[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Faltering

I'm gaining weight like crazy, but my diet hasn't changed. I'm going to start weaning myself off Zyprexa. I don't care if it works. I can't be happy if I'm fat.

I had to come off for the very same reason even though it was the best drug (for me) that I'd ever tried.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by vertigo

Being that I don't enjoy social interaction, I had a good day at work. Nobody called. Nobody came in.

Vertigo, for some reason that just tickled me. Thank you for the laugh.

[Sunflower123]

I have two friends that I care about very deeply and don't want to alienate. They are not mentally ill. They are judgmental though and many conversations consist of them telling me how to run my illness or what I should or could do better or how to think my way out of it as their way of supporting me.

I'm getting a little indignant and stressed and a little down about it. One of them has had breast cancer and I empathize, I truly do. Please don't minimize or compare my mental illness to what you've struggled with and then lecture me about it. I'm fairly certain I've been closer to death then you have. No, I can't afford a place of my own yet. That doesn't mean my mom is enabling me. No, my doctor has not released me to work. That doesn't mean I'm wallowing in my illness. Please don't lecture me about how to raise my daughter.

I don't want to lose these important relationships. I just want them off my back about a topic they don't get. Thanks for letting me vent. That's one reason I appreciate the people here so much. You get it.

[bizi]

Jenn, I am sorry they are judgemental to you.

Have been running hypomanic for a while now. Called my pdocs office to inquire about a weight loss medication that she might know about safe for me.
She said that taking them might trigger an episode. So I guess that I am already in an episode so that is not a good idea for me.
She doesn't know that I am in an episode, have not told her.
I really don't want to mess with my meds.
Perhaps abilify is not the right medication for me????
I wonder if there is another AP that I could try???
bizi
I wish I could get this beer thing under control.....

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by bizi

Jenn, I am sorry they are judgemental to you.

Have been running hypomanic for a while now. Called my pdocs office to inquire about a weight loss medication that she might know about safe for me.
She said that taking them might trigger an episode. So I guess that I am already in an episode so that is not a good idea for me.
She doesn't know that I am in an episode, have not told her.
I really don't want to mess with my meds.
Perhaps abilify is not the right medication for me????
I wonder if there is another AP that I could try???
bizi
I wish I could get this beer thing under control.....

Abilify combined with celexa was far too activating for me. It could be the abilify making you hypomanic. But even if it's not, it's not helping the hypomania, so maybe it isn't the right med for you.

I hope you find the right med soon!

[Moose72]

Tired and really hungry. Finished my paperwork and got it mailed off.

Maintenance is here finishing the ceiling. We are all hungry.

The sound of sanding upstairs mixed with the rain air is very soothing.

[hopeless2015]

Still struggling, in bed with the cat. I'm such a loser

[bioChE]

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

Steatopygia! It's challenging to be around others and my commitments to eat less and quit THC had a bad day. My friend Valerie gave me a generous sample of an indica strain named Concussion which gave me a concussion, unable to use a keyboard or trackpad.


I've fallen out of love with a story I've been working on for weeks. I don't know if it's my medication, my underlying state or the Concussion. I worked so hard and so long building it and trimming it down and I suddenly don't like it anymore.


My past does not exist. The only way forward is to forget.

Any particular reason you're quitting the indica and trim vaping? Think the THC is causing complications?

[liveforsummer]

Pdoc assessment tonight. Totally unfocused right now and can't get anything done!!

Originally Posted by bioChE

Any particular reason you're quitting the indica and trim vaping? Think the THC is causing complications?

I had been losing weight rapidly until the THC brought my appetite back.
All is vanity.

[SheilaKathy]

I had a rough day yesterday but am getting over it; had a scare today, somehow my computer battery got unplugged from my unit. It started to fade and then died! LOL... I finally figured out what had happened, thankfully!

However, I was dissappointed to find out that Hewlett Packard does not sell computer parts over the phone! Also they need the computer serial number to be able to sell you a part (like a new battery). I got lost trying to find the SN. So if I do need a battery ever, I will be out of luck! OUCH.

None the less, I am in a much better mood today than I was yesterday.

[winter loneliness]

I am OK. Lefty is making me want to smoke.

Have been OK. Pretty stable lately.

[wildflowerchild25]

I spent a good portion of the day anxious and worrying about failing at my new job. But I've calmed down. I was supposed to take one tablet of depakote this morning but I forgot. I can never remember to take meds in the AM. Ah well. I have to develop a routine starting next week. High school starts earlier. I'll probably miss the morning traffic so that's good. I suck at getting up early though. Lord only knows why I chose to be a teacher.

This is my last chance. If I screw this up I'm out of education forever. Which may or may not be what I want. This year I will find that out.

[Unrigged64072835]

Had periodontist this morning. Still complaining about flossing. They're trying a new brush to put between my teeth. I have short, stubby fingers so getting the back teeth is a pain.

That was counterbalanced with my hair appointment this afternoon. We're trying something different--an asymmetrical pixie cut. Not as short as I usually have but something other than slicking my hair back like I usually do. Looks pretty good.

Have nothing planned for tomorrow, so will be doing homework for next week while my husband crunches out math problems and pseudocode.

Mood is okay. Mouth is finally less painful.

[liveforsummer]

Assessment done with psych nurse. Went well, they will call in about a month with the follow up with psychiatrist to discuss meds but in the neantime she gave me gave me referral for therapist. Says I've been dealing/coping (barely) for far too long without help. Yep.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Assessment done with psych nurse. Went well, they will call in about a month with the follow up with psychiatrist to discuss meds but in the neantime she gave me gave me referral for therapist. Says I've been dealing/coping (barely) for far too long without help. Yep.

I am glad that you are ready for therapy.
good luck.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[xRavenx]

I felt really sped up today and still do. I think the pseudoephedrine that I took as decongestant has something to do with it. I felt like I was flying....but not in a euphoric way (I wish), but my mind going a mile a minute, feeling so restless, jittery, and doing a thousand things at once. I don't think I'll get much sleep tonight, and I didn't eat today until just now, and it was something small. When I feel speedy, I have problems eating. This just goes to show how sensitive I am to anything that's considered a stimulant.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Abilify combined with celexa was far too activating for me. It could be the abilify making you hypomanic. But even if it's not, it's not helping the hypomania, so maybe it isn't the right med for you.

I hope you find the right med soon!

I see that you take this:
Do you experience any of these????
Thanks
bizi

What are the most common side effects of VRAYLAR?

• The most common side effects were uncontrolled movements of the body and face, muscle stiffness, indigestion, vomiting, sleepiness, and restlessness.

[Wander]

Just had my 10th TMS. They say changes take place after the 12th or 16th so I am getting close. The depression is still bad. My T yesterday said I was 'profoundly depressed' and was worried about me. The hope has almost left me but I will fight on. It is Fathers Day on Sunday here so I want to be able to be in a better place to cheer my Dad up. Bought Stevie Nicks tickets for him and my Mum as a combined FD and Christmas present with my sister. Hope they like them. It is tough buying for someone who has everything they want.

Also started Zoloft yesterday despite my pdoc's concerns about me and AD's. He said he just couldn't leave me so depressed and do nothing. Here's hoping that does help too.

[bizi]

hi wander, I hope you feel some relief....how will you know if the tms is working or if the zoloft is working at the same time?
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[raspberrytorte]

I get distressed because I'm on so many meds. There has to be something I can cut out! I tried weaning off of sertraline, and I felt so weird and depressed and sick. I had to go up to my regular dose.

I just feel like all of these meds are dulling my entire feeling of the world around me! I always feel so distant from everything, like there's a curtain between me and the world. It's not like that all of the time, but it'll just randomly happen, usually when I'm trying to be creative. I know it's probably because of the haldol, but what can I do?!

[Wander]

Originally Posted by bizi

hi wander, I hope you feel some relief....how will you know if the tms is working or if the zoloft is working at the same time?
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Thanks Bizi! Good question. I think I can feel the Zoloft working already it is a different feeling I think to TMS ( I am guessing as it hasn't worked yet) You know the weird brain feeling AD's give you? Yeh, I have got that.

[bpforever1]

My appetite is good. I ate fish and chips and a big caesar salad for dinner. The fish and chips was really good! I probably ate too much!! The generic Abilify is working and am doing fine. I am sleepy at times though but am hoping it wears off soon. I taught a class tonight too and have another half a day of classes tomorrow. Then, my father is coming here to visit on the weekend. I am looking forward to seeing him again!

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Wander

Thanks Bizi! Good question. I think I can feel the Zoloft working already it is a different feeling I think to TMS ( I am guessing as it hasn't worked yet) You know the weird brain feeling AD's give you? Yeh, I have got that.

If you already feel the zoloft working and you have only taken it a couple of days right?
I am afraid it will be too activatling for you.
Sorry you are so sensitive to meds.
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by bizi

I see that you take this:
Do you experience any of these????
Thanks
bizi

What are the most common side effects of VRAYLAR?

• The most common side effects were uncontrolled movements of the body and face, muscle stiffness, indigestion, vomiting, sleepiness, and restlessness.

I haven't had any of those. I've only been on vraylar for three weeks though. The only thing I'm experiencing which could be a vraylar side effect is decreased appetite. Which I'm fine with, at least I won't gain anymore weight. I don't know if I'll develop those side effects over time.