[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by 251turnaround

Stable as can be right now. I think I have been for the past month and a half now. I like it. I don't think it's ever lasted this long for me before. Of course I still have some little blips of ups and downs but they are very manageable.

My biggest problem right now is getting over my stimulant cravings. I've been trying to make do with lots of caffeine but it's just not the same.

Are you withdrawing from stimulants?
I hope you feel better soon.


WC

[Moreta]

I feel ok except for having a knife in my back. I talked to my therapist this morning. I went out and deposited a check into the bank so I have some money and went and got another chest xray cause my GP put an order for one in. Now I just gotta wait to see what comes from it. I hope on the first one it was just my shirt. Like I need more health issues now. :P

[251turnaround]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Are you withdrawing from stimulants?
I hope you feel better soon.


WC

Thanks.

I'd been abusing Adderall on and off for a few years and quit it for good just a couple months ago, and I still feel groggy and drained throughout the day. I'm not sure if that's withdrawal or just what normal is like, but it sure isn't pleasant. I'm constantly thinking about taking it throughout the day. Thankfully I cut off the people in my life who were into drugs so there's that at least.

[hopeless2015]

It's another dreary rainy day, supposed to be like this all week. I've overdrawn my checking again. I've got to get a grip on my spending. I'm afraid to tell my husband how bad it is. I told him I'm overdrawn just not how much. I'm afraid he is going to leave me if this keeps up. It's all because of my gambling addiction and he knows this. I just haven't been able to get control of myself, I know it's wrong yet I keep doing it.

Hugs everyone!!

[Cocosurviving]

It’s raining where I am too. I miss the sunny days. I might have so good news. My state had a vote to decide on Daylight Savings Time. It was decided NOT to change the time anymore. I really hope this goes in effect this year and time remains the same. I’ve been taking vitamin b-complex and they seem to really help with my depression.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by 251turnaround

Thanks.

I'd been abusing Adderall on and off for a few years and quit it for good just a couple months ago, and I still feel groggy and drained throughout the day. I'm not sure if that's withdrawal or just what normal is like, but it sure isn't pleasant. I'm constantly thinking about taking it throughout the day. Thankfully I cut off the people in my life who were into drugs so there's that at least.

I am on Adderall. Prescribed. I've been very concerned about becoming physiologically addicted/dependent. My pdoc just told me he doesn't see withdrawal with Adderall. I do not believe it. I stopped for one morning dose and was SO LOW I did not know what to do without it. I got better as soon as I took it again.

As you say, maybe it's withdrawal and maybe it's just "normal" life (without Adderall). Either way: It's like moving/thinking in a barrel of thick molasses. Bleh!

I truly hope you can feel better soon!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Anxiety is incredibly severe today. I feel like I’m having a heart attack. If I didn’t know it was anxiety I would be at the ER right now. I don’t know wtf my problem is. I don’t know if the alcohol destabilized me or if I would have been here anyway, I don’t know. I do know I have pledged to give up drinking beyond one glass of wine at least until my birthday (April 4).

I feel like my sister in law is mad at me. She still hasn’t responded to my texts. Maybe my messages aren’t going through though or she’s sick. I don’t know. She hasn’t posted on Social media either which is very unusual for her. I’m worried about her. I’m worried about everything. I’m scared for my life right now. Everyone’s life.

I’m at a professional development day for my district. My next workshop is drugs and alcohol. It will be very triggering for me. I shouldn’t have signed up for it. Maybe that’s part of the reason I’m such a big ****ing mess right now. I don’t know.

I can’t eat today. I feel like if I do I will throw it back up shortly. I drank a protein shake just to get something in my stomach.

I have therapy today and I usually feel better after talking to my therapist so hopefully I will feel better soon.

It's sometimes easy to forget what might be a huge trigger, when we , on some level, know we'd be triggered -- if we let ourselves feel it. Then... boom! It's too late.

I hope your anxiety has settled down for you.

Sending hugs your way.


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

It's another dreary rainy day, supposed to be like this all week. I've overdrawn my checking again. I've got to get a grip on my spending. I'm afraid to tell my husband how bad it is. I told him I'm overdrawn just not how much. I'm afraid he is going to leave me if this keeps up. It's all because of my gambling addiction and he knows this. I just haven't been able to get control of myself, I know it's wrong yet I keep doing it.

Hugs everyone!!

It's a rainy day here, too. Yuck.

I hope you can do whatever you need to do about the gambling. No judgment here. I know what it's like to be concerned about my marriage, due to some of my shortcomings/habits/behaviors. It's reason for some concern. Either way, you have my support!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moreta

I feel ok except for having a knife in my back. I talked to my therapist this morning. I went out and deposited a check into the bank so I have some money and went and got another chest xray cause my GP put an order for one in. Now I just gotta wait to see what comes from it. I hope on the first one it was just my shirt. Like I need more health issues now. :P

I hope your chest x-ray comes out clear/healthy!

Keep us in the loop?


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

It’s raining where I am too. I miss the sunny days. I might have so good news. My state had a vote to decide on Daylight Savings Time. It was decided NOT to change the time anymore. I really hope this goes in effect this year and time remains the same. I’ve been taking vitamin b-complex and they seem to really help with my depression.

This is all good news!

I wish my state would adopt the same. Please!
I am glad the B Complex is giving you a boost!

You continue to inspire me! Thank you!

WC

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

This is all good news!


I wish my state would adopt the same. Please!

I am glad the B Complex is giving you a boost!


You continue to inspire me! Thank you!



WC

Hi there WC,

Thank you for your kind words. I enjoy your post on PC as well. We have a great community here. Take care

I'm not looking forward to today. Our hot water is going out and I have to take a bath. My son has therapy today. It's like 14 degrees out and I'm afraid of falling. It's really icy out and I don't have snow boots. My son does. Then we have to get groceries. Just don't want to re-injure my knee. My apt complex puts the bare minimum of de-iceer out. I'm just worried. I'm sure it will be fine...

I just really hate winter!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by rose1985

I'm not looking forward to today. Our hot water is going out and I have to take a bath. My son has therapy today. It's like 14 degrees out and I'm afraid of falling. It's really icy out and I don't have snow boots. My son does. Then we have to get groceries. Just don't want to re-injure my knee. My apt complex puts the bare minimum of de-iceer out. I'm just worried. I'm sure it will be fine...

I just really hate winter!

BIG HUGS of support, Rose!

WC

Well I had a panic attack in the bath tub. Then I slid and twisted my knee. Not as bad tho. My sisters aren't answering. I guess my sister lisa is in Seattle now. My sister mickey is going there. But they barely tell me anything. What a mess! Lisa is so vulnerable being in a city where she doesn't know anyone. This is crazy!

[liveforsummer]

Been a crap day all around. Feeling a little better for logging on. Thanks guys

[xRavenx]

I was pretty sick today. I went to the doctor and found out it is likely a UTI. They gave me an antibiotic to take 2x daily, and I am hoping that it won't react with my other meds. Sometimes the mixture is just too much for me. This is the first time I am on this particular medication, and I am hoping that I can tolerate it and that this goes away soon.

[Pookyl]

So currently I’m experiencing a hypomanic episode with rapid cycling low moods of short duration. Such fun.
My Seroquel is back up to what I was taking before my last hospital admission but I’m not feeling well enough to care.
I didn’t see this mood coming really. Usually I bypass hypomania and go straight to mania.
Pftt**+%&&$

[bpforever1]

Originally Posted by bizi

If you are not delusional anymore why would you say that you are still psychotic?
bizi

Yes, I hear voices still. But, the delusion of being psychic has faded away. I hear voices loud and clear still but now they are coming and going away too. I have always taken my medication but realize the stress from doing interviews took a toll on my brain.

[stahrgeyzer]

Originally Posted by bizi

I would encourage you to seek a pysch doctor and a therapist to help you work out your feelings.

I am glad that you are feeling hopeful and that things are okay for you last night.
Getting a proper diagnosis instead of guessing can really help you to better understand yourself.
That is if you want to know of course.
It was a relief for me to finally get a diagnosis, to explain some of my behaviors over the years.
good luck to you in your endeavors and welcome to PC.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Thanks! I can hardly wait to start see a doc. Hopefully I'll start making enough money by the end of this year. Until then I'll just try to relax and stop trying to figure out my diagnoses because it's exhausting but only option I see is bipolar with psychotic features.

[Standup2me]

My mother died this weekend and it feels so good to have her gone
She was a nasty mean abusive person
I just can't get over this sense of freedom that I have now
I feel alive

[LadyShadow]

Felt really good today and last night, it feels like such a miracle to be alive and feeling good, it's unreal. I think that Seroquel increase did me wonders, (even though waking up still feels like I got slammed with a sledgehammer repeatedly). But with everything, its give and take. I probably experienced some hypomania today, but at this point I don't really care.

[Cornucopia]

I have been sleeping like a baby, I was feeling really stuffed yesterday. Both mentally and physically, I am a manager and things are a bit stressful at work, and I am still getting used to medication.

So, yesterday I took the 400mg Seroquel and then a shower, went straight to bed. I was reading for two hours then I slept until this morning. (I do wake during the night, but it is so freaking easy falling to sleep again I almost can’t believe it).

Have the day off, or- well, home office atleast. I am drinking my morning coffee and I feel great after the long sleep.
Kids on their way to school, and I’m gonna embrace this day and make the best of it

Hugs to everyone wanting/needing them

[Wander]

I’m not sure what is happening. Saw my pdoc yesterday. A rushed appointment. He suggested taking Zyprexa for a few nights to settle things down but didn’t take time to ask me what is going on except hearing me briefly say I had been up and down and hallucinating. I was pissed to be honest. Feels like he wasn’t interested. Saw my T today and thankfully he listened although I was all over the place. For a few days I thought I was normal, now my thoughts are contradictory and downright weird and fast. Last night I felt so powerful and invincible. Today I still think that but also swing and think I’m losing my mind. The world around me is vivid, like a movie and I am the main character. I need to act so no one knows what is really going on for me. I feel like I’m breaking through to another dimension. I don’t know how else to explain.

My T was calm and said it would probably pass but that I should take some Haloperidol before I lose tough with reality. I asked how would I know and he said I most likely would be able to tell. I don’t want to take it and lose the magical feeling I have most of the time. T says it’s my choice but I’m risking a lot. It’s like I want to push the envelope and totally lose my mind. Even more so after seeing my pdoc. He can deal with the mess he ignored. Maybe it will pass on its own, maybe I will go crazy. I will just sit back and watch the movie. T says I’m mixed but I disagree. No depression and few mania symptoms. Never felt like this without being very unwell. Odd really.

[Gabyunbound]

Found out Abilify is 'pending insurance approval.' I'm not scared, I'm terrified, that it won't be approved.

[stahrgeyzer]

Feeling better lately. Just checking in to the Matrix haha! Oh reality is annoying to me.