[WildcatVet]

Made it through the day yesterday...T intake appt...driving...doctor's appt. I'm feeling quite proud of myself today...!

[emgreen]

Originally Posted by WildcatVet

Made it through the day yesterday...T intake appt...driving...doctor's appt. I'm feeling quite proud of myself today...!

I remember you writing that you have somewhat of a phobia about driving. I'm glad you were able to get out & take care of business.

I've only been getting about three hours sleep a night for the past week, or so. I can't nap, but feel sick to my stomach from lack of sleep. I can get to sleep at night but then wake up after a minimum of sleep. I'm not feeling manic, but it's getting frustrating. I can't concentrate to do anything more than listen to music. I can't even write this message so it makes any sense...

Woot, WildcatVet! (I don't have a car anymore, but I'd gotten quite hinky about certain driving situations -- nighttime rain, YIKES! -- so good on you!)

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Been dealing with a little cold. A mere peskiness in the scheme of things really. Cracks in the armor. Had talked my psych into letting me go PRN with my AP....well, that's back in regular use for the time being...sigh.

Seeing my case manager/T today. Kind of nervous. Got changed on me (only second visit with this new one) and life pressure is ridiculously high. And we're heading into a time of year traditionally marked with SEVERE depression, so I really need to feel like things are as well in hand as they can be. And they very much aren't.

Well, better get on it...

[hopeless2015]

Everything is out of old place. New place just got carpet installed yesterday afternoon so we have a our bed set up and living room full of boxes to unpack. Husband has an interview for new job tomorrow morning.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Everything is out of old place. New place just got carpet installed yesterday afternoon so we have a our bed set up and living room full of boxes to unpack. Husband has an interview for new job tomorrow morning.

I am relieved to read things are moving along okay.
You and DH were hit with so much at once. I've been very concerned.


WC

[Victoria'smom]

I signed my son up for the SAT blew $60 bucks there. Now I'm looking into graphing calculators for the test and it's $130 for a freaken calculator. who has that much money?! I want him to do his best so I'm thinking of trying to borrow that but really that's just to much.

[Sunflower123]

Had a really good time at the Halloween party. Gave me a paradigm shift and lots of motivation to make some changes.

Hugs to all who are struggling.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Had a really good time at the Halloween party. Gave me a paradigm shift and lots of motivation to make some changes.

Hugs to all who are struggling.

I am very happy for you!

WC

[scatterbrained04]

Work had me stressed out, annoyed, and overwhelmed today. Then I came home to a messy house. Can't wait until bed time so I can shut my brain off.

[Faltering]

I'm struggling with work again already, having panic attacks. I really can't handle all these responsibilities on top of my mental illnesses. I don't know what to do. My boss seems to know I was hospitalized for mental health even though I didn't tell her. She said she's there to support me, but I have such a high caseload that it won't change anything.

[-Astral-]

**** me am seeing ghosts and **** hahaha

[xRavenx]

Work was horrible. I feel like I have to do everything for everyone 24/7, not just at work, but in life too. No appreciation ever. I am not one who really ever cared much about getting appreciation, but just a tiny bit would be nice every now and then. No one seems to care, unless I am meeting their needs. Maybe I shouldn't bother anymore. I am just too angry and too tired. I haven't stopped for a minute today until now, just running and running.

[jmariah001]

Have a tough decision to make regarding my one cat. She may have to be put down. The medicine I've been giving her doesn't seem to be working. She's been sick for a month now. She has fluid in her lungs. She has lost a lot of weight because she isn't eating very much. There is one more thing we can try it's another kind of medicine but that adds on to the financial burden. My other cat isn't feeling good either. Just not as bad as Torbee. They both tested positive for either FIV or leukemia can't remember which one. So we knew when we took them there was a possibility we could lose them easily. One is 6 the other is 5. I don't want to make the decision. But you don't want them to suffer either. I don't know what to do. Plus the car needs fixed on top of all the other crap going on. Just feel overwhelmed right now. Can't take much more.

[bpforever1]

I woke up in the afternoon because I had no work today. I then proceeded to McDonald's and ate my usual salad, coffee, chicken burger, and tater tots. I was satisfied. I paid a bill then did some minor administrative tasks. Now, I will see if I can study. Life is not bad. Tomorrow, I'd like to go shopping at a supermarket but don't know if I will. The supermarket is far away. I have not gone there in over a month. My going there and back takes several hours. I am also trying to spend less money because one of my jobs is on hiatus. I may or may not get it back. I know my teaching situation is not good because many companies are cutting back. Thus, I need to switch to another path that is in demand. I don't expect to find a full-time job at my age. But, as long as I can keep working, this is fine with me. I don't mind doing a variety of jobs. I like working. I am surviving and am happy. I don't have much materialistically but am enjoying my time now. I am relatively mentally stable now and am really grateful about this. It could be better of course but it could be worse. I take it one day at a time and enjoy what life has to offer.

[ck3416849]

Originally Posted by bpforever1

I woke up in the afternoon because I had no work today. I then proceeded to McDonald's and ate my usual salad, coffee, chicken burger, and tater tots. I was satisfied. I paid a bill then did some minor administrative tasks. Now, I will see if I can study. Life is not bad. Tomorrow, I'd like to go shopping at a supermarket but don't know if I will. The supermarket is far away. I have not gone there in over a month. My going there and back takes several hours. I am also trying to spend less money because one of my jobs is on hiatus. I may or may not get it back. I know my teaching situation is not good because many companies are cutting back. Thus, I need to switch to another path that is in demand. I don't expect to find a full-time job at my age. But, as long as I can keep working, this is fine with me. I don't mind doing a variety of jobs. I like working. I am surviving and am happy. I don't have much materialistically but am enjoying my time now. I am relatively mentally stable now and am really grateful about this. It could be better of course but it could be worse. I take it one day at a time and enjoy what life has to offer.

Don't give up, you sound like you are doing great. You got to eat. Go to the supermarket. I am sorry it is so hard. Have you tried the connector smart bus?

[251turnaround]

I think I'm stable right now, but I'm not sure. I am feeling somewhat depressed though I can tell it is just situational right now.

It's been bothering me that thus far I have been unable to get anywhere in life because of both the disorders and critically flawed personality I have. I always set myself up for failure. But even when I do try to succeed, I fall flat on my face because things get too difficult. This applies to college, work, and life in general. I can't take it anymore. I can't even be good at the things I like to do. I'm just pathetic.

[ck3416849]

Originally Posted by 251turnaround

I think I'm stable right now, but I'm not sure. I am feeling somewhat depressed though I can tell it is just situational right now.

It's been bothering me that thus far I have been unable to get anywhere in life because of both the disorders and critically flawed personality I have. I always set myself up for failure. But even when I do try to succeed, I fall flat on my face because things get too difficult. This applies to college, work, and life in general. I can't take it anymore. I can't even be good at the things I like to do. I'm just pathetic.

I am sure you are not totally pathetic. Mental illness is a hard way to go. All you can do is give it your all.

I just got power last night from the wicked bad storm we got Monday. I think I'm hypomanic. For the first time in almost a year. Last night I started feeling revved up and just wanted to fight someone! I woke up this morning and first thought was "I'm going to the liquor store today and buying EVERYTHING!"
I'm going out to the bank and to get my hair cut later, gonna try and stay away from the liquor store.

it's friday, and I am still really pissed about halloween and how lonely, and depressing the day was for me

I don't know why I just can't move on. but I can't

I wanted a better halloween.

but my mood's okay accept for that

[bpforever1]

So, I had my writing in Japanese corrected. I had many mistakes. I am not discouraged though but know that my grammar and vocabulary are weak. I am trying to memorize patterns but have much to study before I can use these patterns. I have a long way to go but am motivated. I want to become fluent. We shall see!!

[hopeless2015]

Still doing good mentally. Physically I'm exhausted, my leg and arms. Hands are shaking

[scatterbrained04]

Feeling pretty bummed out over a work situation. Depressed even. It'd be a long post to explain why. Having a middle management-ish type of position is a lonely place to be. Sometimes just downright awful even without a mental illness thrown into the mix. In fact, I think there are some studies that showed middle managers are the most depressed out of different types of workers. I'm having SI and feel like SH. I've lost track of what my point is. I'm really tired.

[emgreen]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

Feeling pretty bummed out over a work situation. Depressed even. It'd be a long post to explain why. Having a middle management-ish type of position is a lonely place to be. Sometimes just downright awful even without a mental illness thrown into the mix. In fact, I think there are some studies that showed middle managers are the most depressed out of different types of workers. I'm having SI and feel like SH.

I'm retired, but understand the problems that can come with middle management; it's sometimes like having your head between a rock & a hard place. As far as your mood goes, I'm right there with you. I'm feeling depressed, isolated, & thoughts of SI are bouncing around my head. SH seems counter-productive to me, though. I know it gives some people relief from inner pain, but I don't like wearing my pain on my sleeve for others to see. I had one instance of SH when I was a teen & am still embarrassed by the scars on my arm. I hope you feel better...& in any event you're not alone in feeling depressed. Hang in there. BTW...I live in Michigan. Ohio State sucks!

[scatterbrained04]

Originally Posted by emgreen

BTW...I live in Michigan. Ohio State sucks!

Ever heard this song?

[emgreen]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

Ever heard this song?

That's great!!! I didn't go to the University of Michigan, so I hate the maize & blue, too! I went to Michigan State...but we also dislike "The" Ohio State University. We play each other a week from tomorrow in Columbus. It will be on FOX, so you'll be able to watch it. "Go Green!!!! Go White!!!" Wanna place any bets? (You've got to be careful when two potentially psychotic people start betting! It could get interesting! )