Ugh. My stomach is iffy again from taking my medication in the morning, but how am I supposed to sleep if I take it at night?

To make matters worse, I'm at work right now and have an uncomfortable stomach. Don't know if I want to eat at all today... *sigh* At least I ate breakfast?

Well, I didn't take my antipsychotic until I got to work, so that's probably why I started feeling bad at work. I need zofran or something.

[Blueberrybook]

I only slept 3 hours last night, even with sleep meds. After grocery shopping and cleaning my daughter's bathroom today, I was tired. I took hydroxyzine (I have a prescription for that to use the dosage amount I'm prescribed for sleep, as needed; my pdoc has had me take it in the past when I need sleep in just this manner.) I slept 2 more hours, so that is good. 5 hours is still not a lot of sleep, but much better than I do if I'm starting to turn hypomanic. Hopefully, I will sleep better tonight. Ironically, my whole family seemed to have sleep issues last night. My husband said he couldn't fall asleep, and my daughter (10 yr. old) woke at 5 AM, unable to go back to sleep.

Sometimes a full moon messes with my sleep like that, but it wasn't a full moon, and it doesn't affect my husband and daughter. Don't know what was going on last night with the 3 of us.

[leomama]

I had a fitful sleep, got woken up several times. Having a 17 year old daughter is rough. She too has a mood disorder but chooses not to take medication or go to therapy but to smoke marijuana instead. Today is one of those days where I feel like giving up because I’m on my own, but I won’t.

[Unrigged64072835]

Last visit with old T. We went through my progress through the last 6 ½ years. I did really well, considering. I did a lot of hard and sometimes really painful work. He wanted to give me some of my old work but I've done it and don't want it back. I have his email address, so I'll drop off notes to let him know how we're doing. I can always come back to him if I want to. He's the first T that I didn't abruptly leave, so it was good to have closure.

My husband wants to walk the mall today. Ugh. Also need to make anniversary appt. at the spa. Ugh.

Mood is okay. Better than the low I've been feeling as of late.

[hopeless2015]

I'm doing alright I guess, I have some situational stuff going on that's weighing on me right now. I brought it all on myself and I just have to deal with the consequences.

HUGS everyone

[Wild Coyote]

It's another bright, sunny, cold day here.

Getting lots of chores done today. h is working along beside me, which keeps me on task. I am thankful for the energy to do a few chores.

Love to All!

WC

[jacky8807]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

It's another bright, sunny, cold day here.

Getting lots of chores done today. h is working along beside me, which keeps me on task. I am thankful for the energy to do a few chores.

Love to All!

WC

Its a cold bright blue skied day over here too! Im not doing any chores though
So only 2 hours of sleep in about 48 hours. There is no symptoms of in coming mania so basically im still struggling with depression...just a very very wide awake one. I know it i dont force sleep on myself that it WILL eventually get into a bad spot so i have to try. Work night shift again tonight

I had a mini tantrum on the kids about not appreciating me. No one knows how hard it can all be except my fellow PC heroes

we did it.

we ate 16 chicken nuggets in 1 hour

thrilled

[wildflowerchild25]

I'm having a ****ing GREAT *** DAY!!!! I am definitely possibly actually manic at this point but I DON'T CARE it's fabulous!!! I feel amazing! Everything is great! I got so much work done at work today it was great, I'm still sleeping so I can't be manic right except that it's only because I'm taking my meds which put me to sleep, without them I wouldn't be sleeping for **** i'm sure but who cares, no one cares, it's all great.

and tomorrow I'll be complaining about freaking out I'm sure!!! Up and down again, like a rollercoaster! That's my theme song right now!

[wildflowerchild25]

Btw: can’t see my pdoc until next Tuesday as she’s only in the office on Monday and Tuesday and it’s supposed to snow tomorrow so I don’t want to be out late. So I’m on my own for another week! Wonder what this week will bring???

[Guiness187055]

Pretty quiet day here did not get much of anything done. Loving gabapentin it has lowered my xanax intake in half if not more.

[Moreta]

I'm deleting my account. So have fun everyone. I hope you find what you want to in life. I have overstayed my stay here.

[xRavenx]

One piece of good news today was that I can get in for my procedure in 2 weeks from Wednesday, as opposed to my previous date, which was first week of May. Since I am someone who has anxiety build up really high, it is good that I will get everything over with. Of course I am worried that I am going to have to miss a work training. I think it was a similar training that I didn't get to go to last time, because I had a breakdown, so I hope they continue to be understanding.

The bad thing today: my head is pounding really bad. I took medicine, but it didn't help much. Hopefully some rest will get me back to normal again. I was very nauseas last night and had horrible stomach problems. Not sure if I have a virus or not, but just trying to take care and hope this goes away soon.

[Wander]

Have an emergency pdoc appointment today. Been mixed for a while. Started Rexulti last Thursday and have worsened since. Not sure if it’s the drug or natural progression of the illness. Wondering what he will say and if he will put me IP due to wild moods and SI. Scared.

[VerMOZZica]

I had a difficult time getting to sleep last night even after not having slept the night before that. I got up and took a shower to see if that would help. I did finally manage to get sleep. I woke up pretty late today and I have absolutely no energy and I have a headache but still managing to get some things done around the house. I hope all my fellow PC people are having a good Monday.

[Pookyl]

Slowly coming down from manic episode thanks to low stimulus and extra meds.
Removal of tumour on parathyroid gland in a week. I hope it’s cancer. I can’t get on top of all the medical s**t in my life.

I managed to have a productive day today. I didn't sleep all that great, but a bit more than I have been. I even pulled out the fridge and cleaned in behind there ( it was truly gross), I even vacuumed the coils.

I took the recycling down, which is big for me because I run the risk of running into people.

Finger crossed I can have another productive day tomorrow and not crash from exhaustion. I really hope this is just feeling ok and not hypomania or mixed ...gosh I have so many days that just end up being mixed and awful. But I feel okay, not really up, but not as soul crushingly low as I have been either.

[bizi]

one load of laundry.done, headed to bed.
bizi

I've got to start taking my own advice! I cautioned Miguel'sMom the other day when she was feeling self-destructive after a fight with her husband to not do anything to make things worse. Well i was feeling sh!11y today and i ate buttery popcorn... and felt worse! Ack! Luckily it was early in the day and i could compensate by skipping dinner. I ate healthy otherwise and walked on the treadmill, so that takes care of that.

I'm so enjoying my new hobby of listening to classical music! It's just the perfect activity for me: sedentary, i can do it at home, it's free (YouTube) or cheap (i bought 13 hours of Schubert off iTunes for $8) and it doesn't produce anything to add to the storage crisis here in my tiny apartment-condo -- that was always the problem with knitting. So nice to have something other than one more stinky game of Scrabble! Yay Schubert! Yay Grieg!

[wildflowerchild25]

I woke up at 4:45. That means when I fully wake up I’m probably going to be manic as **** again. But maybe waking up so early will keep me tired. Time will tell.

I’m mad about this ****ing snowstorm we are supposed to get tomorrow. I know I’m going to lose power, I’ve already got a dangling broken tree branch from the last snow storm. It’s dangling right abover the power lines. I didn’t notice it until it was too late on Friday. But worse than that, I’m going to lose time off of spring break!!! I really needed those few days to myself. I love my son but I haven’t had a day off just to myself since I was out on disability. I have **** to get done.

****ing snow. Doesn’t nature know it’s spring???

[251turnaround]

I've been feeling really positive these past couple days. I made a post here that probably could have just been a reply to this thread, but too late for that now. Woops.

Anyway, I swear that I'm stable. I've been getting SO MUCH done whereas normally I'll be dragging my feet not accomplishing anything. Things are finally coming together. I'm going to be able to move out soon at some point for good.

[giddykitty]

Originally Posted by Moreta

I'm deleting my account. So have fun everyone. I hope you find what you want to in life. I have overstayed my stay here.

I'm still kinda new here so this is a first post like this and forgive me for being sentimental. I just wanted to specially acknowledge it. Not sure if I'm supposed to, but it struck me because i often feel this way on various sites, that it's an all or nothing thing and I often get frustrated that my needs are sometimes more than anyone can give, so why bother? (This is just me. I'm kinda hoping that maybe you're doing better than me and just off living your life. That would be nice. But hugs to you nonetheless ) so, I guess this just kinda stirred me, but I wish you all the goodness in life!! Take care!


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Yea, on that note, I've been pretty emotional lately. I'm reading another memoir and it's intense. Making me think on old memories, forcing me to face old struggles again in the wake of my new ones...its very interesting, ...actually, it's very comforting, t bh, but still makes me cry a lot and kinda sick to my stomach with thoughts at some times. It's actually a borderline personality disorder memoir...just saying. It's a little bit different than the bipolar memoir. I think I have a bit of both, and I'm so glad how far awareness has come, but I think I'm starting to appreciate why my docs are hesitant to diagnose bpd, for the stigma, because ill admit that even I thought the name was kinda negative (well, personality disorder in general) only a year ago, but the description fits me pretty well. Sad, but nice to have some direction with it. *sigh* well, even this post was exhausting! :P

[Unrigged64072835]

Hugs to those who want them.

Sorry to see you go, Moreta. Whatever you do in life I wish you well.

Worked out on the treadmill while husband did his aqua fitness thing. Need to figure out a general weight-lifting routine I can do on opposite days. Still fighting a headache, though.

Daughter dunked her phone in her coffee while she was at school. I think it's still working though because she sent me a picture of her last math test. At least I don't have to get another phone. Yet. I'm the only one with an upgrade because I don't use my phone to stir my coffee. I'm just glad she found a math course that worked for her.

Otherwise another quiet day.

Mood is okay today.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moreta

I'm deleting my account. So have fun everyone. I hope you find what you want to in life. I have overstayed my stay here.

Sorry to see you go!

Best wishes with you volunteer work and with life in general!
Will miss you.

WC

[Blueberrybook]

I'm having hypomania, but I was able to see my new pdoc today. He sent in some prescriptions for sleep and anxiety that will hopefully help me. Once I get the sleep under control, it helps bring down the mania and keeps me from doing risky things or spending money we don't have, being irritable and alienating the people I love.

I think he is going to work out better than the new pdoc I saw in early March, OMG, she should NOT be a pdoc at all! He will not replace my old pdoc, but I feel like he listens, and I can work with him.