[Unrigged64072835]

Had a bad sinus headache for almost two days now. NSAIDs and decongestants aren't helping. Just feel miserable from the pain.

Otherwise everything is okay, maybe a little down from the pain.

I haven't been online in a while. Im stable but restless. My job is seasonal and ending soon so I'm trying to find a new job, one that pays a bit more and wont bore me to death. I'm restless, probably a threading coming soon about that. My computer is broken and unfixable and typing on mobile is not fun. Saw my new pnurse last week, she's really nice. Thinks there's a possibility i have ADHD. Ive had my job 4 months now and its driving me nuts. I want to move too. Oh and I'm still taking the clozapain, convinced my PCP to prescribe me 150mg vs the 300mg i was taking. I really like post rock now.

[wildflowerchild25]

I have an awful headache, probably from being anxious and negative all day. I'm better than I was moodwise but still bad. I have to do school work tonight so I can't just miserably take my meds and go to sleep. Sucks.

[Lifeischallenging]

So I just had bad day at work. I was on self check out helping a customer on 1. As I was helping her, this customer tries to call me over to help her. I did come over, but I got a little short with the customer. I'm just scared of being reported. I don't need to loose this job. I wasn't wearing a name tag so I feel like that should keep me safe. What does anyone on here think?

[liveforsummer]

Ok day. Started feeling anxious this afternoon and evening so went walking for 2 hours after supper it helps or I'm at least running away for a while. . Can't sleep now. Just took immovane. Think I better sign off it's getting hard to focus on the keypad. Night all.

Beta-adrenergic antagonists! I can't stay long, but I wish recovery and stability to all that check in. I've lost 20 pounds in 33 days. I do nothing in moderation.

Speaking of moderation, I must once again insist that the proper spelling of "Poohbah" is "Puba".



Remember that the past does not exist: the only way forward is to forget.

I have a

for everyone.

[winter loneliness]

Good day. Hope to have another one tomorrow.

today I will be setting up my new sterrio (I can't actually believe I had to buy a new one after just a few months, but their we go)

I am looking forward to it though, just getting it working and stuff.

it's smaller than my previous one too, so hopefully it might save a little bit of space? (maybe?)

feeling okay.

didn't sleep last night but blah

what's new

[Wild Coyote]

A Warm Hello to All!

Yesterday's "open house" went very well.
It was 6 hours long. Had 42 people stop in. Some stayed the entire time. Most stayed 3 hours at a time. H and I did the whole event -- food, greetings, waiting on people, etc. Guests were age 22 thru 82 y.o. Lots of fun.

Both H and I are tired today. I was spent by the third hour of the event; yet, kept pushing. (I had put in many hours of prep.) My mo is also tired. The event was in honor of her 77th birthday.

Both H and I had gotten overstimulated by all of the activity and we both had insomnia last night, despite taking prn meds. (We are both dx'd BP II.)

I imagine we'll have a slower day today.

I hope everyone has a good day.

WC

[Sunflower123]

WC...I'm so pleased for you that everything went well and that you had a good time. You deserve a good, relaxing day. That was a lot of hard work.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

WC...I'm so pleased for you that everything went well and that you had a good time. You deserve a good, relaxing day. That was a lot of hard work.

Thanks, Jennifer!

I have not held a social event of that size in ages. It was a challenge. The "success" part is affirming. I was concerned there would not be enough food; there was plenty. We had immediately sent most excess to a seniors' Sunday night gathering and they'd devoured all we had sent.

Everyone was cordial, which was nice.

Thanks again!

WC

[Gabyunbound]

My cat, Schnookie, is in intensive care at an animal hospital. This is the third time she's been at the cusp of death and I am hoping she'll bounce back and pull through as she has before. I hope that not having her mama with her won't make her worse. Isolation, when ill, including hospitalization, can greatly affect people, especially the elderly, and I'm hoping it is not the same with animals.

I was already sinking into a depression before she got sick and now, not surprisingly, I feel worse. I feel empty without her here with me, and lonely. I dreamt about her all night and kept thinking I saw her when I kept waking up during the night.

I have work tomorrow, a lot of it, and I hope I can face the world with the resilience I know I have and I am trying to conjure as best I can. Just as I hope Schnookie will bounce back from this medical crisis, I hope I am able to bounce back from my own depressive crisis. It's not that bad yet. It's more a matter of me being afraid of falling off of the tightrope I currently find myself on.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Gabyunbound

My cat, Schnookie, is in intensive care at an animal hospital. This is the third time she's been at the cusp of death and I am hoping she'll bounce back and pull through as she has before. I hope that not having her mama with her won't make her worse. Isolation, when ill, including hospitalization, can greatly affect people, especially the elderly, and I'm hoping it is not the same with animals.

I was already sinking into a depression before she got sick and now, not surprisingly, I feel worse. I feel empty without her here with me, and lonely. I dreamt about her all night and kept thinking I saw her when I kept waking up during the night.

I have work tomorrow, a lot of it, and I hope I can face the world with the resilience I know I have and I am trying to conjure as best I can. Just as I hope Schnookie will bounce back from this medical crisis, I hope I am able to bounce back from my own depressive crisis. It's not that bad yet. It's more a matter of me being afraid of falling off of the tightrope I currently find myself on.

(((((( Gabyunbound & Schnookie ))))))

Much Love to you both!


WC

[wildflowerchild25]

I'm feeling a bit jittery from the emsam. And I am very nervous for my first day tomorrow. The students don't start until Wednesday but I have to stop in the office and find the assistant principal because I don't know if I have a "home base" classroom and also my email still isn't working. I need to get into my email to know what my meeting schedule is for tomorrow. Plus I need to get into the IEP program to read my kids' IEPs. Very nervous.

I don't think I'll sleep tonight but maybe. I'm afraid to take my sleep meds for fear I will be hungover in the morning. I have to get up at 6:15, whereas for my summer job I didn't have to be up until 7:15. But if I don't take it I most certainly won't sleep. I guess I'll take it and see what happens. Maybe I'll take it earlier than I usually do. If I get my school work done before 8pm lol.

[SheilaKathy]

I went out to lunch with my boyfriend, had pizza, it was nice. We had a good conversation and hugged a lot, went for a nice long walk together too. So I am in a good mood.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I'm feeling a bit jittery from the emsam. And I am very nervous for my first day tomorrow. The students don't start until Wednesday but I have to stop in the office and find the assistant principal because I don't know if I have a "home base" classroom and also my email still isn't working. I need to get into my email to know what my meeting schedule is for tomorrow. Plus I need to get into the IEP program to read my kids' IEPs. Very nervous.

I don't think I'll sleep tonight but maybe. I'm afraid to take my sleep meds for fear I will be hungover in the morning. I have to get up at 6:15, whereas for my summer job I didn't have to be up until 7:15. But if I don't take it I most certainly won't sleep. I guess I'll take it and see what happens. Maybe I'll take it earlier than I usually do. If I get my school work done before 8pm lol.

Your anxiety is understandable, all things considered. You have a lot going on. I'd be very anxious if I were in your shoes. Again, I admire your courage!

WC

[Sunflower123]

My daughter just left to drive back up to college. Although I couldn't watch her drive away, I'm ok! I'm very grateful for the time we had together (she splits it between her dad and I) and I have a sense of peace and contentment. Mom and I are about to go back down to the pool.

I was wrong in my assumptions about the change in our communication patterns. She has rowing practice every day, is taking 18 credit hours, and was invited to join a prestigious business school fraternity that does a lot during the week. On top of that she is cooking her own food because she is a strict vegan. With my cognitive distortion of assuming and mind reading, I thought she just forgot about me when the poor kid is just trying to keep it together.

I was supportive of her before but I'm going to ramp that up now that I know it's getting tough. Glad we straightened that out.

It's a beautiful day. Hope everyone is doing ok.

[Unrigged64072835]

Everything was fine until a couple of hours ago...

Have to buy a specific make of tires for the car. Don't like it because it costs $20+ more per tire, but I can't find a cheaper brand that will fit. I'm calling the dealer tomorrow, but if I can have them put on elsewhere for cheaper without messing up the tire pressure sensor that would be cool.

Still need to find an electrician to hook up the roof vent fan, but that may have to wait.

It's 85+ degrees F now. My daughter had to come home early because she overheated in the store and started having sharp abdominal pains. She's resting now. The mall has failed to fix the A/C and roof in the store despite numerous complaints, so it isn't just her. She knows what it's from and will let us know if she needs to go to the ER.

Finally, I'm trying to dry our mattress protector which keeps bunching up and not drying. Then the dryer said there was no air flow and to check the filter. The filter is clear, and I vacuumed the slot it goes into. Still won't work. Was about to get to the back to check the vent tube when I ask my husband to help. He ends up taking over, as usual. He's overheating and the tube connecting the dryer and outside vent together keeps breaking because the builders put the outside tube in wrong. So I get the fan to cool the air down, and he's at Lowe's getting a new connector tube, or two. Hopefully this will fix the dryer problem because I don't know what else to do besides call a repairman for $$$, or buy a new dryer for even more $$$$.

The saving grace is that it's cooling down the rest of the week, so if the mattress protector can air dry and nobody needs to do laundry for a day or two we're good, hopefully.

My mood is trashed, but it will pass eventually.

[gina_re]

My cat died last night. I've had her for 10.5 years. As if I needed anything else to bring me down. I was crying all morning. I had a friend come by today. Now I'm back in my room to cry again.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by gina_re

My cat died last night. I've had her for 10.5 years. As if I needed anything else to bring me down. I was crying all morning. I had a friend come by today. Now I'm back in my room to cry again.

I am so sorry you lost your fur baby.
((((((HUGS))))))
when we lose them we lose a part of our heart.
bizi

[ldymia]

I'm really angry. I was suicidal 2 weeks ago and I had lost my health insurance. I was calling everybody I could trying to get help, I even thought about going to er. But finally I got a hold of group that could help me. This made me so happy I calmed down and didn't go to hospital. I made an appointment for today. Well I didn't realize it was a holiday till Saturday. So I got up early to see if they were open. They weren't! And they never called to cancel. Now I have no appointment, and I'm feeling real bad.
I'm afraid of suicidal thoughts coming back. I will call them first thing in morning,but I'm still scared I have a long night ahead of me.

[bizi]

I am sorry they disappointed you.
Go to the er if you feel you are unsafe.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

[wonderluster]

I almost had a melt down. I was in hysterics.

Fortunately I was able to call a good crisis line in the US on skype and I lucked out with a kind person to talk to.

I have been mostly med free for the last seven years, but tonight I decided to get on lithium. I have about 2 weeks worth. In times like this 2 weeks of lithium will help a lot. I bought them in Greece after a brief talk with a local GP who did a house call. They only cost about 3 USD. I probably should consider getting more and staying with it. Wish me luck. I am madder than a Hatter.

[winter loneliness]

I am Ok. Slept too much and didn't shower, but did household duties. Etc. Might shower soon.

[VerMOZZica]

I`m feeling worried right now.Tomorrow I have an an appointment at the place I get pysch services from.That`s not really why I am worried though.I am worried because the appointment might be with someone I went to school with so I`m afraid this person will find out that I`m mentally ill. I don`t like confrontation so I`m not sure what to do.This has made my weekend miserable.