Is your goal to live in moderation?

dark beers....
bizi

I smoke pot everyday and have been taking edibles as well.

I have never known any aspect of moderation in my life. I guess out of everything I do I would like most to be able to moderate my irritability, I am tired of trying medicate it away. The meds do work for a short time though and maybe I can learn something through that. I'm surprised I'm still married.

Yes, I overdo it with being online, spending hours online without even realizing it. I chatted on FB Sunday afternoon and totally wore out my friend there, who chatted with me for about 2 hours! She then said she had to go be in a darkened room, and recuperate. She said it wasn't my fault that she had gotten to such a state, but I apologized anyway, and she did not further try to say I was not to blame. I just lost track of the time....

I can get hypo talking on the phone for long periods of time too.
bizi

I've had to think about this quite a bit in order to gain clarity on my answer.

I live a mostly moderate lifestyle. I am more apt to be a tad ascetic, which does not allow for optimal balance.

I grew up in poverty. I tend to make decisions as though I am still impoverished to that degree.

I do enjoy a very simple life, in all honesty.



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bizi

There are some things I do in moderation. However, diet mountain dew drinking...def not in moderation! And when I smoked I absolutely did not do that in moderation, but I've quit that ****.

I isolate, and not in moderation. I'm reaching out a bit more but not sure my health will allow me to make any real progress with this. I worry constantly so that's not moderation either.....I overthink and over analyze.....my list could go on and on and on but if I wrote it all out, my post wouldn't be too moderate either

Now I am also self sexual if you know what I mean.

every night.
another addiction? or is this mania?

bizi

I tend to have an" all or nothing" technique. When I quit smoking 22 yrs ago. I stopped cold turkey.
I give up all alcohol for January, for dry January.
I starve myself with my diet, when I am on a diet.

I still have a very bipolar way of dealing with my weaknesses, but I am always trying to do better.

A friend once told me that "anything worth doing is worth overdoing" I wish now that I didn't believe her. Maybe I burned myself out in my younger days. I don't do a hell of a lot now.

I have an issue with that getting frequent sometimes and it is somewhat addictive when I get that way. It is for the fleeting short euphoric feeling of orgasm. My wife has had zero interest for a while. I doubt we are together in two years when the nest will be empty or it will be kids who really aren't being raised anymore. Youngest may be living at home, working and going to community college. The self service lane is no substitute. Sometimes I tell myself it is just to make sure the equipment is in working order, but I know better.

I was asexual before this.....sorry for my husband.
now this is every night.
I would be mortified if he found out.
bizi

I once heard someone say,

"life's not about reaching the end of the road with a perfect body, it's about reaching the end being pushed in the grave backwards screaming.. wow, what a ride!"

that's how I plan to live.

my body's certainly not perfect (the weight, the scars from self harm, the cronic pain issues), but i'm still living life how I want to live it.

doing what I want, when I want to do it

Mania is gone, now some normalcy.
Still going to NAMI peer to peer.
2nd week. I think I will keep going even though I get frustrated often. I can't seem to understand directions verbally the first time around. I need them repeated.....oh well.
bizi

OP, Yes, I am always looking for the middle way.

Moderation is best for me. but the problem is getting there.

I must be the most boring psycho in the world! Everything strictly in moderation helps keep me stable. Not that I don't cheat occasionally but I find it good to have a game plan.

I get tired of moderation. My goal is to be laying on a yacht in the Mediterranean, drinking champagne while well tanned deck hands fan me with ostrich feather fans.

Why ostrich?

They are all fluffy and look so extravagant

I am a bit hypomanic planning this trip. I need to start packing and getting ready...instead of looking for more things to do in Hot springs.
bizi

My real goal, is to live in Europe and do cocaine off a naked prostitute's butt. I don't think I'll do that. lol

I don't do anything in moderation. I'm bipolar!!