Ambien my other issue

So yesterday at work was talking to a coworker who had depression and anxiety in her past and was able to overcome it. She emphasizes dbt. I told her I "ambiened texted" a friend and was talking nonsense. I told her I took the ambien at 7ish pm. She told me that's not healthy and need to work out whatever issue I had with not wanting to stay awake.

I have been sporadically taking ambien the past month and half at a moderate use. I think I went through 20-25 pills. There have been times I took it at 7 cause I didn't want to think about my failures, regret, suicide attempt (tried on ambien and painkillers), and being hopeless. I guess I do agree with the fact I self medicate with it and have taken it recreationally.

One of the issues, which I have posted several times, is I stay in bed and usually don't do anything. I guess also add boredom, and I hate to say it, abuse ambien. I do need it for periodic shift work as sometimes I get home early at 2 pm and then have to go in for a midnight to 6 pm shift. So I don't want to get rid of them but to be honest I probably should of only used maybe 10 pills max from past two months.

What do I do? How do I get more active at home and live? Why can't I get out of bed?

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You kind of answered your own question.

Are you in therapy? One of the things DBT addresses is staying in the present and not dwelling in the past.

I do see a t kinda irregularly but trying every two weeks.

Are there support groups in your area you could attend that might get you out of bed and also help you get additional support? Every two weeks doesn't seem to be enough right now. You could look for bipolar groups like NAMI, DBSA, NA or groups like that.

I believe Nami has one in my area.

That might be a place to start.

Does your medication possibly need to be tweaked? Do you think staying in bed is a habit that you've developed? I saw on another post that you're going to see your therapist. That's good. Since you've realized that you take too much ambien can you work on tapering it down to where you're not using it to self-medicate? Good luck and best wishes.

Be cautious with the Ambien. It made me seriously suicidal in just a few uses. It was like a compulsion. Just be careful.

Just a thought///could the Ambien be contributing to your wanting to lay in bed and not having ambition? It's strong stuff.

It definitely is a habit. My other thought is that that's maybe all I know to do.

Na I've had this problem since before I got ambien again. Ambien has just helped me stay in bed more, by sleeping.

When I tried to commit suicide I tried it with Ambien and painkillers. That was 3 and half years ago.

I encourage you to try attending a support group. Somehow, they tend to help.

Ambien is a potent med. It may have effects on you the next day.

I agree with friends here, I think you'd benefit most from finding some group interactions. It may help your loneliness and may give you something to look forward to. It's more difficult to get out of bed when it seems there's no reason to get out of bed.

I hope you feel better soon!

WC

I think you should get rid of Ambien immediately. Considering that you already used it for different purpose, you have to throw it away. Please speak up to your doctor and find a better treatment.
I used Ambien for 3 years, and I thought I could never live without it anymore. I have really bad chronic insomnia since childhood and I feel even more depressed if I stay in bed for a long time. But it's dangerous to your body to take it everyday and continuously.
I decided to look for other options, like the over the counter Unisom; it helps me to fall asleep sometimes and it's definitely a non-habit forming supplement. Exercises helped me greatly and I wont stop telling people that over and over and over...
It is really hard to deal with it all, and insomnia is like living in hell, so please be patient and perseverant. Sharing your issues with others is already a huge step, and you will overcome these issues and have your life under control. Keep fighting.

Respectfully,

CF17