[Nammu]

No it's not nessary to be a permanent thing. I've read here where it's taken only like 6 months to get on it and others much longer, it depends on how well documented your history is. You got fired, spent a long time on leave for both IP and IOP had doctor documented leave from work. That is all in your favor. Seasaw was working until she got SSDI then went back to work when she was ready. There's lots of info on this in the insurance forum......I think in the work forum there's info on it too.

[Wild Coyote]

(((((( wildflowerchild ))))))

Yes, you need a break. I am so sorry this is becoming so difficult.
Thinking of you and your son.
My heart goes out.

WC

[Standup2me]

I made salad for dinner and put the scraps out for the deer.
It was amazing to watch them eat every morsel
Animals are truly works of art

[jacky8807]

Wildflower ...im sorry you are dealing with so much . I completley relate as being a single working mother with bipolar that is currently unstable . Im hoping things turn around for us sooner rather than later. We cant leave our children so we have to find a path tho the light.

Im fighting tooth and nail and forcing self care on myself. The intrusive thoughts are getting worse but im practicing every damn skill i ever learned and trying to stay faithful to life and recovery.

I wish nothing but the best for all of you struggling tonight

[wildflowerchild25]

I emailed three possible therapists for my son. I also checked out the group I go to for my pdoc’s website, they do child counseling as well. So when I go to my pdoc appointment I’m going to ask them if they can see my son, if no one gets back to me. I don’t think it’s a conflict of interest as I don’t do therapy there, only pdoc.

I’m trying not to get lost in the negative thoughts rights now.

Wildflower, I'm so sorry. I worked until my back surgery/injury, then a year later had my psychosis.

I was unmedicated raising my son. I remember the STRESS!!! It was so hard! My mom did help on weekends tho.

But you're not this horrible mother. You are going through a tough time right now. I think you're mixed. Maybe you could go back on invega and get metformin for the high prolactin? I heard they do that. I'm on 3 mgs of invega and 5 mgs of Zyprexa, it's working for me. Yes I've gained weight, but I lost some too recently.

Being a single bp, working mom is really hard. Give yourself some credit.

[RainyDay107]

Hi, all. I’m unwell. I was non-psych IP, then involuntarily committed yet no psych ward as head hospital psychiatrist reversed it. Ruled out stroke or brain aneurysm.

My pdoc is very worried about me, he told my bf. I’ve been very confused with huge short term memory lapses. I am dehydrated from vomiting so much, no appetite.

It was odd being IP in regular hospital unit. My bf is taking care of me. Trying to avoid going back. See my pdoc tomorrow.

Pdoc of mine thinks depersonalization or disassociated from cumulative losses/trauma. We will see. He wants me to get into therapy ASAP and referral given. Bf will call tomorrow. Non insurance coverage but that’s Medicare for ya...

I appreciate any hugs here.

I’ll be back to support you all as soon as I can. I’m not psychotic or having an episode. I feel floating, brain in a blender.

Maybe I’ll lurk..I dunno. I’m scared. But no stroke or brain aneurysm.

Had to cancel trip to a state I want to relocate to...was going this week. Oh, well. Next month. Estate hasn’t been finalized yet, anyway. Money doesn’t buy happiness but I want to move except pdoc is great. Maybe I could fly “home” for monthly visit. Getting ahead of myself.

Rambling.

TLDR; I’m unwell but will support you as soon as I can.

[Wild Coyote]

(((((( glamslam ))))))

Please be careful about dehydration. I had a friend who had a stroke because he was very dehydrated. Maybe you need some IV fluids?

I am so glad your bf is helpful to you.

I also go through some dissociation from trauma. I am sorry you are going through this. It can be very scary.

I hope you'll feel well enough to go on your trip soon.

Much Love,

WC

[wildflowerchild25]

I woke up at 3:15am and stayed awake until about 5:30am. Now I’m awake for work at 6:15am. Sucks. Oh well. I think there’s a faculty meeting today after school so I can’t even leave right at 2:40. ****ing lame.

[LadyShadow]

I am up. I am here. I have no direction right now. I had a REALLY difficult time last night, and honestly I don't even know where to go from here. Just need to sleep, but my sleep schedule is totally screwed up. I can't catch a break, I just can't.

[Moreta]

Things are good except I got stupid methodist hymns in my head lol. Got some decent sleep last night. I'm going to see a nutritionist today, I hope she has some ideas for me. Not looking forward to driving to Greensboro though. Was trying to think if I needed anything from the super G mart but I don't eat rice anymore and pocky is off limits. I doubt they'd have gluten free anything anyways. Diets are lame, especially ones you don't get to chose cause your intestines hate you.

[jacky8807]

Back to work tonight after a week off. Yay
Its spring weather over here today and i need to force myself outside to walk. The lack of physical activity i have going on right now is downright scary and i woke up throughout the night with my heart racing like never before. Its probably my body telking me to MOVE
My 17 yr old really helped me this week and took his 11 yr old brother to his basketball games and out to eat . Hes truly an amazing kid and as hes learned about depression over the years from me it has made him a compassionate and helpful soul

Oh! Also he was accepted to college for a 5 year criminal justice plan. Its a program that within 5 years he will have a degree in the field but also complete the poluce academy!! My boy wants to be an officer.

[glennk]

2 hours sleep and I'm up. Grrrr.... Still stressing about not getting drug assistance from the county hospital for my Latuda prescription. It's the only thing that has broken me out of the depressive state that Seroquel has left me in.

[leomama]

It’s raining , I have work so I will need to take an Uber/Lyft. I’m tired.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by glennk

2 hours sleep and I'm up. Grrrr.... Still stressing about not getting drug assistance from the county hospital for my Latuda prescription. It's the only thing that has broken me out of the depressive state that Seroquel has left me in.

hi, Have you seen the Latuda coupon online? A discount is available through the manufacturer. Different people pay different amounts with the coupon. My apologies if you have already considered this.


WC

[bizi]

on to my 3rd cup of coffee.
bizi
see my thread if you want to hear of my projects.
bizi

[hopeless2015]

Doing ok, I solo thought about calling off work but got my *** up and came. I'm keeping caught up so I need to be happy with that. There was no particular reason for wanting to stay home, just the first thought that popped to mind when the alarm went off.

Hugs everyone!!

[Zigy]

I felt better most of last week. Even work was't so bad. Then on Saturday, middle of the day, I got chills and trembling and that awful feeling in the stomach. Then I started crying. I was so tired of anxiety. I was hoping I was improving. But noooo... it won't let me feel better. It's like f**** teasing me. I've been anxious all weekend. Today, Monday, anxiety is very bad. The world doesn't seem real. I feel like crying again. I'm so fatigued, burnt out. I just want to go sleep and never wake up again. Not suicidal, just very, very tired.

[xRavenx]

Something positive that happened: my friend texted apologizing for the times she has been judgmental about certain behaviors that I have displayed (i.e. promiscuity during mania, self-destructive types of behavior). She said she's studying Psychology more and now knows what mania is and is able to understand better. That was nice to hear. As far as everything else goes, I have been trying to battle with impatience and frustration related to different things. For one, I have to go to the doctor and find out about whether I have a kidney infection due to abnormal blood work and urine test. Hopefully, whatever it is, treatment is easy enough. I have this anxious agitated hypomanic type of energy. Not the euphoric kind though. It's a bit uncomfortable, but dealing with it the best I can.

[Tucson]

I have decided to exesize today. So far, I have walked about two and a half miles, and now am resting at a restaurant. I saw a banana cream pie float by me, but I then chose to ignore it. I am thinking of walking an extra mile before turning back. I do not want to go back just yet. Having nothing to do there drives me crazy. I will wait until my heart rate returns back down before doing any more walkng.

I have been really depressed for the past week. Today it has improved enough to go on a walk. I am hoping this exersize will help me. I have been spending too much money now that I have a very high credit limit. So I need to go back to being frugal. Due to my depression, I have not been cleaning up after myself, or taking showers.

[Unrigged64072835]

Hugs to all that want them.

Saw second prospective T this morning. She's good. I was able to talk to her and just starting to know her. I still have one more T who has trauma experience, and she also knows EMDR. I'll make another appt. with this one though if that falls through. I actually like this "shopping around" experience. My last two Ts were good too, but there are things I need to deal with. It was funny because this T said I should be an emotional wreck with what I went through. I just shrugged--a lot of it was circumstances: I have a good husband, my daughter matured, and I'm on a med that keeps me stable. I have also worked my *** off with my last therapist.

I couldn't focus on my final this afternoon so I'm here and was making another audio loop montage earlier. I also did the last load of laundry (at least until the next one, ha) so my daughter can do her clothes. She was drawing and just spaced out for a bit.

I'll make dinner shortly and hopefully we can finish the jigsaw puzzle tonight. We only have the sky left.

Mood was anxious at first but now feeling better.

I'm anxious and depressed. Such a long story, and I don't have the energy to write it out. I hate winter!

[liveforsummer]

Hi all. Doing ok. Day by day.
Hugs to all

[Hopeful Camel]

Got to work. That is a sore point in my existence these days. I feel it chips away at my soul, but it is as it is. I accomplished some small tasks yesterday - cleaned, did the paper shredding, taxes. It made me feel more alive. I need to work on my agoraphobia. I'm trapped inside of my bedroom, unable to leave except to go to work. It makes for a narrow existence. Is there a pill for that? :-O

[Wild Coyote]

Headache and pain levels are up. H and I spent the afternoon writing letters and making calls to lawmakers on the national and the state levels today re: school safety, etc. So many topics at hand right now. Many Bills being fast-tracked when they need further refinement/consideration.

We need to be sure to keep our children and teachers safe. I could write a lot more, but the topics are too political.

Anyway, the topics are very sad... and very important, so it's hard for me to avoid addressing them. At the same time, it can be very stressful/tiring.

Love to All!

WC