Tara, Sorry to hear you're struggling to cope. Don't forget about all your success yesterday. Making lasagne -- that's quite a project! From your sig it sounds like you really like music. Don't forget about listening to music to cheer yourself up. I like music too. I like it because you can't quantify it. It's mysterious. You can't say why you like a song exactly -- you just like the sound. I hope your day improves -- cutting your Ativan dose by half sounds like a good idea. I hope you'll resist ODing. I've ODed several times and it just made things worse -- a panicked trip to the ER, withdrawal, doctors being reluctant to re-prescribe meds, the expense of paying for them again. It accomplished nothing.

[liveforsummer]

Feeling a sense of stability the past few weeks.. just ok. Still hard to get out of bed most days. Trying to be as active and social as I can manage. I feel so wrong wishing for just a smidge of hypomania. I have unfinished home deco to do but zero motivation to be bothered. Seems like such a waste of time and money.

Anyway whatever!!! Hugs to all that need them

[hopeless2015]

I had looping bad dream last night. I'd wake up, go back to sleep and have same dream. Woke up upset but I've calmed down now.
Hugs to everyone!!

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by leomama

I hear you. How’s your caffeine intake? Sunshine? Sleep? Exercise? Diet? Herbs or supplements?

As far as caffeine, I have about 1 cup of coffee per day. When it comes to sunshine, it still gets dark here kind of early, but once there is daylight savings time, it will get much better. I am inside too much while working though, but I go out for lunch breaks. My diet is so-so, and I am slowly getting back into routine for exercise (yoga, mostly), but didn't get a chance to do it this week. I often skip Vitamins, but that is also something I want to get more in the habit of taking.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Feeling a sense of stability the past few weeks.. just ok. Still hard to get out of bed most days. Trying to be as active and social as I can manage. I feel so wrong wishing for just a smidge of hypomania. I have unfinished home deco to do but zero motivation to be bothered. Seems like such a waste of time and money.

Anyway whatever!!! Hugs to all that need them

I have difficulty feeling motivated, too. Lately, I take a stimulant and fall asleep.

I hope you feel better soon!

Always good to hear from you!


WC

[Guiness187055]

Woke up with terrible back pain. I am a little loopy from my meds this morning. I have to run some errands later but am too loopy to drive right now.

[Unrigged64072835]

Why oh why do I do this to myself...

Apparently my husband mentioned that I've been "hyper" the past few days. Yesterday I impulse-bought a bunch of clothes and the clerk asked if I wanted to model for an in-store fashion show this weekend. I said, "Sure, that sounds like fun..." WHAT WAS I THINKING??? I am scared of being in public like this! Freaking impulsive self...now I have to figure out if I want to bail or not. My T thought I should go for it. Of course she would...I sure hope this isn't hypomania...

At least my husband bought some new clothes before I spent everything. He needed to do that.

Mood is okay other than a serious case of WTF...

[scatterbrained04]

Ok day today, but I started to get kind of triggered at work. Had an appointment with pdoc this morning. Raising my trileptal because of how much my mood was going up and down prior to this past month. He wanted to raise my latuda, but I chose to hold off for now. Have to go get blood work and need to do better about taking my supplements. And I'm supposed to exercise. It's so hard when I feel so fatigued all the time.

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by apfei

Tara, Sorry to hear you're struggling to cope. Don't forget about all your success yesterday. Making lasagne -- that's quite a project! From your sig it sounds like you really like music. Don't forget about listening to music to cheer yourself up. I like music too. I like it because you can't quantify it. It's mysterious. You can't say why you like a song exactly -- you just like the sound. I hope your day improves -- cutting your Ativan dose by half sounds like a good idea. I hope you'll resist ODing. I've ODed several times and it just made things worse -- a panicked trip to the ER, withdrawal, doctors being reluctant to re-prescribe meds, the expense of paying for them again. It accomplished nothing.

Thank you Jane, and the others who were worried. I should have qualified that it was just a thought I have, that I always tend to have when I end up with something potentially lethal in my hands (part of the reason I will NEVER own a gun). If for some reason I feel unsafe and out of control, I will give the meds to my mother for safe keeping.

[Wild Coyote]

I am very tired today. Took my prescribed stimulants and was still overwhelmed with sleepiness. *yawn*

Love to All!

WC

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

Woke up with terrible back pain. I am a little loopy from my meds this morning. I have to run some errands later but am too loopy to drive right now.

I am sorry that you are having severe back pains.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

[Cocosurviving]

My day was much better than one I had last week. One day I was super cranky. I’m just a little down today because I received a call at 5 AM saying my therapist was sick and would be out of the office. I only see him once a month so I’m down about not seeing him. I went to see my grandmother today it went well. She had got on my nerves last week. I went to see my mom today. She said I still sound like I’m congested and suggested I take some cold medicine. I believe daylight savings will change in my state for the last time. There was a vote and it passed. I need to set my pillbox up for the week.

[leomama]

Good day at work , fighting a bacterial infection from an insect or spider bite.

[Victoria'smom]

So I tried flavored vodka, mudslide, and jim beam vanilla and decided I still hate alcohol. debating meds, life, I'm agitated, pacing, and my leg is going a mile a minute. I know this can end badly but I like this feeling. I don't want it taken away. I yelled at my husband and his response was to scream "AHHHH" until I stopped. I wanted to hit him but decided that would be to far. on a side note my skins tight. My husband says that it's skin tight not to tight.

[Wander]

The last six days I have only been getting 4 hours sleep a night and have been accomplishing so much. I am a machine. Only downside is my Fibromyalgia is flaring up from all the activity. I am in pain and a bit dizzy. My heart is always racing and I have the shakes. Last night it got to 180 bpm so I took extra Clonazepam but it didn’t help so I took more, 6 mg in the end, and it calmed down. Mood is cheerful. Can’t stop racing around even though my body feels like I’ve run two marathons in a row. I know I should take some Haloperidol to calm things down but don’t want to. See my Tomorrow and pdoc the next day. Guessing they will have a lot to say.

I had a super day!

I've played competitive Scrabble for sixteen years and my game has leveled off so i started studying with an expert online. It's going well! Yesterday i thought it would be too hard and put the project on hold but when i tried today i got right into it! Yay!

I stuck to my healthier eating plan today and it went smoothly with no stomach aches! Quelle relief!

It was overcast and cool but i bundled myself and my dog all up in our good coats and we were able to enjoy the great outdoors for a good long time today. My dog even chased a couple of squirrels! Things are going well with her again and i am back to loving her after having my doubts about her briefly.

I got a rare contact on Facebook from my sister who is vacationing down in the Bahamas. She posted pictures of this place where pigs swim! So cute!

I'm back listening to Eminem and enjoying that too.

Hugs to all!

Jane.

[bizi]

I am happy that you had a good day Jane!!!!!
bizi

[jacky8807]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

(((((( Jacky ))))))

I am sorry you are going through this. Am glad you are seeking help with it.
We are here for you!


WC

Thanks Wild C. ...you are always at the ready with kind words for me no matter how long I have been away. Thanks for being there and being you

[Unrigged64072835]

Rough morning. I couldn't even drink water without my stomach throwing acid around like a volcano. I sent an email to my doc for another GI referral. It wouldn't be so bad if the med I was taking was only for short-term use, and I've been taking it for years.

Otherwise a quiet day so far. Kids are on spring break. (They're old enough to drive, so they're out and about.) Going to make it hard to make dinner though since I can't eat much until the acid goes away. I'll make it for them and nibble on a piece of bread or something else that's bland.

Hugs for those who want them.

ETA: So much for quiet! New furniture and computer are being assembled upstairs, with much wailing and gnashing of teeth. I'm hiding in the bedroom with headphones on.

[liveforsummer]

Sleeping in until 10-11am lately. Just can’t and don’t want to get out of bed. Once I’m up I’m ok for the most part. I want to be more than just ok though.

Hugs all around !

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Sleeping in until 10-11am lately. Just can’t and don’t want to get out of bed. Once I’m up I’m ok for the most part. I want to be more than just ok though.

Hugs all around !

I am in a similar position. I get up too late, or later than I want to. I set an alarm, but then hit the snooze button. It's an ongoing struggle. A part of it, for me, is I don't have to be up at any given time. I just feel bad about myself if/when I get up "late."

I hope life is treating you well. I think of you often and love to have you posting!


WC

[franz kafka]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Sleeping in until 10-11am lately. Just can’t and don’t want to get out of bed. Once I’m up I’m ok for the most part. I want to be more than just ok though.

Hugs all around !

If I don't have anything specific to wake up for I'll sleep until 1pm or even later, so I can totally relate! I think it's my meds causing the sleeping in. Damn you zyprexa! But also thank you for keeping me relatively stable.

[pirilin]

Still doing GRRRRREAT!!!. Never better. TG.

[liveforsummer]

Holy moly I think the local coffee shop gave me a regular coffee instead of a decaf! Feeling hypomanic and sooo wired. Hmm as much as my hypomania can be fun I always forget the horrible agitation that goes with it. I’m assuming once the caffeine has cleared my system everything will settle. May as well put this energy to use and get stuff done cause I’m pretty sure it won’t last long.

[scatterbrained04]

Not having the best day. Felt a little off last night. Woke up feeling pretty bad and felt progressively depressed as the morning went on. Seems to have eased up a bit this afternoon but still don't feel myself. Wish it would just hurry up and be bedtime.