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Grand Magnate
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#261
Not so much anymore, but I do have the most bizarre, sometimes vivid, dreams.
Do you tend to get dysphoric or euphoric mania? |
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Wise Elder
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#262
dysphoric, evil mania
Do you have any really great memories of euphoric mania? __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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Member Since Oct 2016
Location: BC Canada
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#263
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One time, I plucked dandelions at night, walked along the board walk and happily blew their fuzz in the nighttime summer air. My most recent time, I did an obstacle course made of ropes and zip lines through the trees near my city. I wasn't scared of heights in the least... I felt so at peace with nature and invincible really (though thankfully listened to the guide and used my carabiner and ropes). I loved the heightened senses. I felt so one with the universe. It's a powerful, addictive feeling. If you could, would you wish to not have bipolar? __________________ Bipolar/BPD Abilify 5mg Prozac 40mg Fish oil and vitamin D "Of course it is happening inside your head Harry, but why on Earth should that mean that it is not real?" -Albus Dumbledore |
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Member Since Feb 2016
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#264
No.
Do you think BPD is more similar to BP2 or to schizophrenia, is it more of a psychotic or a mood disorder? __________________ Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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Wise Elder
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Location: Michigan
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#265
Oh, no! You might be getting me in trouble that question! I think BPD is more of a mood disorder because it can be successfully treated with DBT & CBT...Meds? Not so much (*Ducks!* IMO). While DBT did me a lot of good, I'd be screwed without meds....Especially the APs.
What's the longest you've stayed awake without any sleep at all? |
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#266
4 days
What's your favorite song you can relate to? |
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#267
I have a few, some (more) related to mania, some to (disorganised) schizomania, some to depression, some to BPD. So here are four, one for each, respectively: Don't Stop Me Now (Queen), The Great Pretender (The Platters), Knockin' On Heaven's Door (Dylan), Jealous Guy (Lennon). Another BPD one would be To Love Somebody (Joplin). My favourite, since it could be about both BP and BPD and because I've always felt it describes (a part of) me rather accurately from a very young age (same with Jealous Guy), a very long time before I knew what BP or BPD was, is (maybe) Ruby Tuesday (The Rolling Stones).
Can you play a song the moment you've heard it? __________________ Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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#268
I can sing a song the moment I've heard it.
Are you overdue for new shoes? (Basic, everyday shoes like runners/tennis shoes.) __________________ Ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 1.5 mg Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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Wise Elder
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#269
LOL...Yes, I need new shoes. I love my current running shoes & I've been wearing the same pair every day for the past year. When I take off my shoes at night, my GF goes, "What's that smell?" I blame it on the dog.
Have the police ever carted you away to the "funny farm?" (Just so you know I'm not being self-righteous, I'd have to answer, "Yes." ) |
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#270
No but only because I managed to start screaming the right things about fighting the hold and they'd never keep me past 3 days because I wasn't actively suicidal and eventually she realized I could talk my way out and put down her pen (she was doing the paperwork already). I was supposed to have agreed to a voluntary admit in a week but she dropped it and me too which was fine by me--hated that dr.
Have you had a pdoc or therapist fire you? __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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#271
I have.
how open are you with your therapist?, as open as you wouldl ike to be- or is their stuff you hold back. |
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Grand Poohbah
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#272
I do tend to hold back I think. I was actually just telling my t the other day that sometimes I feel weird because it's as if I've got nothing to talk about, but then there are all these thoughts racing through my head that I just can't seem to get out verbally.
If there ever was a cure for BP, would you take it? __________________ Dx: BP2 and MDD Current meds: 100mg Wellbutrin; 200mg Lamictal; 400mg Seroquel at night; Xanax 1mg/PRN; 100mg/PRN Trazodone at night for insomnia Diagnosed in May 2016 |
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#273
I'd probably take it because my PDoc would probably talk me into it. Then again, would she? She'd be out of a job pretty soon!
What's something fun that you're doing today? (I might get a new piece of jewelry for my nose.) __________________ Ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 1.5 mg Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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Grand Poohbah
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#274
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What's one thing on your bucket list? __________________ Dx: BP2 and MDD Current meds: 100mg Wellbutrin; 200mg Lamictal; 400mg Seroquel at night; Xanax 1mg/PRN; 100mg/PRN Trazodone at night for insomnia Diagnosed in May 2016 |
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#275
Getting new nose jewelry and a new piece to my vertical labret.
__________________ Ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 1.5 mg Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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Wise Elder
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#276
I'll answer the last question.....getting a kitten. Just a couple more weeks.
Are you fidgety? __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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#277
Yes. Have a hard time focusing. Especially in meetings. Immediately start wondering if people notice I'm fidgety/on another planet. Sometimes I count or make lists or do puzzles.
Do you go to BP meetings? |
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#278
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do you think weather affects your mood? (I know for me, I really struggle to cope on warm sunny days) |
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#279
For me it's cloudy days. Where I live cloudy WEEKS are common in late-fall & winter. I use a light box to simulate sunlight.
Have you ever had a period of time when your therapists quit/moved in rapid succession? It makes me feel like I have to start over again. |
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#280
I've had some fast changes before...near the end of grad school my pdoc died and I saw his replacement once and then had nobody. One of my therapists moved to another country with 4 weeks notice. It was hard. Now I've been with my pdoc for 14 years and my therapist 11.
Do you ever wonder if your pdoc or therapist comes to PC and knows you on here? __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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