Questions: Bipolar Version 2

Yes but sometimes I don't avoid them because I feel alive and good.

Do you listen to your heart when in difficulty?

I often lead with my heart in times of difficulty, it's how I get through it.

Do you have a hard time with anxiety on top of your bipolar?

absolutely. sometimes it's ok .other times the anxiety is maddening.

do you read self help books?

I used to, but getting me to concentrate on a book is like extra difficult.

Do you have trouble staying still?

No. I can "play dead" all day long. (depression)

Do you get regular exercise?

I don't although I should. Maybe this Spring I will go on more walks.

Do you get seasonal mood swings?

Yes. Mania in about June (although it tried to sneak in about mid-March this year) and depression in about November.

Do you have seasonal med changes?

no

did you sleep well last night?

got the 4 hours I planned

If you had a FBI agent code bipolar name what would it be? (ex: agent manic)

p.s. yes I'm running out of ideas

Agent coocoopuffs

What is your happiest manic moment (if you've had one)

probably dressing up as a pirate and insisting that people call me davy jones, and if they didn't they'd walk the plank.

lol kinda cute too, as I don't often dress up (unless it's for halloween)

weirdest idea you ever came up with while manic?

note: I do now want to officially change my name to davy

but females can't be called that, so blah

I believed that I was genetically altered by aliens and I was a time traveler and went back in time and relived my life the right way, without bipolar.

What was the craziest thing you ever did while manic? (Davy Jones is a cool name)

hmmm well If i would say manic but not psychotic
it would be having sex in my car with a guy I just met at the hospital in broad daylight. we were in the salvation army parking lot and there were about 20 guys outside watching.(the salvation army was having some kind of day program for homeless young adults)
the kid I was with was beautiful but nuts and showed some psychopathic tendencies. it ended with him raging and the pulling out pics of his family and crying.
fun times

does hearing about a suicide of someone trigger you?

It can be, sometimes when I am reading blogs on bipolar if they mention it, ti can become difficult to read.

Have you successfully identified your trigger?

I have identified some of my triggers.

Have you ever had a "crush" on your pdoc or therapist?

(It happens.)

Yes my Psychologist at the moment and my drama therapist. When she left I was devastated.

Have you suffered stigma in the work force?

hmmm...i mean I was fired for it and for repeated hospitalizations. they made another excuse but everybody knew I was setup


how is your regular doctor towards you concerning your bipolar?

My GP has extensive knowledge of mental illness so is a perfect match for me. She is very understanding about my Bipolar and I can see her if I can't get into my pdoc (which rarely happens).

What is your favourite sound?

The sound of rain, and it's raining right now, yay!

How long have you been in therapy?

Off and on for 20 yrs. still nowhere close to done.

Do you like your current treatment team?

Yes even though I only have a med management pdoc she's there if I need her.

How long did it take for you to accept that you are bipolar?

Still working on it... I'll get back to you!

haha I relate to that.

do you feel like you get more aches/pain headaches etc because of the stress of BP?

not really.

I actually don't get headaches too much which is sort of cool

when I do, it's usually related to the heat.
was your weekend productive?