I've been using a budgeting application called "YNAB" for managing my money.

I set a financial goal using their application and, if I stay on track, I will officially finish paying off my student loans by November 2018!

I actually have enough money right now to pay off ALL my student loans (because I saved up a lot), but I also don't want to wipe my bank account clean! If I did pay them all off at once, I'd be left with like $1000 in the bank. Yikes! I'd have barely enough to cover car payments etc..

Otherwise, doing okay.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I've been using a budgeting application called "YNAB" for managing my money.

I set a financial goal using their application and, if I stay on track, I will officially finish paying off my student loans by November 2018!

I actually have enough money right now to pay off ALL my student loans (because I saved up a lot), but I also don't want to wipe my bank account clean! If I did pay them all off at once, I'd be left with like $1000 in the bank. Yikes! I'd have barely enough to cover car payments etc..

Otherwise, doing okay.

Outstanding! Good job!

WC

[liveforsummer]

My brain is going to explode

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

My brain is going to explode

Are you okay?


WC

[half_awakexx]

My moods are becoming stable. I used to be all over the place; rapid cycling. I think my psych doctor has found the right medicine(s) for me and ones that I can tolerate. I feel like my head is on right this time. I feel so much better.
The only thing weighing on me is having to take a different route to and from work as there's a lot of construction going on in my neck of the woods. I can handle it. Like my mother said, "You can't get lost in this city." Besides, I get to see places that I normally don't venture out to.

[hopeless2015]

I'm smoking up a storm and blowing up my husband's phone with text messages, maybe I'm not as calm as I thought I was earlier. At least I got out of bed and have made it to work so far this week. I'm trying to cope.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by half_awakexx

My moods are becoming stable. I used to be all over the place; rapid cycling. I think my psych doctor has found the right medicine(s) for me and ones that I can tolerate. I feel like my head is on right this time. I feel so much better.
The only thing weighing on me is having to take a different route to and from work as there's a lot of construction going on in my neck of the woods. I can handle it. Like my mother said, "You can't get lost in this city." Besides, I get to see places that I normally don't venture out to.

WELCOME TO PC!!!

Must feel very hopeful to feel some stability, along with support by a competent pdoc. Congrats on your hard work toward stability!


WC

[liveforsummer]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Are you okay?


WC

Same old same old. Moments of being completely overwhelmed lately. When too much bombarding my brain I can feel my brain physically shut down. It puts up a "closed for business" sign and I can't think clearly.
Now I'm home cosy in bed, ignoring life other than contemplating what's for supper, or more like what are we ordering for supper.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Same old same old. Moments of being completely overwhelmed lately. When too much bombarding my brain I can feel my brain physically shut down. It puts up a "closed for business" sign and I can't think clearly.
Now I'm home cosy in bed, ignoring life other than contemplating what's for supper, or more like what are we ordering for supper.

It's totally frustrating, isn't it?!
Sometimes my brain hits a wall and that's it, until it gets a break and recovers.
I'd had that happen this afternoon, while reading medical research articles.

I am also resting on my bed, wondering what I'll cook for dinner. There are a few choices. H gets to choose tonight. He'll be home soon.


WC

[xRavenx]

Worried about my friend who is in a hurricane zone in Florida.
Hugs to all here who affected by this. There's been such craziness on the news lately.

Mentally and emotionally: I've been struggling a lot. Trying to keep myself out of IP.

[bizi]

I am meeting some one tomorrow morning to talk about their IOP for addiction treatments.
I meet at 8:30am.
I have many addictions:
food
alcohol
internet
picking
bizi
I think I have an addictive personality.

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by bizi

I am meeting some one tomorrow morning to talk about their IOP for addiction treatments.
I meet at 8:30am.
I have many addictions:
food
alcohol
internet
picking
bizi
I think I have an addictive personality.

I'm glad you are taking this step! Hopefully IOP will be able to help you with your addictions.

[bizi]

again,
Tomorrow morning I meet with the nice lady at liberty addiction center.
Cherie will assess me and go over the program and such.
She said it would take an hour.
I am hoping that they prescribe naltrexone.
I will ask about it tomorrow.
I am not hoping to stop though that is what I will say.
I want to learn how to be moderate and just stay at 2 beers instead of 6-8.
She doesn't need to know that.
I will be paying for some of this out of pocket.
Tomorrow I will find out the specifics.
I will keep you posted.
bizi

[Wander]

Originally Posted by bizi

again,
Tomorrow morning I meet with the nice lady at liberty addiction center.
Cherie will assess me and go over the program and such.
She said it would take an hour.
I am hoping that they prescribe naltrexone.
I will ask about it tomorrow.
I am not hoping to stop though that is what I will say.
I want to learn how to be moderate and just stay at 2 beers instead of 6-8.
She doesn't need to know that.
I will be paying for some of this out of pocket.
Tomorrow I will find out the specifics.
I will keep you posted.
bizi

Good luck Bizi! I hope you find the right balance in your journey.

[Wander]

My depression has lifted after three very dark months thanks to TMS (transcranial magnetic stimulation). I have had 17 sessions and have four to go. That will finish next Wednesday then hopefully I can be discharged that day or Thursday. That will make 8 weeks IP, my longest ever stay without a break. So desperate to go home. Finally I am noticing everything around me and feeling joy at simple things like spring flowers. I feel contentment coming on, and peace. Even though I just broke up with my ex_husband (we were trying to make it work out again this last 6 months) it hasn't broken me. Now I hope for a full remission that lasts a long time.

Epiphany! I had a breakthrough today without pdoc or T. The incessant stream of toxic memories that has plagued me for years is all about my ego. If I can subdue my ego my memory won't torture me. In theory. Writing makes it stop.

My brother was in this video.

I've started a new story about the Waikiki underground. Word to your mothers.

The Russians have tested over 200 weapons in Syria. Israel has been bombing strategic targets in Syria to disrupt the increasing presence and influence of Iran. Israel is panicking over the collapse of the Saudi-Israeli jihadist proxies in Syria and is now threatening to launch a major air war. North Korea is moving an ICBM into position to launch on Saturday, the same day that Irma will make landfall in Miami. Trump tried to pass a cooler through the window to the driver of a pickup truck. The dollar is down and gold is up. I'm not suggesting any correlations, but y'all do the math and come to your own conclusions.

Reunification is near.

[bizi]

I sabotaged my meeting.
I drank way too much and woke up still drunk/hung over.
I called and canceled, she wanted to reschedule for next week but I am conflicted this morning. I am just not sure I am ready for Intensive Out patient therapy, 3 hours 5 evenings a week.
bizi
I believe I took my night meds twice....heavy sigh

[liveforsummer]

Originally Posted by bizi

I sabotaged my meeting.
I drank way too much and woke up still drunk/hung over.
I called and canceled, she wanted to reschedule for next week but I am conflicted this morning. I am just not sure I am ready for Intensive Out patient therapy, 3 hours 5 evenings a week.
bizi
I believe I took my night meds twice....heavy sigh

Oh I'm so sorry this didn't work out for you today. I hope you can find the strength to reschedule next week. .

[wonderluster]

Originally Posted by Wander

My depression has lifted after three very dark months thanks to TMS (transcranial magnetic stimulation). I have had 17 sessions and have four to go. That will finish next Wednesday then hopefully I can be discharged that day or Thursday. That will make 8 weeks IP, my longest ever stay without a break. So desperate to go home. Finally I am noticing everything around me and feeling joy at simple things like spring flowers. I feel contentment coming on, and peace. Even though I just broke up with my ex_husband (we were trying to make it work out again this last 6 months) it hasn't broken me. Now I hope for a full remission that lasts a long time.

Congratulations! You make me smile. I am happy for you

[wonderluster]

Originally Posted by bizi

I sabotaged my meeting.
I drank way too much and woke up still drunk/hung over.
I called and canceled, she wanted to reschedule for next week but I am conflicted this morning. I am just not sure I am ready for Intensive Out patient therapy, 3 hours 5 evenings a week.
bizi
I believe I took my night meds twice....heavy sigh

I struggled with substance abuse and addictions in my past.
I overcame them eventually because I never gave up.

Never give up trying to be better.
When we are better, life is better for everybody

[liveforsummer]

Took the train into the city. Heading to BP support meeting.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Took the train into the city. Heading to BP support meeting.

Great! See you there!
(I wish.)

WC

[hopeless2015]

I have the heebie jeebiez today. Something just feels wrong!

[bizi]

Originally Posted by wonderluster

I struggled with substance abuse and addictions in my past.
I overcame them eventually because I never gave up.

Never give up trying to be better.
When we are better, life is better for everybody

Good for you!
Thank you for your note of support!
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Today marks the last day I have off from work. Back to the grind on Monday.

Been feeling kinda "down" still. I don't know. I've tried being positive, but it's not working.

On the upside, I just bought myself a workout backpack. My shoulder and back hurt too much whenever I use my workout duffel, so I figured I'd try out a backpack instead. It's 31L and has a shoe compartment, which is a very nice feature. It's coming in the mail in 3-5 business days.. I'll be able to bring it to work and use my work's gym again.