the hallucinations. They're getting harder to handle. Also hoping the med work fast ... I can dream lol

Nov 09, 2016, 05:25 PM

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It was terrifying. And thank you <3

You see your doctor tomorrow right? I do too.....I may start an IOP program but I have several groups set up during the week and that might be enough for now. We'll see what the doctor says....I'm having flashbacks of past trauma from this election and just want to scream!

jtassar93 · Nov 09, 2016, 05:33 PM

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Originally Posted by ElsaMars

You see your doctor tomorrow right? I do too.....I may start an IOP program but I have several groups set up during the week and that might be enough for now. We'll see what the doctor says....I'm having flashbacks of past trauma from this election and just want to scream!

Yeah I see him tomorrow thank goodness. What's an IOP program? I don't go to any groups myself.

I'm sorry about your trauma and wish you luck tomorrow!

Nov 09, 2016, 05:46 PM

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Yeah I see him tomorrow thank goodness. What's an IOP program? I don't go to any groups myself.

I'm sorry about your trauma and wish you luck tomorrow!

IOP stands for Intensive Outpatient. You go during the day but get to go home and sleep in your own bed at time. It's a step down from being hospitalized. If you had transportation it would be a good option for you but with your transportation difficulties, the hospital is a better option for you if you need something more than monthly check ins.

jtassar93 · Nov 09, 2016, 06:18 PM

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Originally Posted by ElsaMars

IOP stands for Intensive Outpatient. You go during the day but get to go home and sleep in your own bed at time. It's a step down from being hospitalized. If you had transportation it would be a good option for you but with your transportation difficulties, the hospital is a better option for you if you need something more than monthly check ins.

Oh I see! I might actually have transportation soon! My sister has been stable so my parents are most likely going to let her get her license. It's exciting. I just wish I could get mine. We'll see about the hospital tomorrow. I'm not sure if I need it, but my doc may think differently.

*Laurie* · Nov 09, 2016, 07:39 PM

Hi jtasser93, I have had a similar hallucination in the past. I feel for you...such a thing is terrifying. I'm glad you're seeing your pdoc. Keep us posted.

Wander · Nov 09, 2016, 07:50 PM

Hallucinations are so disorienting and frightening. How do you ground yourself to reality? I find the five senses technique helpful. Describe five things that are real that you can see, then five you can touch, then five you can smell, then five you can hear. It can be very difficult if the hallucinations are really bad.

Hang in there. So glad you are seeing your doctor tomorrow.

jtassar93 · Nov 09, 2016, 08:40 PM

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Originally Posted by LauraBeth

Hi jtasser93, I have had a similar hallucination in the past. I feel for you...such a thing is terrifying. I'm glad you're seeing your pdoc. Keep us posted.

Thank you. And I definitely will keep you all posted.

jtassar93 · Nov 09, 2016, 08:43 PM

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Originally Posted by Wander

Hallucinations are so disorienting and frightening. How do you ground yourself to reality? I find the five senses technique helpful. Describe five things that are real that you can see, then five you can touch, then five you can smell, then five you can hear. It can be very difficult if the hallucinations are really bad.

Hang in there. So glad you are seeing your doctor tomorrow.

They are :/ I haven't found a grounding technique that works for me. I've tried a few but it just seems hopeless... my sister usually helps me by telling me what's real and what's not. But that's all I have so far.

I'm glad I'm seeing him tomorrow too!

Wander · Nov 09, 2016, 08:44 PM

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They are :/ I haven't found a grounding technique that works for me. I've tried a few but it just seems hopeless... my sister usually helps me by telling me what's real and what's not. But that's all I have so far.

I'm glad I'm seeing him tomorrow too!

Sorry to hear that. Maybe distraction is best right now. Hang in there. Not long to go till you see your doctor.

jtassar93 · Nov 09, 2016, 08:56 PM

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Originally Posted by Wander

Sorry to hear that. Maybe distraction is best right now. Hang in there. Not long to go till you see your doctor.

I'm using music and coloring to distract myself. I'm going to take my seroquel early and hopefully I can pass out until tomorrow.

It's sooo close. I can't wait for some change.

jtassar93 · Nov 09, 2016, 10:43 PM

It showed up again :/ I was in the living room looking out the window (paranoia of the cars and people lol) and there it was...walking towards me. I ran to my sister's room and locked the door..

Moose72 · Nov 09, 2016, 11:00 PM

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It showed up again :/ I was in the living room looking out the window (paranoia of the cars and people lol) and there it was...walking towards me. I ran to my sister's room and locked the door..

Aww I'm sorry!

I'm dealing with hallucinations this week too but nothing scary.

jtassar93 · Nov 09, 2016, 11:18 PM

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Aww I'm sorry!

I'm dealing with hallucinations this week too but nothing scary.

Thank you <3
And I'm sorry about your hallucinations! I'm glad they aren't scary though.

Coffeee · Nov 10, 2016, 12:42 AM

That sounds terrifying! I'm glad your appointment is tomorrow hopefully you'll get some relief.

jtassar93 · Nov 10, 2016, 01:21 AM

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That sounds terrifying! I'm glad your appointment is tomorrow hopefully you'll get some relief.

It was terrifying unfortunately! But yes , psyched for tomorrow. No matter what happens.

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