Positive Things I've done today #5

wrote to someone on here privately to see if she was all right (as I noticed she was always online but never posting!)

Woke up at a decent hour instead of sleeping all day. Did the dishes. Talked with my cousin, instead of isolating. Going to make lunch now. I like this post, focusing on the positive things no matter how small.

Took a shower and wrote a poem (I posted it in the Creative Corner).

Forgave myself for letting myself sleep in for 30 minutes instead of doing my workout.
Forgiving myself is very hard for me to do, so this is pretty positive!

Awesome! What are your soup recipes, if you do not mind my asking?

- went to see a physical rehabilitation medicine doctor, who OK'd all exercise and recommended sports massage for my leg; now I can resume swimming, biking, and taking long walks. My car is in the shop so I went to see the dr by train and enjoyed the sunny day while waiting at the train station. It was wonderful to simply enjoy the sun.
- coloring for 30 minutes
- did the dishes
- cooked and ate breakfast (bacon and eggs with chopped green onions and a small serving of red grapes)
- had a cappuccino with real whipped cream and chocolate shavings at the train station cafe; the whipped cream was so good! I want to whip cream on my own one day.
- made hibiscus tea with Granny Smith apple bits and am enjoying it
- cooked compote (I simmer dried fruit, raisins and dried berries for a couple of hours and then discard the solid part and drink the infusion for several days; it is essentially a potassium-rich electrolyte solution)
- cleaned the toilet
- emails to Joe (my friend who has bipolar II)
- still thinking about what to say in an email to my dad; I have to mention the fact that yesterday was 8 years since my first suicide attempt and today is 8 years since the paramedics, doctors and nurses saved my life

Definitely it would have to be taking a shower and doing some writing. It really brought me out my funk.

Forgave myself for not having had a shower in forever... I did have a quick bath last night... that's something... managed to get to work almost on time. Still working with that same client that I have a dual relationship with. Spoke with my parent peer about my daughter... who appears to have returned to a manic state (which will be good for her schoolwork, hopefully). I think that's all, I think... I sat in on one of my coworker's groups to try to learn better group leadership skills.

I did not verbally blow up on a coworker who pushed every button I have today.

I'm going out to "Friday lunch" with friends then I dunno.

I kept my calm when my 15 year old refused to get out of bed this morning.

I got dressed and took out the trash. I know it doesn't sound like much but it's important to focus on the positive things no matter how small they are.

Realized that sometimes just living in the moment, letting the sun shine on my face, and listening to the birds is really what life is all about.
Sometimes I forget that.

I picked a chicken and took out the recycling. I also watched my husband patch a hole in the roof. He's safely back on the ground now.

I practiced self-care. I only had $2 and I was craving chocolate but at the store, I opted for a warm sandwich instead.

I went out to lunch with friends. I did some laundry. I took a shower and dried my hair. I talked to my Pdoc and got a plan with my meds after discussing my recent symptoms. I'm thinking of something to do with my son tomorrow as he's staying home with me. I talked with my mom on the phone and texted my friend who is 37 weeks pregnant on Sunday.

- took a train to IOP and on the way back, ran to catch the train and caught it. I do not like running for exercise, but enjoying to be on time for something.

- cooked a marvelous dinner and made plans for dinner tomorrow (a girl from the IOP will come for dinner; more precisely, I will drive to the IOP's residential house to pick her up)

- dropped off a Gwynnie Bee item (rental clothing) and left a review for it on the website

- walked to the mechanic to pick my car with a new generator (a long walk in the rain)

- had lots of tea

- called the insurance company about my son's bills

- email and google hangouts with guy friends

- emailed my dad to report on the situation with my car

- got good advice from the car mechanic

eaten breakfast

uplifting music

that is it so far, and probably it for the day (though it's not even 9 A.M)

- coloring
- cleaned the kitchen
- cleaned the part of the bathroom that needed to be cleaned
- well-fed and well-hydrated
- listened to music
- dental triple (brush-floss-fluoride rinse)

TODO:
(1) shower and detangle
(2) attention to hair and dress; perfume
(3) visit the pdoc (a lot of issues to discuss)
(4) have soup with rye crackers for lunch (that, and tea)
(5) go swimming

-With kids. (Not at boyfriend's or with their dad as usual.) Watching "The Bachelor" with daughter.
-Stayed on my diet
-Had coffee
-Need to clean the kitchen
-Need to get some steps in
-Took my new dose of Rexulti (2 mg)
-Listened to my favorite CD
-Feeling ok in terms of anxiety
-Want a nap

Didn't sleep well last night. In spite of that, I helped make lunch, worked out, and showered. Boys have a BB game soon.

Read 20 pages of The Three Musketeers.
Took a vigorous walk and got shin splints.
Wrote 1000 words of a short story about a black lady who is persecuted by a neo-nazi ghost.
Read 20 pages of a book called Literary Genius.

That is all of value that I will get done today.

So far I've folded laundry that's been sitting on the floor all week, and took out some trash.

Got out of bed when every fiber of my being told me to stay there forever. My dogs have been waking up my husband and I every hour for days now so not sleeping well which just makes this pain, sickness and anxiety worse. They may need to begin sleeping outside the room for awhile until my mind calms down. I supported a friend who is struggling. Hoping to shower and clean my bedroom today.

Got dressed. Out of the house to visit a friend. Took son out for coffee. Picked up daughter's pizza she ordered. Resting now. Dishes are looming. Need to buy milk.