[emgreen]

Originally Posted by vertigo

How do I convince myself that anybody cares

I'm a bit slow & sarcasm is a higher level cognitive process, but I sense a hint of it! This is a place to come unload. I came here to post something & felt self-conscious about it...thinking, "How do I convince myself that anybody cares?" You've encouraged me to post. Thanks!

I have a pre-op appointment in an hour (I'm having shoulder surgery a week from Friday.) I'm feeling mixed...& have been for a while. Today, especially, I feel extremely wound-up, though. I don't know if it's the appointment, or just my mood swinging into a bad space. I'd take a klonopin, but I'm running low & they're pretty strict about their "30 day insurance rule." Nah! I guess I'll take one today & skip on another day. I see my pdoc Wednesday, anyways. It's time for a med change.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by emgreen

I'm a bit slow & sarcasm is a higher level cognitive process, but I sense a hint of it! This is a place to come unload. I came here to post something & felt self-conscious about it...thinking, "How do I convince myself that anybody cares?" You've encouraged me to post. Thanks!

I have a pre-op appointment in an hour (I'm having shoulder surgery a week from Friday.) I'm feeling mixed...& have been for a while. Today, especially, I feel extremely wound-up, though. I don't know if it's the appointment, or just my mood swinging into a bad space. I'd take a klonopin, but I'm running low & they're pretty strict about their "30 day insurance rule." Nah! I guess I'll take one today & skip on another day. I see my pdoc Wednesday, anyways. It's time for a med change.

Glad I convinced you to post. & I hope your appointment goes well. Or if I'm too late, that it went well.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by vertigo

I don't work most Mondays, so I'm home cleaning out the fridge and the nuker, doing laundry, and seeing my T. At least that's the plan. I'd like to go back to sleep until I leave for the T.

How do I convince myself that anybody cares?

I care....

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by vertigo

How do I convince myself that anybody cares?

I care too.

[WildcatVet]

Today is bad...really bad...not even a glimmer of light just deep despair. Typing this is taking all I've got...

[ck3416849]

I know vertigo I hope someone cares because this is just to much. Any way I walked to the gas station today. I Made myself some lunch. I have to cut the grass and do laundry. I get so sore so easy after 2 years constantly in bed. If I don't do it petitioner might scream at me or tell me she's gonna kick my butt. Even worse petition me and put me back in them system

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by vertigo

I don't work most Mondays, so I'm home cleaning out the fridge and the nuker, doing laundry, and seeing my T. At least that's the plan. I'd like to go back to sleep until I leave for the T.

How do I convince myself that anybody cares?

I CARE, TOO!


WC

[ck3416849]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I CARE, TOO!


WC

Thank you wild I care about you to.
Hugs

[Guiness187055]

Went to the pdoc today another great visit. he upped my abilify u to 30mg due to mixed episodes I have been having. I also decided to dump the klonopin and go back on xanax. I am also trying seroquel one last time for sleep. It's been a productive day.

[ck3416849]

Update
My son did the lawn for me. And I did the laundry.

[CloserToTheMid]

Bipolar symptoms fairly mild. I'm a little impulsive, but am managing to control it so far. Anxiety is my main symptom at the moment. Maybe a side effect of Vraylar. Seeing my pdoc tomorrow morning.

[ck3416849]

Originally Posted by CloserToTheMid

Bipolar symptoms fairly mild. I'm a little impulsive, but am managing to control it so far. Anxiety is my main symptom at the moment. Maybe a side effect of Vraylar. Seeing my pdoc tomorrow morning.

Awe, love the Dove. May your anxiety calm, smiling.

[Faltering]

I went to the pdoc today and he's taking me off Zyprexa due to the weight gain and drowsiness. It's not working that great anyway. I'm now back on Latuda, which is the med I took when I was hospitalized last year. I had to stop taking Latuda due to the cost. I'm hoping my new insurance will cover it this time. I have samples for now.

[scatterbrained04]

I feel so overwhelmed and alone. I could really use some help. It's just too much for me. Worried about the future too. I don't even have someone I can vent to that will listen.

[ck3416849]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

I feel so overwhelmed and alone. I could really use some help. It's just too much for me. Worried about the future too. I don't even have someone I can vent to that will listen.

I see your post, post more I enjoy reading you. I don't have no one either. My ex-boyfriend tryed to marry me after casting death threats. He still threatens to wet my house up and acted like he was going to pull out a gun on me. My mom walked in at the right time and she got him to leave I went to bed.

[ck3416849]

Originally Posted by Faltering

I went to the pdoc today and he's taking me off Zyprexa due to the weight gain and drowsiness. It's not working that great anyway. I'm now back on Latuda, which is the med I took when I was hospitalized last year. I had to stop taking Latuda due to the cost. I'm hoping my new insurance will cover it this time. I have samples for now.

That is good my doc just took me off heldol deconate 100mg shot. My heart rate went real low. Diue to it I was also on a 5mg pill it was to much. And the prescription one of the nurses wrote that the hospital allowed her to Wright. My psych kept it even though the first psych doc. Only wrote for 5mg pill one month after to Feb.s ago. The nurse wrote for 10 psych doc still gives to me to this day I tell pharmacy only to give me the 5mg. I took the 10for a while even though the nurse wrote the script out of anger.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

I feel so overwhelmed and alone. I could really use some help. It's just too much for me. Worried about the future too. I don't even have someone I can vent to that will listen.

I’m sorry you’re having a tough time. I know this isn’t irl but you’re not alone here. We care and we’re here to support you.

[Daonnachd]

So, I went to see my T. She and I were talking about keeping a gratitude journal. I confessed that since I had stopped, it felt wrong to start up again in the same book. She agreed then got up, crossed the office to her desk, and pulled out a small collection for me to choose one. That felt good, like she cared about me as a person, not just a client.

[ck3416849]

Originally Posted by vertigo

So, I went to see my T. She and I were talking about keeping a gratitude journal. I confessed that since I had stopped, it felt wrong to start up again in the same book. She agreed then got up, crossed the office to her desk, and pulled out a small collection for me to choose one. That felt good, like she cared about me as a person, not just a client.

That is a kind hearted vertigo she reached for a journal for you.

[Faltering]

My Latuda prescription only cost $15 with a discount card.

[Naynay99]

Hey. So so day today. After wasting most of the weekend I did eventually pick up the living room and clean kitchen and do dishes. I even cooked dinner since I had clean pans and dishes!
Anyway I hope u r all good. I go away Thursday so have to finish my chores and stuff by then. Take care.

[ck3416849]

Originally Posted by Naynay99

Hey. So so day today. After wasting most of the weekend I did eventually pick up the living room and clean kitchen and do dishes. I even cooked dinner since I had clean pans and dishes!
Anyway I hope u r all good. I go away Thursday so have to finish my chores and stuff by then. Take care.

I like your snoopy

[ck3416849]

I go tomorrow to have my shot I hope the police come busting down doors. For having me on a non f.d.a. approved drug. 911you have a caller.

[Daonnachd]

I made supper (tomato-rice soup) and we all sat down as a family to eat together this evening. It was a good way to reset my heart and mind. I have a wonderful wife and delightful sons. I am grateful for them and realise they care for me and need me.

[Lifeischallenging]

Got a little anxious just now. My brat "nephew" got a little cocky and started talking back to his stepmom. It sent my anxiety through the roof. I had to end up leaving. Everything else has been going great. Still looking to apply for colleges. Which reminds me: I recieved some stuff from a college here and I never even requested it.