Anyone never get better?

I wish I had answers, as I would certainly share.

(((((( ElsaMars )))))

Love and prayers,
WC

It's over guys......I know the truth now. There's no hope. I'm not mentally ill. I never should have went on social security. Please people, don't go on it. I beg of you to save yourself. Get a job and keep a job. Work hard......go to school. I know I deserve it. Please work hard everyone. Do your best. Don't be like me.

Elsa, I'm sorry that you're in so much pain.

I've done a lot of stupid things in my life. I know there were times I alienated my daughter, and times when I told my husband to leave because I wasn't good enough for him. I disrupted the family many times. And I have physical issues but I have run my doc ragged and many of them were minor or even nothing at all.

Forgiving yourself, and having self-compassion, are very important now. Even if nobody else will forgive you (and it might happen, as they have free will) at least you'll have peace with yourself.

I just wanted to feel well,......better. I'm a loser and there is no hope at all. I deserve it all. Nothing I can do at all and I know it now.

My son is well....I know this and I thank you. Please protect him.

I think the people who love me forgive me. How can I forgive myself? It's not possible. When I think of how different it could all have been. I know my future and its not looking good. I'm so sorry to everyone because I hurt everyone while sickly thinking I was helping someone other than myself. I'm sick just not in the ways people say I am. I can't believe it. I'm so sorry.

Please help me. I beg of you. Please. I don't know what to ask for other than forgiveness. Please.

I tend to fall into depression when I am not exercising. Once we fall into deep depression it can be hard to get out. From my POV--we are what we do (making it harder to recover when we have physical pain disability). In a study, people with treatment resistent depression benefitted from botox because they could no longer frown as much. Others (people who were not depressed) noticed that after getting a bunch of botox--they didn't feel quite as happy because they couldn't really smile. Smiling does help.

I am grateful for the times (2016/2017) where you were encouraging to me. I want to encourage you. Are you able to walk? Stop buying junk food? Get out in the sun? (California has wonderful weather) Don't give up. You stopped posting for months. We missed you. It does not surprise me that your family forgives you--you are a very caring person!!!!

More ideas:

https://www.ted.com/talks/shawn_acho..._work#t-657754

Shawn Achor's 6 exercises for happiness | CBC News

Scientifically, happiness is a choice," Achor says. He explains that research has shown you can rewire your brain to make yourself happy by practising simple happiness exercises every day for three weeks.

Texas-born Achor's books include The Happiness Advantage and Before Happiness.

Achor says in just 21 days, the exercises can transform a pessimist into an optimist.

Shawn Achor, author of The Happiness Advantage, says you can rewire your brain to make yourself happy by practising simple happiness exercises. (CBC)
And within 30 days, those habits change the neuropathways of our brains and turn us into lifelong optimists.

These six daily happiness exercises are proven to make anyone, from a 4-year old to an 84-year old, happy, or simply happier, Achor says.

Gratitude Exercises. Write down three things you're grateful for that occurred over the last 24 hours. They don't have to be profound. It could be a really good cup of coffee or the warmth of a sunny day.
The Doubler. Take one positive experience from the past 24 hours and spend two minutes writing down every detail about that experience. As you remember it, your brain labels it as meaningful and deepens the imprint.
The Fun Fifteen. Do 15 minutes of a fun cardio activity, like gardening or walking the dog, every day. The effects of daily cardio can be as effective as taking an antidepressant.
Meditation. Every day take two minutes to stop whatever you're doing and concentrate on breathing. Even a short mindful break can result in a calmer, happier you.
Conscious act of kindness. At the start of every day, send a short email or text praising someone you know. Our brains become addicted to feeling good by making others feel good.
Deepen Social Connections. Spend time with family and friends. Our social connections are one of the best predictors for success and health, and even life expectancy.

I also thought I should add that it is hard for me to stay stable without taking some psych drugs. Once you start taking them--you really do have to be careful about discontinuing them. If you think they are making you depressed--talk to your doctor because stopping suddenly can cause us to feel really bad or act irrationally!! Let your doctor know what is going on!! I have been getting a lot better about doing this and it is one of the reasons I am doing better.

What kind of fire do you play with? Why can't you use the sprinklers?

The sprinklers in this city, are supposed to be used only twice a week for a 20 minute periods per zone. I use 'em all night sometimes. That is playing with fire. Or fines and money.

The word "better" can mean a few things. Yes, I am a heck of a lot better psychologically than at my worst. I am not, however, as fully functional as I was 15 years ago and before.

In many ways I am "better" than I ever was in my youth. I'm wiser, more compassionate, generally more grounded, and able to express myself in ways that I rarely could in the past. Better ways. Though some may not see the me of today as being as successful as the young me, I do, though in a different way. Success can take on different meanings over time.

Elsa I wish I could help, others who have posted have said many helpful things.

We are all worthy of forgiveness. Please be kind to yourself and stay safe.

I have times when I get better in the short term. One time it lasted for 6 months, which was awesome! So I know it is possible to feel good and not be hypomanic. I'm always reaching for that point again.

Thank you everyone. Please keep me in your thoughts and I hope I'm forgiven because that is the only way I'm going to get well. Please forgive me and let me have my life back please.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.


WC

I also think everyone is worthy of forgiveness. I’ve only ever found you to be kind towards me

Thinking of you, EM. Consider yourself forgiven (though I have no idea what for -- you're all good in my book!) I'm really not sure what else to say. ((((((((ElsaMars)))))))))

Thinking of you this morning Elsa. We all make mistakes and your heart is in the right place. I hope you learn to forgive yourself.

Elsa?? (Its glam, I changed my name back.)

I’m worried about you, sweetie. I hope you have a new account?

Same.

I hope you return, Elsa.

Elsa, I too hope you return

It's also my understanding that the long term prognosis for BP isn't good for most. Unless, there is some research development in the next decade or so.

Elsa, I also hope you are okay and will return.
Please take great care of yourself.

We are here for you.


WC