[Amethyst_Stargazer]

Last night I didn't get much good sleep. I've been staying up late for the past two weeks and I'm beginning to notice how my moods are affecting me. Every time my moods affect me I get sad quicker and everything seems to bug me and I tend to isolate myself in my room and not want to do much.

When I'm feeling sad like this, I always listen to music that's upbeat and I stay off of Facebook. I won't post how I feel or add attention to myself and if someone is angry at me, I usually stay away because I know I'll just end up blowing up. Tonight I plan on going to bed early and drinking some sleepytime tea. Sleep is important and my sleeping schedule is all over the place. I'm also quite upset about my brother ignoring me at the dinner table once again and he's acting as if I have some disease when I clearly don't. Ended up putting my clothes away which I feel happy about and I knew it would be a good idea if I checked in on here to express things since this forum helps me out a lot.

[liveforsummer]

Tough day and just plain sick and tired of crappy moods.

[GoldenSnitch]

Another not so great day here. I’m just so sad and full of self-loathing. And I feel so alone all of the time and I hate it.

[raspberrytorte]

Originally Posted by WildcatVet

Sorry to hear about this...from another cat lover. How old is he?

Thanks. He's eight.

[xRavenx]

I'm still preoccupied by not being able to get in touch with my best friend, who I am used to talking to regularly, for one month....and my attempts have failed, even when I showed concern and worry. I just hope she is okay. Somehow, I have a bad feeling. She was in a shaky place emotionally, when we last saw each other, but I guess there's nothing left to do for now except wait to see if she responds to the card that I am sending tomorrow.

Other than that, I had to go to the doctor today, so that took up a lot of time. I am very anxious about going back to work tomorrow after being sick. This position is fairly new, and they are always adding extra responsibilities. It really is taking its toll on me, but just trying to hang in there. Hopefully I won't wake up so exhausted. That's the worst.

[jacky8807]

whats up ya beautiful people?
i am sending out well wishes to all!

today I am having someone out to fix a problem with my tv (or rather, hopefully fix it)

I am a little anxious because I don't do well with people in my space, and because it means people will be touching my stuff, but in the long run, if it's fixed, that will be good for me.

the winds from storm ophelia are a lot lighter today
actually we're quite lucky, the area where I am got away with very little damage

some places in the UK were truly battered by the winds and even some deaths got reported

I was triggered a lot yesterday because of the winds.

so I'm glad I don't have to worry about that today

[bizi]

I slept like sh%t last night....
yawn
bizi

[bpforever1]

So, my sex buddy and I met and had fun. We had a great time!! We enjoyed each other's company and had great fun. We are both happy. I told him that I love him and will see how he responds. I love him as a person but know that we won't be getting too deeply involved for now. I know that he wants his freedom and so do I. Life is good. Tomorrow I have another class in the morning. Arggh!! I need to sleep.

[-Astral-]

dont feel so good at the moment i feel like screaming i feel like everyone is watching me and talking about me they want me to die they arent going to let me live

guy arrived.

didn't speak a word of english so explaining my problem was really difficult

had a panic attack while he was here, a really bad one- to make it worse the guy was looking at me like ****.

their I was struggling to breav, and he's standing their just looking at me funny

anyway, he couldn't fix the problem and that £50 I payed him was a waste, and money I could use for other stuff

anxiety was bad all morning after he left.

eventually turned to tears and I just sat their crying in silence for like an hour

but made it up this afternoon, I watched a few shows I like and cook myself a pie

a little self care I guess goes a long way

[99fairies]

This is day 3 of only minor pain! seem to be done with the dystonia!

[WildcatVet]

Just found out my new T doesn't take Medicare...now what the f**k do I do???

[GoldenSnitch]

I was feeling a little bit better today than I have been for the last week. My next appointment with t is still farther away than I’d like it to be though.

[UpDownMiddleGround]

i'm not ok. And I feel like I'm crashing. I'm going to bed. I hope I fall asleep. Who knows what tomorrow will bring

[wildflowerchild25]

I’m really tired. Just tired of everything. I take all these meds to stay stable and it only lasts for a couple of weeks. So tired of dealing with this. And I’m only thirty. And women in my family live well into their 90s. A possibl sixty more years of this. I don’t think I can do it.

I’m tired of getting absolutely nowhere with certain things.

[Faltering]

I have this inner feeling of restlessness, like I'm going to explode if I keep sitting here. I have constant intrusive thoughts and I'm afraid I'll act on them. I've also lost five pounds and counting from stress. I see a counselor for the first time in years on Thursday.

[Standup2me]

Dark thoughts like dark clouds surround me
Shadows ahead of me...I am walking away from light
The darkness fits me like an old sweater, warm and familiar
Slipping it's arms around me, like a lover's touch
Calling me forward
Come...come

[bizi]

yawn, I forgot to take my meds last night but did not realize it until this morning. I could not figure out why I could not sleep at all. It was awful!
now I can't wait for bed.
!!!!!!
bizi

[liveforsummer]

Meet new pdoc in less than 48 hours. Very glad and anxious at the same time. Time for some answers and a plan! Maybe even a semblance of official diagnosis.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing well. I am still teaching but have a lighter schedule. I am happy. I have to study though. I want to make a change of paths to interpreting and translating. I have passed the most advanced level of the Japanese test but it is not sufficient. I need to continue working at it. My speaking ability is basic at best. I will do my best. I am all alone here. But, my health is a priority. I like working but know I can handle so much. Life is ok for now. I am enjoying what I have.

[scatterbrained04]

Been kind of stressed out this week due to work. It doesn't help that I get vented at every day by a couple individuals. Need to figure out if my insurance has been fixed yet, or I'll be up a creek trying to get my trileptal this weekend. The thought of being pulled off my meds scares me. I worry about my son's as well.

[Moose72]

I have 2 more small things to add then my daughter needs to sign a few things and this paperwork is DONE!! Well it will be after 10 Friday when we turn it in.

[wildflowerchild25]

Felt like **** knowing that my certificate will expire and that I have no other career options right now. So depressed all day. But I did kick my own *** and get the trash out, get the dishes done. And I took a shower. I wasn’t going to but I felt it was the lesser of two evils (washing my hair alone vs taking a full shower). It helped. I used my nice relaxing lavender shampoo. Then I put on lavender lotion. I feel a little better but I’m still just waiting for 9pm so I can take my trazadone and go to sleep.