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#901
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I feel depressed again today, but I have managed to accomplish something today. I went grocery shopping. My groceries came to about $50 for one week, or more. I also went to Trader Joes and picked up a couple meals. One is my favorite, Kung Pao chicken. I also washed some dishes. I need to clean up the kitchen. I need to pick up the living room. I also need to pick up my bedroom. I guess one thing at a time. I am thinking of hiking four miles which includes the return trip. I like to go to a restaurant there, but I will only have water. Maybe also a bowl of fruit. My new $35 activity wrist band is working better than the $150 band that I have returned. Go figure. I have ordered an iPad Pro on EBay. Here I go spending money again. I have to stop before it becomes very serious.
My next purchase will actually be preemptive. I have car that is expensive to repair. I think I might pay for breakdown insurance. This will cover all major systems in the car with a $100 deductible. My car is about 17 years old with only 47,000 miles on it. It is in showroom condition. However, this insurance will cost me $2500, which I hope can be split up into several payments. This insurance covers me for five years. So this is not bad at all. This comes to $500 a year, with a maximum payout of up to $12,000 for the terms of the contract. My primary concern is the transmission. Next is the fuel injection system including sensors, and computer. Last edited by Tucson; Mar 17, 2018 at 05:58 PM. |
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#902
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Had a fun time with my mom and daughter. We ran a lot of errands. Then my mom treated us to pedicures. I thanked her. I talked to my son today it went tell. My older daughter is still moody. I do not let her get to me. She has her life and I have mine.
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#SpoonieStrong Spoons are a visual representation used as a unit of measure to quantify how much energy individuals with disabilities and chronic illnesses have throughout a given day. 1). Depression 2). PTSD 3). Anxiety 4). Hashimoto 5). Fibromyalgia 6). Asthma 7). Atopic dermatitis 8). Chronic Idiopathic Urticaria 9). Hereditary Angioedema (HAE-normal C-1) 10). Gluten sensitivity 11). EpiPen carrier 12). Food allergies, medication allergies and food intolerances. . 13). Alopecia Areata |
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#903
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I am so happy for you! I have been misbehaving today and taking some Adderall a friend gave me to try and shoot my way out of the depression. I took a bunch today and felt, well, high, because of the amount. so really I'm just high today and that's why I feel better and that sucks.
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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#904
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I ate healthy all the live-long day! I also got some groceries and did three loads of laundry. We have lots of sun in the forecast which might tip-off my Spring hm, but the temps are still pretty cold so probably not. Sad face.
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#905
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Spring hm? |
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#906
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Tonight is rough. If someone would kindly remove the knife from my intestines, I wouldn't mind. Something I ate isn't agreeing with me. Oh how I love when this happens. I took a bentyl and it's not helping. I didn't eat anything out of the ordinary or something I haven't ate before. I had blackberries for breakfast, a gluten free bean and rice burrito with some dairy free cheese on it for lunch, some almond milk yogurt with baby food for a snack, and blackened salmon with squash and zucchini for dinner. Dear lord the pain. If I could get away with not eating I totally would do it. Idk what set this off this time, all I know is that my stomach is killing me and I'm dizzy asf. I'd like to go to bed but keep having to run to the bathroom. Maybe I should try taking some immodium.
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#907
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#908
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Have been stuck in a more mild-ish depression for a few days now. Also having some trouble getting to sleep and my mind has been racing a bit. I've had the same song stuck in my head for days too. That is getting mega annoying. My concentration sucks. Yesterday my son had to keep repeating himself when talking to me.
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#909
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Yesterday was a slightly better than OK day, but the day before was pretty darned good. I like when I have days when a string of interesting and/or satisfying things happen. I was maybe an itsy bitsy bit elevated in mood, but not to any degree that would be anything but helpful vs. harmful. That is the degree of mood elevation that I'd love to call a baseline.
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#910
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Last night I fell asleep sitting up at the computer, so I went to bed my neck was sore.
Had set the alarm for an hour then went to sleep and shut the alarm off when it was set and missed the concert. oh well I must have needed the nap. went to bed at 1am and got up at 8am.Going to try intermittent fasting low carb dieting. Wish me luck! bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#911
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I'm having a good morning. I went for a walk and even did a little jogging, my first time jogging post-surgery. I am just over a month after surgery, but the trauma surgeon told me I could take up jogging again slowly. He told me do what feels good and stop if it doesn't, so I listened to him.
I am an avid outdoor walker/jogger. The day before that emergency surgery, I jogged 3.6 miles according to my workout app on my phone. It will take awhile to work back up to that again. I am glad to be able to walk and jog again. It helps with the depressive side of bipolar and my panic/anxiety issues too. |
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#912
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Did four loads of laundry and briskly walked for 30 minutes on the treadmill. Took a shower after that.
I woke up at 3 AM with this idea for a short story. I wrote down a summary later on when I couldn't get back to sleep. Don't know what I'm making for dinner because I don't know if the kids are eating with us. I'm still down and want ice cream, which would be a bad idea. Lots of hugs and love. |
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#913
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I haven’t felt well enough to go shopping for clothes in a long time. I’m going to try doing this today. I’ll update my post with progress. It’s hard for me to go out alone, but I think I can do it today.
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#914
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was feeling angry/ disturbed this morning, but started to feel better as the day went on
feeling pretty good now |
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#915
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I havent touched an adderall since yesterday but its been well over 24 hours and i CANNOT SLEEP. I took klonopin blah blah you name it and still feel like i may never sleep again. I have to work tonight 11p _7a so that should be a good time
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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#916
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It's a beautiful, sunny, cold day here today!
![]() I am going to try to stay warm. Fighting a migraine today... it comes and goes. Love to All! ![]() WC
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May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. ![]() |
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#917
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How says money can't buy me love. With money, I can buy the best love in the world. Professionals.
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]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
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#918
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![]() The Adderall must have thrown a switch in your brain. Stay in dark rooms and keep the klonopin going ( according to your pdoc's suggestions, of course). I hope things settle down and you are okay. I find temazepam more sedating than klonopin. I don't know if that's an option for you tomorrow (a week day/access to pdoc)? Bummer! Be safe, jacky! Please. ![]() ![]() ![]() WC
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May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. ![]() |
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#919
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Sad. High anxiety. Sick earlier, still recovering. I feel extremely low and was ready to crash regardless of feeling sick, but this just makes it 10x worse.
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#920
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Went to church today and sang in choir, which is always therapeutic for me then had lunch with the fellowship. I’m planning to take my daughter to a movie this afternoon. I’m exhausted but I usually am after church. I didn’t stick to my Paleo diet at church today. I’m hoping to do better with it this week at work.
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#921
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Well, there is punishment in venturing out alone sometimes. My car won’t start, so I’m stuck at this store.
I have AAA anyway. They are on my way. I hope they give me a new battery. It is just a few months away from the warranty expiring. I hope it is just the battery. I really don’t want to have to have a tow to the shop on a Sunday. Sigh. At least this didn’t happen on Monday downtown after work. That would have been bad. EDIT: AAA found nothing wrong with the battery, and inexplicably, the car started. AAA recommended waiting until the car doesn’t start to have it towed to the dealer. That idea stresses me out... Last edited by Anonymous45390; Mar 18, 2018 at 05:08 PM. |
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#922
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Trying to cook
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#923
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Ate healthy for the second day in a row. I was much hungrier today. Guess it took a while to set in. Made a spectacular play in Scrabble worth 122 points but still managed to lose the game. Having a crisis about trying to improve in Scrabble with the help of an online expert. Just can't seem to apply what i learn. Make the same mistakes over and over again. Maybe it's beyond me? Should i just take up basket weaving?!
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#924
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Apparently I just can't sleep a whole night anymore. I can't seem to get the support I need. I feel like nobody cares. I'm tired of eating. Nothing matters anymore. I'm sick of my animals. I'm tired of taking care of everything. I'm tired of taking care of myself. I wish my husband was home. No I'm not going to change my meds.
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#925
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I heard from laura yesterday
she opened her email with, " hi, it's been mannic here, and I don't mean like that", and that made me laugh out loud she always knows how to be amusing about my condition, and you know- it's refreshing. it's a really refreshing take on things had a roast lamb yesterday and watched some tv (cartoons first, but later switched to the dramas) no sleep again feeling alive today, not okay, but alive someone's challenged me to eat 16 chicken nuggets in 1 hour for tonight, that shouldn't be a problem for me... I love chicken and if I win, I'm getting a fruit drink. yum! |
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