[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Leaving for Florida Thursday... I always get a bit off when we go , disrupted normal routine ya know.

Seeing my T tomorrow, thankfully

I do poorly with my routine disrupted, too!
I will miss you!
I hope you enjoy your trip!

WC

[Scooter9]

I was with my mother most of the day getting her consultation for knee surgery. She had one knee done last year and this is for the other one.

Stressful downtown driving and parking and using waze (gps) helped a lot. Crazy left turns, construction, back to school, it was nuts. But things worked out ok.

She's scheduled for March or April now.

My mood went from low to lower during the day. Lots of body pains too. I tried having a couple of espressos to try to stop it from getting lower but I just got agitated.

Glad I'm back now and off to bed to maybe sleep this off.

[Wild Coyote]

I am not one to swear often. When I am "mixed," I am tempted to swear a lot!
I have to constantly censor myself, even while writing in public.


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

I was with my mother most of the day getting her consultation for knee surgery. She had one knee done last year and this is for the other one.

Stressful downtown driving and parking and using waze (gps) helped a lot. Crazy left turns, construction, back to school, it was nuts. But things worked out ok.

She's scheduled for March or April now.

My mood went from low to lower during the day. Lots of body pains too. I tried having a couple of espressos to try to stop it from getting lower but I just got agitated.

Glad I'm back now and off to bed to maybe sleep this off.

(((((( scooter ))))))

I go to all of my mother's medical appointments, too. Lots of them! I am in lots of pain, too!
I have a great deal of respect for you.
I hope you rest peacefully and comfortably tonight!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

I am so "mixed." I am all over the place with moods in the past 24 hours!
I am all wound up tonight, in a great mood, when I should be sleeping!

Love to All!

WC

not sleeping.

flashbacks from hell

in a hell of a lot of pain

struggling with self- care

Possible trigger:

it is pointless being alive

Today should hopefully be a calm day. I'm glad that the last few days have been a reprieve from the over three weeks of mood lability I had. I've been enjoying some pleasant little projects that have occupied my time. To top it off, hubby is taking two days off starting tomorrow to make it another long weekend.

[Moose72]

I feel so anxious yet again. I just called the colonoscopy number- yup i screwed up: had to reschedule for November! I forgot to not take my blood thinner for days. I suck. I still feel uber anxious and i have all this paperwork to do.

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am so "mixed." I am all over the place with moods in the past 24 hours!
I am all wound up tonight, in a great mood, when I should be sleeping!

Love to All!

WC

Sorry to hear that, WC. How are you feeling now?

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Sorry to hear that, WC. How are you feeling now?

Thanks, Blue!

I didn't get to sleep until 5am. Slept until 8am or so.

I am very light-headed from meds today. Lack of good sleep probably does not help.

My mood feels unstable, as though it could go in any direction, depending on whatever comes up today.

I am trying to have a quiet day!

Thanks again!
Much Love to You!

WC

[Blueberrybook]

Sorry for everyone hurting.

I've had a long day already, and it is just 2 o'clock. Horrible tension headache & hurting all over from fibromyalgia.

I feel like I haven't done enough today.

Well, I got an unexpected $25 gift card from my pdoc, which was very unexpected. (All that is in a long post about my making some progress.)

I feel like I either need to go to sleep or drink some coffee. I am so worn out.

Got really poor sleep last night. I'm supposed to sleep upright for the next 8 weeks until the extreme swelling in my nose goes down, according to the ENT doctor I saw yesterday. I'm also supposed to take some fancy nasal spray twice a day. But well, it's pretty hard to fall asleep when you're sleeping upright.

Also, apparently I self harmed. No idea. I smacked and punched myself in the head for no reason, other than being overwhelmed. Also scratched my head and squeezed my ears really hard to inflict pain. Again, no real reason for it. I'm just overwhelmed, not depressed or manic or mixed. Just overwhelmed... I think it's mostly because my therapist said today that I didn't (mentally) develop properly during my childhood. Then I paced around when I got back to my apartment and kept hitting myself in the head. I also started hitting myself in the head again after being overwhelmed from going out in public to get my prescriptions from Walgreen's.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Got really poor sleep last night. I'm supposed to sleep upright for the next 8 weeks until the extreme swelling in my nose goes down, according to the ENT doctor I saw yesterday. I'm also supposed to take some fancy nasal spray twice a day. But well, it's pretty hard to fall asleep when you're sleeping upright.

Also, apparently I self harmed. No idea. I smacked and punched myself in the head for no reason, other than being overwhelmed. Also scratched my head and squeezed my ears really hard to inflict pain. Again, no real reason for it. I'm just overwhelmed, not depressed or manic or mixed. Just overwhelmed... I think it's mostly because my therapist said today that I didn't (mentally) develop properly during my childhood. Then I paced around when I got back to my apartment and kept hitting myself in the head. I also started hitting myself in the head again after being overwhelmed from going out in public to get my prescriptions from Walgreen's.

I am sorry you are feeling so overwhelmed right now.

WC

I just got done with a dessert-making bonanza. I made a low sugar virtually non-fat Angel Food Cake with Strawberry Glaze (see Imgur: The magic of the Internet). With the leftover egg yolks, I also made "lower" fat creme brulees that turned out great using light cream instead of heavy cream. That shaved over 100 calories off each creme brulee (Imgur: The magic of the Internet).

I'm resting now, after doing some gardening and watering. It's hot as heck outside.

Feeling good and looking forward to trying one of my low guilt desserts.

[wildflowerchild25]

I’m obsessing over two things today. One, whether I still have a job or not. No word again today. If I don’t hear by Monday I’m going to contact the recruiter I’ve been in touch with and ask if she’s heard anything. I hope I don’t have to wait until Monday though.
I need to KNOW. I hate waiting.

Two, I’m not sure what’s going on with my boyfriend. I texted him last night about how we don’t talk anymore and he said it was just because he works all day and then goes to the gym and doesn’t get home till 9:30. Ok I get that but is it too much to ask to give me like ten minutes of your time a day? Then I texted him that I really like him and that I don’t want to lose him and I hope he feels the same and NO RESPONSE. Nothing. I texted him this morning like I always do to wish him a good day and no response to that either. So now I’m like is he thinking of breaking up with me or what? Again if he is I’ll be hurt and upset but I won’t die. But I just want to know so I can move on with my life. I probably won’t hear from him tonight either if he’s gonna he at the gym until 9:30. I don’t know. I really do like him, I’ve been telling myself I love him for two months now, but he doesn’t seem to feel the same way. I just want to know that that’s the case.

I need closure on these two things pronto. I’ve been obsessing about both all day long. I hate obsessing. It’s tiring.

[Wild Coyote]

(((((( wildflowerchild ))))))

I hope you get responses soon. Waiting is very difficult!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I just got done with a dessert-making bonanza. I made a low sugar virtually non-fat Angel Food Cake with Strawberry Glaze (see Imgur: The magic of the Internet). With the leftover egg yolks, I also made "lower" fat creme brulees that turned out great using light cream instead of heavy cream. That shaved over 100 calories off each creme brulee (Imgur: The magic of the Internet).

I'm resting now, after doing some gardening and watering. It's hot as heck outside.

Feeling good and looking forward to trying one of my low guilt desserts.

Sounds yummy!


WC

[Victoria'smom]

My son wants to go to and indie development jam this weekend. He wants to go really really bad BUT it will cost us $500. Tickets, hotel, gas, luckily they cover food and drinks. I don't know if we can swing it. It'll look great on his portfolio and resume both he needs to do so he can apply to schools next year. That's just so much money. We've talked about them sleeping in the car but that just sounds unreasonable.

[yellow_fleurs]

Second day at my new job. Combo tired and anxious, wanted to fall asleep at my desk. I am making myself do the work as best as possible, though, anyways. I feel so fake acting like I am as happy as possible, while inside crying. Tomorrow I have my appointment with my psychiatrist. I might say okay to the therapy. They will probably recommend DBT. I feel depressed and totally hopeless right now, because I just don't see the point since I doubt I will ever feel much better. Might as well try something, but I kind of don't even care anymore. Sorry to sound like such a downer. Hugs to all.

[Moose72]

Tried calling my kids and my mom. I figured they were poisoned with biological weapons. So i wanted to go home but i didnt and now i feel guilty. N3 texted me so I feel a little better. But my mom got mad for trying to call her.

[Scooter9]

I did very little today - but I have things to do...just not motivated to do anything.

My pdoc appointment is tomorrow...finally. I made it so that's a good thing.

Still feeling down and low. I'm taking the phq-9 depression test [1] and consistently scoring in the severe range. I hope this gets better soon.

[1] - PHQ-9 Depression Test Questionnaire | Patient

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Tried calling my kids and my mom. I figured they were poisoned with biological weapons. So i wanted to go home but i didnt and now i feel guilty. N3 texted me so I feel a little better. But my mom got mad for trying to call her.

Poisoned with biological weapons?
What's happening, moose?


WC

[Daonnachd]

Our refrigerator died. The repairman came and charged us $89 to tell us that we should just buy a new one.

[~Christina]

Saw my T Richard today. Was a good session.

I leave tomorrow for the trip to Florida to see the kids and celebrate the grand baby’s third birthday !!!

14 hours in the car is what I dread. I get totally jacked up on caffeine and energy shots to make the trip.

On a great note all the stores have all the summer stuff wicked cheap here. 4 pairs of capris 6 T-shirt’s ( hella hot on Florida) and 2 pair of work out capris. All for less the 30 !! Go me !!!!!

[Unrigged64072835]

Another busy day. Almost have all the recipes from one cookbook done.

Went to the optometrist. Both my husband and I need new regular glasses, and I need computer glasses. Will be looking around for a while.

Still need to plan meals and get groceries.

Have new GP tomorrow.

Long day!