My guilt is unbearable

Everything I do, I feel guilty about. I didn't want to watch the football game at my parent's house, and I felt almost suicidally guilty. Then I ordered a pizza and inside my head I heard," you fat &%#@!" And then I felt guilty about spending 15 on pizza. I feel terribly guilty I can't take my friend's cat for her. I just don't want any other animals. I also feel guilty about not doing anything all day besides staring at the wall and sometimes reading my book. When will it ever go away?? I'm on the highest dose of remeron, 100mg of zoloft, seroquel, but I'm still this way. The pdoc thought it was the valium which I've been taking for 6 days so he axed that. He also said give Lithium time to work as I've only been on a therapeutic level for 2 days. I just can't stand guilt and shame. It's one of the worst feelings.

So many hugs. I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. I know it well. I feel extreme guilt over everything as well.

I understand the feeling. hopefully the lithium helps.

The Lithium should really help.

Try to be kind to yourself while your under all the stress

Sending hugs I hope the med changes kick in soon and you can get some relief from the guilt. You deserve to feel so much better

Embraces.

Remember, you are not expected to be perfect, and you are allowed mercy, even from yourself.

Lithium can take a little while. Please be patient.

Are we twins? Jk...everything you listed would make me feel guilty too. The thing is, it shouldn't. I'm sorry you are struggling with guilt. It can make us downright miserable. Sending big hugs.

Hopefully the lithium will help. But it's not a magic pill. Guilt comes from self loathing, which is a common symptom of depression.

But also excessive guilt can have its roots in childhood in a dysfunctional family. Were you guilt tripped a lot as a child? Were you told that your needs weren't important and invalidated? Were you ever told that you were selfish for trying to get your needs met? There are many things that cause a person to suffer from free floating guilt as an adult.

Yes, I'm afraid my need s were ignored by self - absorbed parents despite attempted interventions by school, church, etc. Perhaps you did have it much worse in that they took the time to abuse you. Me, they just ignored.

Yes, I was guilt tripped as a child. I came from a fundamentalist family and if I was 6 years old and tried to make an excuse for something I did wrong my mom would say, "That's what the devil would say." She also tells me I need exercise to this day, and I'm barely over the BMI range for overweight. I hate my family.

Ah, guilt. The predominant emotion in the lives of children of narcissistic parents. Please remember that this guilt was something that was indoctrinated into you--you don't deserve to feel guilty for having needs and boundaries. It's not your genuine or rational guilt, it's a coping reaction to your parents' selfishness. You never deserved to feel that way.

I can relate to this, I feel guilty all the time. Just yesterday I finally cleaned and organized my place and felt guilty because I was a slob for 5 months.

But I feel better now and shocked to be living in a clean place for once!

Sorry to hear that - have you tried 200 mg of Lamictal?

Ahhhh I get the same way. As a matter of fact I felt this way this morning so I took some kava root and 1.5mg Ativan. It doesn’t always stop the guilt and bad thoughts but it dulls it a bit. Right now I’m feeling guilt for going off on my dad in a crazy *** moodswing. I can’t stop thinking about it and I feel horrible. I wish I had an answer for ya because I need one too! ((Hugs))

I’m also curious if you’re a people pleaser?? Children that grew up getting scolded and abused for everything they did often grow up wanting to please everyone to avoid confrontation and unease. And when we must say no, a wave of guilt follows. At least for me. Even if I can’t just give someone the ride they asked for, or that $5, I really beat myself up.