Questions Bipolar Version 3

No, he does 10 min appointments 3-6 months apart.

Is your episodes long or short?

My episodes are short. I normally can tell by how my mood changes.

The moment I'm not thinking straight and simply don't want to get out of bed or feel drained, I know I'm depressed.

Hypomania for me is different. It's as if fireworks are going off inside of my head and I'll start laughing, joking, talking endlessly and quick to annoy at times. Especially with noise. If there's loud noise going on, I'll be extremely annoyed by it.

When's the last time you did something nice for yourself?

I bought myself a fancy new meditation chair for my "meditation cave." It was my own reward for making through a rather painful inpatient stay.

How do you deal with a mental professional who won't listen to the words that are coming out of your mouth?

I never went back to him.

Q. Are you a people pleaser?

Yes, always have been because I hate confrontation.
Q: What does a typical day look like for you?

Well that would be mood dependant but lets just go with today. Woke at 9, ate, went back to bed til noon, got up ate lunch, puttered in garden and now its 1:45pm. In my head now I still have lots more to do but in reality I'll be lucky if I accomplish 1 or 2 more things, then dinner, tv/read and bed.
In a better mood----lots more gets done of course. Oh well.

Q. How frequent do you take a sleep aid?

I take a sleep aid every night. I have very bad insomnia.

Q how often do you take a benzo?

Used to avoid it like the plague but now I'll take it if the imovane isn't working, just desperate for something to help (I really need to address this with doc though)

Q. Has BP strengthen or eroded your inner self?

eroded. I don't even feel like the same person.
Qo you ever take your night meds during the day so you can just sleep and escape from reality for a few hours?

No. I can sleep without meds during the day. I use 'em at night.

Are you afraid of driving?.

very
Q:whats your biggest fear?

something happening to my kids.

Q. Ever met anyone from PC in real life?

no one

question:

what was it that made you join PC. what made you join a support forum to begin with?

(for example) with me, it was because no one in real life got it- and when my own family disowned me I decided it might be a good idea to join

I saw that it was an active forum with lots of participants.

Have you ever had a pdoc decline to hospitalize you even though you were doing really bad and went to the ER?

yes actually.

a couple times

and still a couple more times people are in a hurry to just "get rid of me", regardless of how i'm doing

question:

do you hold grudges?

Yes I do I am afraid, but you know, after a while I tend to let it go. Sometimes I even reach out to the person.

Have you been feeling "extra" bipolar lately?

hmm... a little

especially when it comes to pushing people away

question:

do you prefer to have your hair long or short?

Long long long it’s the longest it’s ever been in my life. Easy maintenance on crap days lol.

Q. If pyjamas were societies norm for every day clothing would you be happy to live in them 24/7?

more than happy.

it would be perfect

question:

what song (or songs) have helped you in your life?

I've had to give up music because it makes me hallucinate. Before that I like(d) Christian music that gives me hope.

Do the shorter days make you want to hibernate?

No, summer makes me want to hibernate.

Do you find therapy helpful?

Individual therapy? No. Group therapy? Yes.

Are you able to work full time? What about part time? Volunteering?

Part time

Q. Do you journal, write thoughts, poems related to your mood?

oooo let's see here.

I have:

my christmas poem

from shadows to eluminations

touching the skies

the rising waters

bloody tragedy

buried alive

um... probably others, but those are the ones that come to mind.

I have my journal too

question:

how is your room decorated?. what does it look like

I love the Impressionists era of painting (Monet, Renoir, Cezanne, etc.). It’s decorated in a way that evokes that era.


Do the holidays make your illness worse?