[Daonnachd]

I'm glad you're feeling better, Faltering. Stress really can hit us hard.

I only slept 4 hours last night. I seem a little ramped up, but everybody always writes off any symptoms of hypomania as simply doing well. So, who knows? I have my belief.

[wildflowerchild25]

Slept for most of the day. Trying to sleep off this pneumonia. I felt kind of guilty because the house is a wreck but I physically can't clean it right now. I'm dizzy when I stand up for too long. I couldn't even shower today. I'm hoping after sleeping through the night I'll be a little better tomorrow.

I'm happy though that being sick hasn't seemed to impact my mood. Sometimes it does.

[winter loneliness]

I have been sleeping a lot lately. My mood is up and down. Fall is always a change for me.

[Tucson]

I am doing well on my diet I have just been sitting and watching TV. I need to get outside and walk some. I have an operation coming up this Tuesday. They want me to shower twice on the day before and once early in the morning thebday ofnthe operation. I have problems showering one evey few days.

[jacky8807]

made it through the thick of it-no longer paranoid or borderline delusional. My mood is actually on the upswing...a healthy one I think...but the thoughts they are aracing . Just happy to be happy and not paranoid and nutty lol

HUGS TO ALLLL!

[Wander]

Feeling ok. Just finished my second week back at work (casual) after being IP. Seem to be settling in well even though it has been very hectic. Thanks Modafinil.

[WildcatVet]

Left my home of 22yrs yesterday for the last time....very depressing and now looking at trying to settle in to a new life. I don't know if I can do this...

Originally Posted by WildcatVet

Left my home of 22yrs yesterday for the last time....very depressing and now looking at trying to settle in to a new life. I don't know if I can do this...

((((hugs)))))

I can understand

anything ending can be very sad, even if you might not see it at the time.

I know for me, for example, you read about my eviction? (in another thread)

I'm quite happy to be leaving here- I don't really like it here, but I know tgheir's going to be loads i'll miss.

1 of the hardest things for me at the moment is telling someone i'm close too here that i'm going. i've not quite worked out how I'm going to tell him yet. he'll be devistated.

good lukc though. I really hope you like your new place

I have a rant.

people that ask you to call at a certain time, and then when you do call them, they don't answer the telephone.

it's not difficult. it's really, really not.

if you ask to be called, then the least you can do is have the courtesey to actually be by the phone at that time

urg

i'm feeling... a mix of guilt and anxiety.

anxiety over the upcoming eviction, and guilt because I didn't do my second anxiety course.

why didn't I do it. really, I should ring the instructor to make up some excuse, but she never rang me, so on the flip side, why bother...

family flew back to africa this afternoon.

so good..

[hopeless2015]

Slept in so I was late taking my morning meds. Husband made bacon and eggs..so sweet! Tomorrow I'm supposed to go back to work. I'm terrified!! I need to do some laundry and prepare myself for getting back to a routine. I hope I'm able to do this

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Slept in so I was late taking my morning meds. Husband made bacon and eggs..so sweet! Tomorrow I'm supposed to go back to work. I'm terrified!! I need to do some laundry and prepare myself for getting back to a routine. I hope I'm able to do this

I hope transitioning back to work tomorrow goes smoothly and that you have a good day.

Anxiety is my problem now. I even had a recurring theme in my dreams of forgetting college courses I signed up for until it is midterms or finals time. I haven't been in college for ages.

I'm anxious when at work but even more anxious at home over the weekend. Too much time to think.

Ok, it is Sunday. I'm so anxious I tend to stay pinned to the couch. I have to do laundry and pick up a bit, and give the hummingbirds fresh sugar water. And many more things. Perhaps I'll find a little energy. I hope.

[Victoria'smom]

Rage tears.... wonderful

Possible trigger:

but hell now I feel energy not blood will come out if I harm myself

[wildflowerchild25]

I've had two dreams in the past week that I was IP and wanted to be there and actively tried to stay longer. Last night my dream involved minor self harm. Strange, because usually I only get these dreams when I'm in an episode. I am not in an episode right now. I've been stable for a few weeks.

I've also had two dreams that the guy I'm seeing turns out to be an abusive monster. In the dream last night he flipped out because I had other guys' numbers in my phone. Now, I have never had premonition dreams so I don't think this is a "sign" or anything. But it is a real fear I have. I'm so trusting, or at least I was, that I could easily see myself getting sucked into an abusive relationship. This guy doesn't seem abusive, but I've only been talking to him for three weeks. We've only been out twice. Obviously I don't know him well enough to make any calls like that.

I think my husband kind of ****ed me up. I trusted him 100% and turns out he was hiding a drug addiction from me. Even after he got clean I trusted him, and even when I saw the signs of him using again, I believed the excuses. And then bam. Dead. I don't know how easy it will be for me to trust someone again.

Ah well.

I've been severely depressed for a week and a half

Possible trigger:

I kept fighting urges to OD on my Klonopin all weekend long. I came very close to doing it. I had the bottle in my hand, opened.

I think I'm okay... for now. I went back on my antipsychotic for once, and it seems to be helping... a bit? Dunno. Tomorrow will tell. I was feeling horrible all week long. I'm trying to stay positive, though.

[liveforsummer]

Stay safe blue

I feel quite fortunate at the moment. Have had 2 totally normal days. No complaints. No ups. No downs. Been able to ignore any negative thoughts that try to nudge me. See I knew I was fine

[99fairies]

I think my procycadine is working.I had no pain for 7 hours straight today! I'm also taking magnesium and doubled up on my klonipin. I'm not sure what exactly is making me feel better. But I'll take what I can get.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I've been severely depressed for a week and a half

Possible trigger:

I kept fighting urges to OD on my Klonopin all weekend long. I came very close to doing it. I had the bottle in my hand, opened.

I think I'm okay... for now. I went back on my antipsychotic for once, and it seems to be helping... a bit? Dunno. Tomorrow will tell. I was feeling horrible all week long. I'm trying to stay positive, though.

I hope you feel better soon.

[WildcatVet]

Too little sleep...crying...wandering around the house aimlessly. Very depressed but also agitated and irritable. Looks like a bad day ahead. Trying to be positive...

[liveforsummer]

Felt brain trying to sneak in a ramp up last night but squashed it by blasting loud music in my ears. The rate I'm going, I'm going to blow an ear drum. It helped though. Fell asleep but woke at 3am after nightmares, still felt unsettled so reluctantly took .5mg Ativan. Slept til 8. Sunny out now and am yet again determined to have a positive day

Hugs all, and to those affected by the atrocity in Vegas

[Tucson]

I am suppose to take two showers today and one early tomorrow morning just before an operation I have that morning. This is allot of showers! I usually take a shower once ever few days. Just doing that takes allot of effort.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by 99fairies

I think my procycadine is working.I had no pain for 7 hours straight today! I'm also taking magnesium and doubled up on my klonipin. I'm not sure what exactly is making me feel better. But I'll take what I can get.

FANTASTIC!
I hope the relief continues.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I've been severely depressed for a week and a half

Possible trigger:

I kept fighting urges to OD on my Klonopin all weekend long. I came very close to doing it. I had the bottle in my hand, opened.

I think I'm okay... for now. I went back on my antipsychotic for once, and it seems to be helping... a bit? Dunno. Tomorrow will tell. I was feeling horrible all week long. I'm trying to stay positive, though.

Geez!
I'd be so upset if something happened to you!
Please stay safe!
How are you doing today?

WC