[scatterbrained04]

Originally Posted by emgreen

That's great!!! I didn't go to the University of Michigan, so I hate the maize & blue, too! I went to Michigan State...but we also dislike "The" Ohio State University. We play each other a week from tomorrow in Columbus. It will be on FOX, so you'll be able to watch it. "Go Green!!!! Go White!!!" Wanna place any bets? (You've got to be careful when two potentially psychotic people start betting! It could get interesting! )

Not sure what we'd bet I should buy tickets to the game and make the 20 minute drive to the horseshoe so I can hold up a sign and stick my tongue out at you. Lol I'm glad you don't like the Wolverines either. I guess that make you alright in my book...even if you DO live in that state up north

[graystreet]

Go Green! I'm from Michigan, too. Don't care about football, but family went to State, and I'd like to go there for my master's degree.

I'm about to go to work, had quite a few days off because I was sick. Feeling pretty anxious because it's been very busy, and also I don't want to be there. I've been pretty down lately because I've just lost a good friend (though it turns out we weren't so good for each other, so it's okay). Just...down and need a hug and someone to talk to. But I don't have anyone around to give me that stuff.

PS I currently study at Ohio University online. I have some great photos of our Bobcat taking down the Buckeye...if I had time, I'd post them.

[emgreen]

I hope your day at work goes bye without too much stress. I recently lost a good friendship for reasons I don't understand at all, so I can relate to what you wrote!

East Lansing is a good place to live...State's campus is beautiful! I hope you get a chance to do your M.A. there. I understand Ohio University's home color is green, too! That's a good thing! Take care.

[xRavenx]

I am really physically sick, but have to get up early tomorrow. It's some kind of bad virus. I am trying to find a cold medicine that will help, without making me feel horrible mentally.

[fishin fool]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

Feeling pretty bummed out over a work situation. Depressed even. It'd be a long post to explain why. Having a middle management-ish type of position is a lonely place to be. Sometimes just downright awful even without a mental illness thrown into the mix. In fact, I think there are some studies that showed middle managers are the most depressed out of different types of workers. I'm having SI and feel like SH. I've lost track of what my point is. I'm really tired.

Couldn't agree more, the years I spent in middle management were the
most stressful of my entire working life and it was not a good job for a
person with bipolar, at least not for me anyway.

[Moose72]

Having a hard time dealing with no food stamps and no money and my daughter not pitching in. I've been eating only candy. Except today though I had Olive garden as my friend paid. Meanwhile one thing my daughter has to do is back up into a parking space. She keeps almost hitting the car next to "her" space. It's too nerve wrecking.

[Sunflower123]

I have been feeling worse and worse as the day has gone on. I’m just not very good at life.

[Pookyl]

Agitated. Irritable. Head's too chatty.

[emgreen]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I have been feeling worse and worse as the day has gone on. I’m just not very good at life.

I've had days like that...far more often than I'd care to think about. I'm sorry that's what you're experiencing right now. I'm not sure what timezone you're in, but you can fall in bed soon & start over in the morning (in a MUCH better mood, I hope.) Sometimes the thought of pillows & warm covers are a nice distraction.

As far as you being, "just not very good at life," I guess I don't get it. Lately I've been spending far more time on the boards than I probably should. You're one of the most supportive people here...even if you just just give "hugs" sometimes. I think the world would be a much nicer place if everyone were as, "just not very good at life," as you are, Jennifer.

[Trua]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Having a hard time dealing with no food stamps and no money and my daughter not pitching in. I've been eating only candy. Except today though I had Olive garden as my friend paid. Meanwhile one thing my daughter has to do is back up into a parking space. She keeps almost hitting the car next to "her" space. It's too nerve wrecking.

Financial worries can be a huge stress, not what you or anyone else needs, especially if BP. I hope your situation improves soon.

I understand about nerve racking situations, as I'm depressed and at a very low point, many, many things, ( that others would just brush off) put me on edge and add to my stress.

[ck3416849]

Originally Posted by Trua

Financial worries can be a huge stress, not what you or anyone else needs, especially if BP. I hope your situation improves soon.

I understand about nerve racking situations, as I'm depressed and at a very low point, many, many things, ( that others would just brush off) put me on edge and add to my stress.

When I was with the father of my daughter 9 years ago my mom and the father of my daughter began working together one with constant petitions him living with us and him beating up walls. I tried to go into a domestic abuse place but mom came and found me and told them I wasn't being domesticly abused. They came and found me and said you are lying your moms here you have to go. Man when all this started the father and his friends were threatening to kill me. I went to Florida. Mom found me there I told no one it's like there's a rather, somewhere. They came and got me. Police put me up in a hotel. I than had no where to go but mom and dads. Dad died 10 years ago. was still on maternity leave. Anyway, I received lots of food stamps after that. Oh and at the beginning mom put me in hospital after Florida hospital declared me as needing power of attorney. I was only depressed. They diagnosed me with depression. Mom pays all mortgage and power and electric. I then received s.s. 5 years ago now even though I can work mom won't allow it. She petitions me if I talk back to her. And the police allow it. They cuff me and don't read me my rights. Anyway I have two kids that's their danger to self or others right there. Leaving home without them.

[liveforsummer]

Awake in this insomniac nightmare.

[ck3416849]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Awake in this insomniac nightmare.

Sorry the post was so awfully written.

[ck3416849]

I can't figure out how to start a new thread.

[winter loneliness]

There is a new thread button on the left/top side of the forum.

I have been feeling better lately.

Oi. No bueno. I'm thinking about going back to IOP for a few weeks until I get stable again. There aren't any good options though, I also need to find a new job. I haven't applied anywhere since I got fired and my seasonal job ended. I'm ready to flip my **** someone is chewing like a *******ed cow and I just want to SCREAM! I don't know what to do at this point. Everything is driving me crazy. STOP ****ING CHEWING! I want to die or go to Colorado.

[scatterbrained04]

I was ok when I got up, but I'm back in a pretty bad place. I'm tired of fighting. I kind of just want to give up. I'm too screwed up to ever live a life I want anyways.

[WildcatVet]

Made the trip to PA yesterday to my old home and packed up more boxes of stuff...it's depressing to tear my house apart. I hate this new house and I know it'll never feel like home.
I hate myself for all the mistakes I've made (or my MI made for me!) that brought me here and I feel like I'll never be happy again...this is just something on the outside...but how can I ever feel better when I feel so useless and worthless on the inside???

[Naynay99]

Hey.
Happy Saturday.
Not feeling that great. I did at least get in one last paddle for the season yesterday with my friend. Today I am gonna clean up the time bomb that used To be a house. But r at least attempt to anyhow. Honestly even if I can just do the dishes and kitchen and pick up the living room it would be an improvement. I am going away next week so need to have my shiit together before then. I wish I didn't feel like it was all so daunting a task.
Or that my mood was better. Or that I had some semblance of energy.

I sort of wish I was somebody else. But I guess this is all I get so I might as well try not to fuuck it up too much... happy November! It's my birthday month. When I was a little kid i thought the whole month was my bday and would announce so each day in nov- since its 11/4 today is the 4th day of my birthday... Would do that all the way till my actual bday near thanksgiving. Lol. Drove my older sister crazy!
Anyhow hope everybody is doing well and kicking some asss.
Take t easy.

[hopeless2015]

Working at the new apartment. Our couch wouldn't fit through the doors, oh well it was pretty beat up anyway, embarrassing actually lol. Got all the boxes out of living room. Need to go get some groceries and we need some curtains. Right now we are sitting on our butts, wiped out. Feeling pretty good mentally. I'm shocked at how well I've handled my husband losing his job and then the short time frame to move. I think we may actually have a good med combo, finally. Hugs to all

[graystreet]

Originally Posted by emgreen

I hope your day at work goes bye without too much stress. I recently lost a good friendship for reasons I don't understand at all, so I can relate to what you wrote!

East Lansing is a good place to live...State's campus is beautiful! I hope you get a chance to do your M.A. there. I understand Ohio University's home color is green, too! That's a good thing! Take care.

Thanks. It would be my MSN... I am currently an RN, and would go back for my master's to be a nurse practitioner, likely in their online program. There are quite a few online NP programs--most, you have to go to campus a few times throughout the program, and complete clinicals locally. I may also do the Ohio University program, but I'd like to go to State because it's much closer to me, and because hey, it's State

And yes, Ohio U is green and white as well.

[graystreet]

I am feeling better today. Not sleeping the greatest--waking up at 230pm yesterday and 3pm today (I work at 7pm, usually get up at 5). But today, instead of lying in bed dozing, I got up, got dressed, am having coffee, and am on here. Work was okay last night--steady but not horrible for me. It was busy overall, but sometimes I'm the one with an unbearable night, sometimes my night is a little more chill.

I am fiercely dreading tonight, however. Our healthcare system is switching from one computer software to another (it's part of a nationwide effort to streamline electronic health records so that wherever you go, you can see your records). It's gonna be a B! And I'm the noncompliant employee who didn't go to the computer study halls like she was supposed to in order to practice with the software. I went to the 16 hour class, just never practiced. I'm good with technology, and the software is pretty intuitive. I'm hoping I'll be okay.

Sorry for the long post.

PS And it's the "fall back" time change tonight...the bane of all third shifter's existences!

[Standup2me]

Sometimes I wish that life was a big etch-a-sketch (anyone remember those?) . I just give it a good shake when I want it to change, and life hands me a clean board to start from.

...if wishes were horses...

[scatterbrained04]

Yay time change. Up at 2:45am instead of 3:45am. On a Sunday. This is going to be a loooong day. In all fairness though, I fell asleep about 8:30pm last night. Had a very rough day yesterday.

[emgreen]

I was up at 2:30, but went to bed at midnight. I’ve been having a rough time sleeping, too.