freaking out

today has been really hard. I just got back from a camping trip last night that was already kind of stressful (a big group, people I don't know incredibly well, had to take our beloved dog to an out of town vet while there, long drive etc. etc.). Had an awful dream that I raged at this girl I know and then felt incredibly guilty afterwards. Got into work and immediately ****ed up my boss' website REALLY BAD and then as that was happening got an email from Apple and discovered my account had been hacked and someone was buying stuff with my credit card. THEN I ate some lunch that I have since convinced myself will give me food poisoning (total terrible lifelong emetophobe here) and I'm so anxious and upset I don't know what to do with myself.

I know none of this is actually that bad, I'm just feeling really overwhelmed and panicked. And then whenever I feel this way it's just another reminder that I haven't properly dealt with my mental health issues, that I'm basically white-knuckling it, which stresses me out even more. Sorry, just needed to vent :/

Hi glows, That sounds like a lot of very stressful stuff, all piled up. Take a breather. Get some good sleep tonight, if you can.

I'd be stressed to, sending hugs

That's a lot all at once. I hope you can get some rest tonight. You mentioned that you haven't dealt with your mental health issues, and it sounds like maybe there is some guilt attached to that. Is there anything you can do to start working on your mental health? Just taking one step in that direction might make you feel more in control.

I felt a sense of unease just reading the word "camping." That's quite the list, and I think that can be hard, even for someone who is in a more healthy state of mind.

Try to remember to breathe. Whew.

Sounds like you've got a lot on your plate right now. Try to treat yourself gentle as you go through this. Please vent here as often as you need to. We're here to support and encourage you. Best wishes.

Vent whenever you feel it helps. I'm sorry you're going through such as stressful period of time. This sounds a lot how I get/I can relate. Catching up on rest and self-care is so important during this time.

Take care, I hope you can sleep well tonight and tomorrow is a better day.

thanks everyone :/ I can't believe how ****** today has been. after writing my original post, I got into an argument with an old family friend, then came home to find out that our good friend had a miscarriage, and just a few minutes after that my cousin called to tell me that my uncle (whom I'm very close to) had a small stroke and is in the ER. Now I'm getting very conflictual updates about his condition from her and from my dad (who is for some reason getting info from my ex-boyfriend who is now dating my cousin --- that's a whole other can of worms). I'm so worried about my uncle and our friend and I just want today to be over SO BAD and for everyone to be okay.

and now from my mom: "well, since this is already bad news day, I guess I should just get this off my chest..." - goes on to tell me my aunt has cancer. WTF?!?!?!?! This is just getting ridiculous. I'm going to bed before anyone tells me anything else.

Oh, glowsinthedark! Good grief.
Good night .... Wishing you a good sleep...

*hugs* that sounds like a humdinger of a day that would make anyone freak out. I'm so sorry. I hope today will be better.

(((((( glowsinthedark ))))))

Today is a new day!
I hope it's a better day for you!


WC

So before I went to sleep I talked with my cousin and she told me they did a scan on my uncle and found a mass. This morning they did an MRI and diagnosed him with stage 3-4 brain cancer. I'm just beside myself.

(((((( glowsinthedark ))))))

Wow. I'm sorry you have so much on your plate right now.


WC

I'm so sorry for all your going through....hugs

thanks everyone I'm feeling very helpless and out of control. My family is very very small and close-knit (I only have 5 living blood relatives). My dad and his brother are best friends and my cousin and I grew up together like sisters. This morning I have been switching back and forth between feeling sorry for myself because I love my uncle so much and I'm not ready for him to be this sick, and feeling sorry for him and for my family. I know you're supposed to "stay positive" in these situations, but I think I'm too cynical...at least I'll keep it to myself though.

I wouldn't be concerned about "staying positive." You're in a situation where anyone would naturally feel some grief, maybe some additional anxiety, too.

Just be yourself and let us support you.


WC

What a lot to deal with! I do hope things improve for you and your family soon; it's a lot to recover from.

Oh glowsinthedark I can't believe all you have on your plate right now. Keep talking here and hugs

Thinking of you this morning.
I hope you have a good day today.


WC

you're so sweet thanks for thinking of me. I took ativan last night so at least I slept...

Good morning glows, I hope your Saturday is less stressful and you can take care of you

Sorry you're going through all of this. I can only imagine the pain.

You seem like a wonderful, devoted person. I'm sure you will make your uncle proud! Let us know if there is anything else we can do to help you out.