[hopeless2015]

Went for the interview. It was actually pretty laid back. The 3 faculty members showed up in t-shirts and shorts lol. Feel like it went ok. I have no clue how many interviews they have left but they said they would be in contact next week. So that's my excitement of late. Mood has been staying stable for the most part.

HUGS to everyone

[Scooter9]

hopeless2015 I hope your interviews go well!

Still feeling down, but staying busy.

I'm taking care of selling the house of a deceased loved one. They passed away in January and now I'm taking care of getting the house ready to put on the market. There are a lot of things that make up a life - a lot of little things we all own that need to be sorted, stored and sold, plus the regular stuff like clothes. It's depressing in a way that life is made up of these things that ultimately need to be disposed of in some way - whether thrown out or sold. But that's life.

This is probably part of the reason I'm depressed - coping with the loss of a loved one. Plus there have been other significant life changes.

I'm hopeful that my new lithium level will help lessen the clouds of depression that are hanging over everything at the moment.

[Unrigged64072835]

Sorry to hear about your grandma, Blue.

Saw T today. Told her about the young adult saga--I should stop calling them kids, but they are like my kids, even my kid is my kid. LOL. Anyhow, it was good and I'm glad we're not losing our minds on this whole thing.

Other than that not much is going on. Did some kitchen stuff but mostly worked on playlists and picking up a few singles.

Mood is okay.

Hugs to those that want them.

[Wild Coyote]

Rough time. Many adjustments.

Love to All!


WC

I can't stand PHP anymore. I'm asking to be discharged Monday. Hell, I might just go to the ER for any little thing this weekend because I wish I had gone there in the first place instead of trying this horrible program.

[Rainbow Child]

I have the whole “I don’t know how I feel” thing going on. I need some stimulation, but I’m not interested in doing anything. I don’t feel depressed, just not myself.

I haven’t done much today. One of my not-so-productive days. My mood could certainly be MUCH worse, however, so I am thankful.

[Blueberrybook]

Hugs to everyone having a rough time right now I’m sorry that so many of you are having a tough time right now.

My mood is good despite all the worries we have about finances. I have been feeling remarkably good the past few days. Not sure if it’s hypomania or maybe just my body finally responding positively to the meds. I wish it would be the second but fear it may not. Oh, well. All is good from my end.

I was extremely busy all day. I had so many errands to run and saw the chiropractor which really helped some pain in my lower back I hadn’t realized I had (yes, still seeing the neurologist next week). After lunch, to pare down on my books, I sold 6 boxes to the used book store. I really couldn’t fit much more in my car especially as my daughter came with me. It’s a 30 minute drive there, and I had to get it done today because I have even more books to pare down, and it is supposed to be a rainy weekend. Afterwards, we used some of my profits to get ice cream at an ice cream parlor, something we haven’t done in probably 6 or 7 years.

Oh, and this morning driving I saw a rainbow 🌈

[wildflowerchild25]

Congestion has moved into my head. Which isn’t as miserable. So that’s good. Mood is good today. Except I could have been claiming unemployment since 6/4 but I didn’t get the letter till yesterday so I didn’t know. And of course when I tried today the website wasn’t working. I’m assuming it won’t be working tomorrow either. Or the next day. Or the next. I’m guessing I’ll have to call, again, and have to wait on hold, again.

Got rejected for a job I applied for. Just not selected for interview. Kind of a downer. I don’t know what I’m going to do really. But I won’t rehash that here.

Otherwise a good day mood wise.

[Cocosurviving]

My day was decent. I walked my dog early this morning then got back in bed. I slept in for a while then finally got my day going. Took my youngest daughter to go get her allergy shots. Then we went to Barns and Noble. I purchased a book for my daughter. Then we met my oldest daughter at Starbucks. Afterward we went to my mom’s house to drop off a Father’s Day card to my step-dad. My mom had cooked some chili and told us to take what was left. My mood has been good. I stopped and picked up a prescription. I need to go to bed at a decent time. Over the last one I had been staying up very late watching Netflix.

[MoodyMountain]

I've been trying to get off of seroquel that I'm taking mainly for insomnia. I tapered to 25mg from 50mg this week and slept almost 2 hours less each night Tuesday through Thursday. This basically erases almost a month of progress and I didn't even taper off.

So I'm staying on 50mg, which is lower than where I was, 75 mg, for another month. Anti-psychotic withdrawals suck, but at least I can get some sleep and I hope it's still 6.5 hours plus.

Careful questioning revealed that my friend is either lying to me or to everyone else. Although I've been trained for exactly such circumstances, my bipolar hand is strong.

[Pookyl]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

2 weeks since hospitalisation.

It’s been a rough week. Not so much bipolar(I think), more just general family shyte dramas.

I can’t count.

It’s NOW 2 weeks since hospitalisation, and now that I’ve realised that it’s only 2wks maybe I’ll stop expecting everything to be perfect.

[bewise93]

I'm awake, alive, and still kicking.

[scatterbrained04]

Things have been a little rough my way. Have been having a lot of left-sided chest pain. Went to the ER this week, and they cleared me of having a heart issue. Saw primary care yesterday, and they said it could be a few things, but seemed to be leaning towards costochondritis. The pain is pretty bad at times. Gets my anxiety going, which in turn makes the pain worse. It's a downward spiral. Been pretty crappy. On the flip side, even though I'm having high anxiety, I've been having less issues with depression this week. I think I've decided to hold off on increasing my Latuda for now. Pdoc may not like it, but whatever. Sometimes less is more. Pdoc did prescribe some extra gabapentin for PRN use this week. I've not taken it because I don't want to take it at work. Nice to have it though.

[bpforever1]

I went to a meeting and met my pen pan who has bipolar. It was a nice meeting. We had dinner together and afterwards coffee. I learned much from the organizer of the meeting about his perspective on mental illness.


I am doing ok. I met online another man from ok cupid. I know I said I would stay away from online dating sites. But, he seems ok. He works the third shift and his schedule is at night. It seems difficult. I don't know if I will meet him.

I am feeling fine. My mother is doing well oddly enough. I thought her head injury would be bad but so far she is alive and kicking. I still want her to see a doctor when she comes here next month.

I am receiving more job offers to teach classes. I feel good about this but after meeting the organizer who is also a teacher talk about his teaching methods. I want to make my lessons more interesting. I am glad I had the opportunity to talk with him. He was very informative.

I feel good and will go out tomorrow to shop for an umbrella. I like the color pink and want a pink one. I use it for rain and the sun too.

[giddykitty]

So... preparing for house guests in 3 or 4 days. My biggest concern rigth now are the upstairs a/c units. (we have central air but it doesn't cool enough upstairs). My concern is that with both of them running, we might trip a breaker. This is bad news because it shuts off the power to the whole upstairs. And my biggest concern, I will have trouble sleeping with this terrible anxiety and the whole visit will be difficult as a result. I'm trying desperately to kick the worrisome thoughts, but then on top of it, we get a heat wave predicted. Sigh But I'm trying. Gotta hope that it works out or there will be some solution.

Mood is ok, I guess. Today will be day 3 of Zoloft.

[Unrigged64072835]

Been a quiet day for the most part.

Tried calling pnurse's office yesterday, but they were closed for training. Will try again Monday.

My husband said if I have to change meds we're not doing any work on the house until I'm stable. He doesn't want to have to fix the house and keep tabs on me while I'm adjusting to new meds. I can see his point, but I really want to get out of this house that I didn't want to begin with and was abused in by my ex. So either have to put up with side effects or not move for an indefinite period of time. I could sell the house anyway (it's in my name) but I would probably be divorced too. UGH!!! I told him if we are doing that I want the ceiling fixed so I don't have to look at the old water damage. And I want my home office back so I can use my desktop.

Other than that not doing much. Just trying to stay occupied.

Hugs to you all!

[MoodyMountain]

Up to 6 of 10 DBT exercises today, got some chores in too. Having an ok day for having missed a lithium.

[zijax]

I got married last week! We bought a miter saw and a table saw from Lowes too. We're both clean and sober now three weeks. So many good things have happened since we stopped.

Spent the whole night last night at the ER with BF. Again. Same symptoms as 2 weeks ago (like an out of control anxiety, high agitation, psychotic break kind of thing). And there was the psych ER place less than a week ago as well. Things are clearly out of hand. I requested we go to the psych ER when the ambulance came, but they were not accepting patients, so we had to go to the regular one ---- and in the midst of writing this -- he just asked to go again (at least he's lucid now).

So resuming writing, I am there. But will be leaving once he gets in. He has said he doesn't want to put me through more after last night (which wore me down to overwhelmed tears after being up for 24 hours and hours trying to keep his agitation from harming -- like hold, " no, you cannot get up". Then 15 seconds later again. And again and again). He had refused to talk to a pdoc last night. He has reconsidered, even though he thinks there is no help for him.

I'm at my wits end.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Spent the whole night last night at the ER with BF. Again. Same symptoms as 2 weeks ago (like an out of control anxiety, high agitation, psychotic break kind of thing). And there was the psych ER place less than a week ago as well. Things are clearly out of hand. I requested we go to the psych ER when the ambulance came, but they were not accepting patients, so we had to go to the regular one ---- and in the midst of writing this -- he just asked to go again (at least he's lucid now).

So resuming writing, I am there. But will be leaving once he gets in. He has said he doesn't want to put me through more after last night (which wore me down to overwhelmed tears after being up for 24 hours and hours trying to keep his agitation from harming -- like hold, " no, you cannot get up". Then 15 seconds later again. And again and again). He had refused to talk to a pdoc last night. He has reconsidered, even though he thinks there is no help for him.

I'm at my wits end.

Just had to sign in to give you a hug!
My heart goes out to you and to your BF. I hope the doctors come to a rapid understanding of what is going on and attend to his needs asap. I hope you get some rest and some peace of mind.

A very trying/exhausting situation!

(((((( Innerzone and BF ))))))

Love and Prayers,
WC

That is very sweet of you, WC! I know you are going through some rough stuff too and hope that resolves soon

[Scooter9]

I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time Innerzone I hope you get through it.

I spent the day getting my deceased loved one's house cleaned. I hired cleaners to do it because I can't clean a whole house after construction work.

It's strange I don't have a sense of attachment to the house even though so much has happened there. Maybe it's my way of distancing myself from the loss.

I'm feeling low but I noticed some positive thoughts today, which haven't been around for a long time so that's a nice change. I'm hopeful the lithium is working it's magic.

I hate today.

short of it is:

today in the UK is father's day, and I never met my dad- so it's always hard today.

not affecting me as much as previous years though, think I can put that down to being on the upswing.

but it's still difficult regardless

one of the people who live next door to me baught me round some shortbread today.

I might eat it later

for now it's in my kitchen