[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Dystonia is totally gone now. (Wellbutrin decreased by 75%.)
Day 2 of Abilify. Low-dose in hopes of boosting other antidepressants.

Had an okay day. Cleaned out the refrigerator. It's immaculate.
H is away for work this week. He works hard. I appreciate him.

The Abilify already has me waking up throughout the night, hungry.
I don't need more calories, it's telling me untruths. I just cannot gain the weight back. I've spent this whole year, so far, losing it.

Trying to stay occupied/distracted from the ultimate in "stinkin' thinkin'."

Love to All!

WC

I'm so happy things are looking up for you. You were missed around here.

[Daonnachd]

As some of you know, I was away to Hawaii. We got back Monday night. It was a family holiday planned and paid for by my sister in law, not a place I would choose to visit. I don't like the heat. I don't like sand. I don't like to swim. I'm very happy to be home.

I actually wanted to stay home in bed today, but it's simply not an option. We need the money so desperately. I'm fortunate that my boss is kind and the job is an easy one to get through when not doing well. I'll leave it at that.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by vertigo

As some of you know, I was away to Hawaii. We got back Monday night. It was a family holiday planned and paid for by my sister in law, not a place I would choose to visit. I don't like the heat. I don't like sand. I don't like to swim. I'm very happy to be home.

I actually wanted to stay home in bed today, but it's simply not an option. We need the money so desperately. I'm fortunate that my boss is kind and the job is an easy one to get through when not doing well. I'll leave it at that.

Well you made it home in one piece and with your sanity in tact. Considering you didn't want to go, I think you did great.

[Sunflower123]

I did pretty good today. Got my car steam cleaned inside and out, went to 3 bible studies, floated in the pool, had lunch and dinner with friends and after having done my Daily Calm Meditation, I'm going to watch RHONY. I think I might survive after all. Busy day tomorrow planned as well. I may be overcompensating.

Hugs to everyone.

[Unrigged64072835]

Glad you're home safe, Vertigo.

Enjoying these few days left until school starts next week. Still have anxiety about it so trying to manage that now. So much other stuff going on as well. I think these will be the last quiet days for a while.

Forgot to get potatoes for church picnic. Will have to remember that.

Mood is okay.

[Guiness187055]

Not a very productive day here. I am diabetic and my sugar has been out of control so I was fighting that all day. Went to the store for some school supplies for my son. Getting ready for our trip on Friday to see the eclipse.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

Getting ready for our trip on Friday to see the eclipse.

I'm jealous.

[bizi]

doing ok.
bizi

[gina_re]

Today was an up and down kind of day. My sister called me this morning to ask to stop by with the boys. As many of you know, my nephews are my world and any time I get to see them, I'm excited. They spent a few hours here, we ate pizza, it was good times. Later in the day I had to go the WRAP class and my mood started to come back down. So I decided to stop by the store and pick up some vitamin D to hopefully help relieve some of these depressive feelings that won't subside. I'm so over this.

[xRavenx]

Ouch....I went to urgent care since my toe infection did not go away after a round of antibiotics. The doctor numbed me with lidocaine and did a small procedure with me awake, and now it hurts so bad. I was given Tramadol..it's not working yet. It's been about an hour. This pain is much worse than I thought it would be. I was prescribed a stronger antibiotic I have to take 3 times a day. Hopefully that will work. I feel that I'm on too many medications to remember now.

The horror! I had a story about bipolar violence published 20 years ago, but I've found it impossible to write anything coherent since, silenced by the blackouts and surges of my disease.

Tonight I watched the right combination of music videos on YouTube and belted out a short, sharp and wicked horror story in two hours. The dam has broken. Cover the mirrors with black crêpe. Sing a song and bang a gong.

The story and all names, characters, and incidents portrayed within are completely fictitious, and no identification with actual persons (living or deceased), places, buildings or products is intended or should be inferred.

Unfortunately the characters, places and buildings portrayed bear a remarkable resemblance to actual persons, places and buildings, and the story is dusted with a Fukushima of radioactive dirt about my family and our business, so authorship will have to be attributed to a friend on the mainland. I have been vindicated.

To celebrate, I'll treat everyone to a

of what it's like when bioChE has his first sip of Monster in the morning.

[Wander]

Feeling a little better today. Have found a thread of hope to hold on to. Starting TMS next week and have been moved to a room with a view rather than the dank, dark room I was in. They moved me as i am staying another month for the treatment. Actually went to the gym in the hospital today. It helped. Did about one hour of different workouts. It runs four days a week so I think I will try and attend every day. Study has been tough though in this deep depression. I don't know how I will make it through another 10 weeks but I will try.

[bioChE]

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

To celebrate, I'll treat everyone to a

of what it's like when bioChE has his first sip of Monster in the morning.

^^^^that, exactly that.^^^^

Thanks Lefty, glad the dam has broken. If you feel like sharing any of it, feel free to post. I'm sure people would be interested.

I'm doing OK. Had to take freaking Seroquel last night, in order to get some shuteye. Now I'm up at 5:30, and I'm hungry. Presently eating a bowl of Honey-Nut Cheerios. I wish I had someone else's appetite suppression.

[liveforsummer]

Still sitting on the fence of stability and haven't fallen off. Got my tattoo yesterday and I'm happy with it

[hopeless2015]

Made it in to work, haven't been here since last Thursday. My inbox wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, I'm just having trouble getting my head back into the game. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Then I had the P docs office call to reschedule my appt and I'm pushed out till Oct 25th. Really upset about that. I'm glad the new pdoc wants to have a longer appt but good lord.

[xRavenx]

Some of the pain is gone from my toe procedure, but the toe nail is so damaged. I have a feeling it will fall off....okay, I'll stop right there with the details, ew, I know!

Nothing happened when I accidentally doubled up on the Lamictal the night before. All that worrying for nothing. I have been reflecting on what has been preventing me from completely going off the deep end, although I do still struggle, especially lately with racing thoughts and a lot of irritability. I do think the high-dose Lamictal is working more than I have realized. I really didn't think it would, but it just took time for my body to adjust.

Here's your quote of the day, an anonymous ancient proverb wrongly attributed to Euripides, a tragedian of classical Athens, circa 480-406 BC:

"Those whom the gods wish to destroy, they first make mad."

Toodles,

Lefty

That's not very helpful Lefty. It's hurtful in fact. Nobody here need to think they are mad because Gods are out to get them. A God who would make someone mad (thereby effecting everyone they come into contact with and negatively impacting society) isn't much of a god, more like a sociopath. Of course you are probably lying and make no claims otherwise.

[boogiesmash]

Originally Posted by Wander

Feeling a little better today. Have found a thread of hope to hold on to. Starting TMS next week and have been moved to a room with a view rather than the dank, dark room I was in. They moved me as i am staying another month for the treatment. Actually went to the gym in the hospital today. It helped. Did about one hour of different workouts. It runs four days a week so I think I will try and attend every day. Study has been tough though in this deep depression. I don't know how I will make it through another 10 weeks but I will try.

Rooting for you wander. Glad you got a room with some sun. Keep us posted!

[hopeless2015]

Probably shouldn't be drinking a beer but I am. Sometimes I'm my own worst enemy. It was a really long day and I'm not sure how I made it through

[fishin fool]

Hello everyone, I am hanging in there right now.

[Unrigged64072835]

I'd love to have a beer, but my liver won't let me.

Still doing okay, though fear is creeping up again. I did real well with the first two classes, but sometimes there's a curveball the second time around. I just keep telling myself, and those close to me tell me, that I'll be fine.

It's interesting with the vet shows, I'm not freaked out by footage of the surgeries and such, but I can't even look at the needle going in me when I have labs done. I guess TV adds a buffer of some sort. I used to feel like passing out when I watched some of that stuff.

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

That's not very helpful Lefty. It's hurtful in fact. Nobody here need to think they are mad because Gods are out to get them. A God who would make someone mad (thereby effecting everyone they come into contact with and negatively impacting society) isn't much of a god, more like a sociopath. Of course you are probably lying and make no claims otherwise.

Know a disclaimer when you see it!

Stop troll-shaming me!

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

Know a disclaimer when you see it!

Stop troll-shaming me!

Trolls can't be shamed but you already know that.

[liveforsummer]

I feel ever so slightly like one foot has left my spot on the stability fence...maybe I'm just feeling melancholic though no clue about what...part of me wants another tattoo and part of me wants to scrape off the one I just got. Anxiety level slightly rising. Sigh.