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#576
Jan 25, 2017, 08:58 AM
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Five days or so till my first followup with the psychiatrist which will hopefully end up with the stabilizer fully into its therapeutic dosage. OTOH, on waking this morning, this "up" pierced through near zero testosterone & estradiol like it wasn't even a factor; aggression and arousal way off the chart for me, even last night's dreams were harsh and vulgar. Fight in my head ensued and I did win after an hour or so, but dang.
I think I'm going to title these three weeks, "why you should go to the hospital when you hit real trouble." Hospital, they'd have hit me up with a full dose of depakote, and sure, I would have spent the day puking and all else, but I wouldn't be standing on the edge of losing myself for weeks on this gentle escalation.. The rational me is very, very tired.... five days... |
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#577
Jan 25, 2017, 09:34 AM
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#578
Jan 25, 2017, 01:23 PM
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Had to go to convenient care this morning....bronchitis. I'm miserable right now, ugggg
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Current Meds Lamictal 200 mg x2 Seroquel 100 mg |
| Anonymous45023, Nammu
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#579
Jan 25, 2017, 03:26 PM
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat - He who sings prays twice ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Risperdal .5 mg  Gabapentin 600 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily |
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#580
Jan 25, 2017, 04:15 PM
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Thanks!! Hope to get relief soon
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Current Meds Lamictal 200 mg x2 Seroquel 100 mg |
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#581
Jan 25, 2017, 05:45 PM
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My daughter went to the ER last night. They say she might have an ulcer. She's on meds and sleeping. She has anxiety and depression, and it may be getting worse.
Finished my photos from a shoot a few days ago. They're now online. I tried something different because there wasn't much wildlife about. Other than that I napped a lot because I didn't sleep well last night. |
| Anonymous41403, Anonymous45023, Nammu, raspberrytorte
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#582
Jan 25, 2017, 09:33 PM
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Another anxiety ridden day. Sigh. I started smoking again. I made it a day. Yippie. Fail day regarding diet too again. God I'm in another lousy mood!
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The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "What if I can't get up and stand tall, What if the diamond days are all gone, and Who will I be when the Empire falls? Wake up alone and I'll be forgotten." 😢 - sleep token |
| Anonymous45023, bizi, Nammu, Unrigged64072835, xRavenx
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#583
Jan 25, 2017, 09:33 PM
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Got into a fight with my mom. I wasn't in the mood to argue with her, but I guess something I said made her mad. All I was trying to tell her is that I wasn't ready to talk to her about something in particular. Maybe she thought I sounded like I was getting short with her, but I didn't mean it.
She started throwing stuff at me and threatening me. I'm just gonna try to keep my distance, but it takes time for things to blow over when it involves her. She'll find any reason to flip out again shortly afterwards, whether by mocking my tone when I'm trying to have a civil conversation or by analyzing my facial expressions and starting another fight. I'm trying my best to keep my distance for a while. |
| Anonymous45023, bizi, Moose72, Nammu, raspberrytorte, rwwff, Unrigged64072835
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#584
Jan 25, 2017, 10:16 PM
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bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#586
Jan 26, 2017, 03:16 PM
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Been on a heating pad most of the day. My lower back is painful and my sides were hurting when I got up this morning. So not doing a whole lot.
My daughter is feeling better on the meds. She and her boyfriend are at college now. He bought another car and it seems to be okay. |
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#587
Jan 26, 2017, 04:24 PM
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Back issues suck. I'm out of ambien cause the doc hasn't called in the refill so I'm sleeping around 5-6 am to 10am and this lack of sleep is causing my back to hurt.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#588
Jan 26, 2017, 07:07 PM
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it sucks that the doctor is not calling in your refill.
((((HUGS))) bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#589
Jan 26, 2017, 07:22 PM
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Yeah, and I can't call cause my phone won't be hooked up til the 30th. So either I have to drive there or ask mum to call for me. What a pain. Here I was under the impression that Minnesota health care was supposed to be better! But it's probably unfair to compare a city of over a million to a small town of less than 25000.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#590
Jan 26, 2017, 08:01 PM
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#591
Jan 26, 2017, 08:40 PM
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I'm deaf I can only use phones that have text screens or captions.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#592
Jan 26, 2017, 09:28 PM
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Been super busy socialising. Last night I was ready to stay in and rest and my cousin called me and asked me to come over for a few drinks with a couple of people (It was Australia Day so many people have gatherings/parties to celebrate). I decided to go, had a few drinks, played a few songs for them on guitar and did some singalong's. It was fun. Then my cousin got very drunk and began talking to me of the abuse we both suffered as children by the same family member. She was very distressed. It has rattled me. She wants to take him to court and asked me to join her. I don't know if I will survive the stress of it but want him put away.
So I am stable, or maybe a little hypo, but now a bit traumatised. This morning I went for a long swim to try to burn the stress off. It did help but I can't stop thinking about what she said and I am feeling a bit wild. Hopefully it will blow over in a couple of days. I am resting at the moment then I have work at 4pm (In five hours). I just hope this doesn't trigger an episode as I have just calmed down after dealing with my pdoc dumping me over religion. I have a busy weekend but need a break. Hopefully I can rest Monday.
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD  "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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#593
Jan 26, 2017, 10:43 PM
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I'm tired of life, just tired, so very tired.
I just want to run away and become a hermit
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#594
Jan 26, 2017, 11:16 PM
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 were you born deaf? bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#595
Jan 26, 2017, 11:20 PM
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No I had the real measles when I was three. The high fever burnt out my nerve. So I could hear and talk before I lost my hearing. There's a vaccination now for the measles.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#596
Jan 27, 2017, 12:25 AM
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Day 4 of hives covering 80% of my body; against my doctor's orders, I took a super-hot shower and met God.
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#597
Jan 27, 2017, 12:15 PM
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Still in HypoLand.
   It's going alright, things are getting done, no complaints there. I kind of need to rein in the yabbering at strangers though. They're starting to notice.  (Getting some funny -- possibly annoyed-- looks.)
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#598
Jan 27, 2017, 03:37 PM
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Still feeling like ****...bronchitis sucks
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Current Meds Lamictal 200 mg x2 Seroquel 100 mg |
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#599
Jan 27, 2017, 03:41 PM
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Took the cats to the vet. Routine checkups and one had her teeth cleaned. They're none too happy but they're healthy.
Other than that just writing poetry and surfing the Web. |
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#600
Jan 27, 2017, 05:31 PM
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I worked six days straight this past week. My assistant at work yesterday refused to do her job. When I confronted her about it, she was rude, hostile and defensive. I became defensive in return. I stayed respectful, but I know I had an attitude and was sarcastic as I made it plainly clear to her that she wasn't doing her job. I ended up reporting her to my supervisor. I was so fed up by that point that I had shed a few of what I call "angry tears." I explained that I wasn't sad, but that I was pissed. She said that it was okay and that she does it, too, and that I just discovered my breaking point (a long stressful shift and a coworker refusing to do her job, leaving me w/2x the amount of work to do). She let me take a few breaths, calm down in her office, and then told me that I was right that she wasn't doing her job and that I should write her up.
I'm trying not to think about it on my day off, but I can't help it. I have mixed feelings about it. I'm also exhausted and frustrated w/the fact that I agreed to work 6 days this past week. What was I thinking? I knew something like this would happen. I was so tired already before I had this issue w/this coworker. I really like my job but it's been rough on me this past week. I'm dreading working w/this person again. I'm dreading going back to work, and I hate that feeling. |
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