My toothaches are worsening. Last night I bit into something tough and such a severe pain resulted that I had to cry. I was also totally sweaty on my entire body from just minor physical work. I've been to a dentist, and he says a mouth guard is what I need. I actually put the sucker in this morning. Yes, I'll wear it during the day. As for my other uncomfortable symptoms, my psychiatrist returned my call yesterday and said thay he doubted it was benzo withdrawal behind them. I guess if my symptoms persist, I'll have to go to my GP.

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

My toothaches are worsening. Last night I bit into something tough and such a severe pain resulted that I had to cry. I was also totally sweaty on my entire body from just minor physical work. I've been to a dentist, and he says a mouth guard is what I need. I actually put the sucker in this morning. Yes, I'll wear it during the day. As for my other uncomfortable symptoms, my psychiatrist returned my call yesterday and said thay he doubted it was benzo withdrawal behind them. I guess if my symptoms persist, I'll have to go to my GP.

Sorry to hear about your toothache, BirdDancer.

I've had a toothache from cracking a tooth -- a molar in specific -- and that definitely was no fun. (I think I was like 13 or 14 at the time?) It gave me the exact sensation of an earache, too. It was major "ouch"... so I can relate.

I hope you're able to get rid of the pain soon. I had to take a medication for the pain, but I don't remember what it was because I was so young.

Also, I hope your GP is able to help with the other symptoms if you need to go. I wouldn't hesitate if they're getting worse.

[Daonnachd]

BirdDancer, I hope you get all that resolved soon.

I don't go into work until this afternoon, so I just went for a bike ride. It's so difficult to stay regular with my rides even though my T constantly reminds me of the benefits and I love the adrenaline.


I'm looking forward to work this afternoon. I'll be showing plots and using my Spanish.

Thanks, bluebicycle! A cracked tooth does sound painful. I hope I don't have anything like that, but the pain seems to travel from my top to bottom teeth, but only on my right side. I wouldn't want to take a painkiller, ideally.

I see my psychiatrist next Wednesday. I'll try to be a little active to keep testing some side effects. If they continue into Wednesday, I'll call my GP later that day. I'm also thinking of taking 0.25 mg Ativan every other day instead of 0 mg to see if that has any effect.

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Thanks, bluebicycle! A cracked tooth does sound painful. I hope I don't have anything like that, but the pain seems to travel from my top to bottom teeth, but only on my right side. I wouldn't want to take a painkiller, ideally.

I see my psychiatrist next Wednesday. I'll try to be a little active to keep testing some side effects. If they continue into Wednesday, I'll call my GP later that day. I'm also thinking of taking 0.25 mg Ativan every other day instead of 0 mg to see if that has any effect.

Yeah, I had that with traveling pain, although it was never from top to bottom. It was only left and right, between the ear and my tooth. No idea why it traveled that way, but I ultimately got a root canal to solve the issue. And for some weird reason, the root canal didn't hurt at all, neither during the procedure nor afterwards. Not an ounce of pain and no pain meds. The only thing that was sore was my jaw from being open for so long. I was awake the whole time, too.

So maybe if you ultimately need a root canal, it hopefully won't be too bad. Just a little cap on the tooth and all set. Pain gone.

Obviously no one wants a crown OR a root canal, but it is what it is. If that's what takes away the pain, then so be it. I'll do it again if I ever cross that road again. 0 regrets.

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

BirdDancer, I hope you get all that resolved soon.

I don't go into work until this afternoon, so I just went for a bike ride. It's so difficult to stay regular with my rides even though my T constantly reminds me of the benefits and I love the adrenaline.


I'm looking forward to work this afternoon. I'll be showing plots and using my Spanish.

are you hispanic, or do you just know Spanish?

I'm hispanic -- well, 50%. I can speak some Spanish, but mine is awful. lol. I have the inflections down and all that, so my pronunciation is usually fine, but I don't know enough vocabulary to speak it fluently. I can understand it quite well, though, as I can piece together words. My grandma spoke 100% Spanish all the time, as her dementia affected her with her English.

[wildflowerchild25]

I know I said in my other thread that my back pain wasn’t that bad but I was wrong. It has skipped up a few notches and is now immensely painful. Tylenol with codeine is not cutting it. I refuse to take a stronger opiate. I refuse to become addicted or even dependent on opiates. I don’t need to add opiate withdrawal to my list of problems in the future. So it looks like surgery is going to have to happen sooner rather than later. I’m so scared, not to mention puzzled as to what I’m going to do with my son.

Ugh.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

are you hispanic, or do you just know Spanish?

I'm hispanic -- well, 50%. I can speak some Spanish, but mine is awful. lol. I have the inflections down and all that, so my pronunciation is usually fine, but I don't know enough vocabulary to speak it fluently. I can understand it quite well, though, as I can piece together words. My grandma spoke 100% Spanish all the time, as her dementia affected her with her English.

I lived in Spain for two years. I was in Valencia so I have some words and phrases of Valenciano that get mixed up now and then. It's fun for me and funny when I notice the confusion on the faces of the people I'm talking to. Most of the time I know the Spanish phrase and can correct myself, but sometimes it takes some serious searching. It's all good. I love languages. I wanted to emphasize linguistics within my Anthropology degree, but the uni I attended for undergrad work didn't offer it beyond basic classes. I still get to bring it into life, though as my wife is Puerto Rican and has Portuguese family. I enjoy speaking Spanish, but Portuguese is the most beautiful language I "know." (I put it in quotes because after ECT I can hardly communicate in Portuguese. Of course, I only have access to Brazilians now, so that's a factor.)

Mildly depressed, but trying to keep hope in my back pocket and wear my positivity hat
Hugs to all who want them

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by spikes

Mildly depressed, but trying to keep hope in my back pocket and wear my positivity hat
Hugs to all who want them

I literally have a sketch that I did titled "Hope" in my wallet which is always in my back pocket. I see it every time I open my wallet to pay for something. I hope your depression lifts soon so you can have a good weekend.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Blueberrybook, good luck at your appointment. I understand how stressful first appointments can be. May I suggest, though, that you do mention your ED to her today. I think some therapists could see not mentioning during at least the first session as a negative sign. I think (I could be wrong) that your mixed bipolar is the most significant issue for you at this very moment. If that's true, I'd hope that would be the primary focus today, but please don't neglect to mention all of your dxs.

This is good advice. I can’t function well at all with all these stupid racing thoughts that seem to make me feel like I am losing my mind. I am so forgetful. I honestly think I flushed my dental night guard down the toilet. I remember I took it out of my mouth in the morning, rinsed it, put Kleenex under it to dry but was still holding it, looked out the bathroom window for some reason, and I never saw it again. I searched the bathroom top to bottom. It is tiny too. I searched all the trash. I searched all the trash bags waiting to be picked up very thoroughly (gag!). No nightguard. And that thing wasn’t cheap either. I have broken and worn away so many teeth from grinding and clenching my jaw so tight, it is not even funny. I need a new nightguard, or I will end up breaking more teeth. I just know it. But we cannot even afford that.

And I definitely need refreshers on breathing exercises for panic attacks and severe anxiety.

Update:
Changed into jeans and from a tank top to a short-sleeve T-shirt. Looks less bony, not as obvious ED, I hope. Few more minutes to wait.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by spikes

Mildly depressed, but trying to keep hope in my back pocket and wear my positivity hat
Hugs to all who want them

I hope things improve for you soon.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I know I said in my other thread that my back pain wasn’t that bad but I was wrong. It has skipped up a few notches and is now immensely painful. Tylenol with codeine is not cutting it. I refuse to take a stronger opiate. I refuse to become addicted or even dependent on opiates. I don’t need to add opiate withdrawal to my list of problems in the future. So it looks like surgery is going to have to happen sooner rather than later. I’m so scared, not to mention puzzled as to what I’m going to do with my son.

Ugh.

So sorry. It was a pain, but once my husband got the back surgery he’d been putting off since before our daughter was born (I was pregnant, begging him to get it and he didn’t) and the shots stopped giving him relief, he was in so much pain, he was crying and said he wished he were dead. He doesn’t even have MI.

Once he got the surgery done and got making progress in physical therapy, he felt so much better, could hold our daughter again, who had just turned one and was even nearly off the growth chart she weighed so little for babies her age. He has been good since, fingers crossed. It has been 9 years.

[Moose72]

Running. Talked to psych case manager. She was "this close" to hospitalizing me. Then someone else suggested they repack all my meds and i get them every 2 weeks because of frequent changesm. Think this sucks ***. I told them how ive been feeling.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Running. Talked to psych case manager. She was "this close" to hospitalizing me. Then someone else suggested they repack all my meds and i get them every 2 weeks because of frequent changesm. Think this sucks ***. I told them how ive been feeling.

What do you think? Do you feel you need IP? Because if you do, I definitely think it would be warranted.

I feel so ill right now I'm on the verge of crying. I can't do much of anything beyond staying home in bed. I had to go to my therapist. Then I had to drive 30 mins to my pharmacy. I thought it was closing at 4 pm. I was originally on track to get there by 3:50 pm, but got stuck behind a school bus going 20 mph for a few miles, stopping all of the time. I got there after 4 pm, and luckily they were still open. Then I went to get my eyebrows done for the first time in like six months. I was sweating at that point, trying to dry my forehead. It was awful! I only scheduled that because lately I've felt so downtrodden looking. The lady was nice, though.

Then I went to the grocery store within walking distance to buy a few things, including foods I can eat without chewing. My teeth hurt so much I can't chew on anything. I tried to eat a grape tomato and experienced so much agony that I almost screamed out loud. I called my dentist, but the office was already closed. The cashier at the store barked at the woman in front of me, and then as she handled my groceries it was like she was living in a pissed off world. That's all I needed to see today. Then a workmate asked how she was doing and she said she was never returning.

My psychiatrist called me back yesterday afternoon and said he doubted my recent sick feelings were Ativan withdrawals. Frankly, I'm going to go back on my old dose after two weeks off it. I was desperate to get to the pharmacy because I was out of Klonopin. I was thinking if I didn't take that either that I might really suffer even more. Thank goodness I got it in the end.

I got home and could barely put away the groceries.

If this ill feeling continues through Sunday, I'm going to call both my dentist and general practitioner for appointments. I see my psychiatrist next Wednesday. I might need to cancel my haircut, but I'd rather not if I can help it.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

What do you think? Do you feel you need IP? Because if you do, I definitely think it would be warranted.

I did. I told my case manager I need IP when she gave me the choices- a 72 hour hold being one. But when she came back in the room she had a new plan: rearrange my meds- including upping my haldol to 6 mg. They organized the pills for me so theres that and also said to call if i need to. Im a little bummed. How more ways can I feel awful besides delusions paranioa hallucinations and depression? They also said it would take some time for the new doses to take effect.

[Scooter9]

My pdoc said it's a no-go on increasing the Modafinil, so I'll be sticking with 200mg for the next several weeks while we wait to find out if it's actually doing anything.

Mood-wise, I'm feeling low, as usual. I tried to motivate myself to go for a walk today but just couldn't do it.

[zijax]

I wish I was dead. I wish I would have a quick heart attack or something. There is nothing but good things going on in my life and I should be happy but I am down...spiralling out of control.

I don't have any close friends anymore to call. My husband is very supportive but I just want to be left alone. I don't know what to do but just numb out on the couch.

I am sober too and have been for 4 months. I'm taking my mds. What is wrong with me. I thought getting it out might help to write it out but I don't care if I ever feel any better if you know what I mean.

[Moose72]

Mulling over the idea of SH. Trying to drown out thoughts by blasting Adele 25.

Im happy this way. Happy is so hard.

My youngest just put on Faure's Requiem.

[zijax]

Moose...it is better to understand than to be understood...better to love than to be loved...and most importantly...it is only by self-forgetting that one finds.

This is a self-centered disease.

I hope the St. Francis prayer can help all of us.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I feel so ill right now I'm on the verge of crying. I can't do much of anything beyond staying home in bed. I had to go to my therapist. Then I had to drive 30 mins to my pharmacy. I thought it was closing at 4 pm. I was originally on track to get there by 3:50 pm, but got stuck behind a school bus going 20 mph for a few miles, stopping all of the time. I got there after 4 pm, and luckily they were still open. Then I went to get my eyebrows done for the first time in like six months. I was sweating at that point, trying to dry my forehead. It was awful! I only scheduled that because lately I've felt so downtrodden looking. The lady was nice, though.

Then I went to the grocery store within walking distance to buy a few things, including foods I can eat without chewing. My teeth hurt so much I can't chew on anything. I tried to eat a grape tomato and experienced so much agony that I almost screamed out loud. I called my dentist, but the office was already closed. The cashier at the store barked at the woman in front of me, and then as she handled my groceries it was like she was living in a pissed off world. That's all I needed to see today. Then a workmate asked how she was doing and she said she was never returning.

My psychiatrist called me back yesterday afternoon and said he doubted my recent sick feelings were Ativan withdrawals. Frankly, I'm going to go back on my old dose after two weeks off it. I was desperate to get to the pharmacy because I was out of Klonopin. I was thinking if I didn't take that either that I might really suffer even more. Thank goodness I got it in the end.

I got home and could barely put away the groceries.

If this ill feeling continues through Sunday, I'm going to call both my dentist and general practitioner for appointments. I see my psychiatrist next Wednesday. I might need to cancel my haircut, but I'd rather not if I can help it.

I'm so sorry. Does your dentist's office have a voicemail that connects to someplace that might handle dental emergencies over the weekend? Mine is luckily open on Saturdays, but I don't even imagine. That sounds awful. Some places like that do have emergency numbers. For example, my eye doctor does. Because I have such severe myopia, I am at very high risk of retinal detachment, and it that happens, they have to fix it within 24 hr. or it's too late. They always remind me the after hours number is there for that (and also always manage to freak me out that because of my poor eyesignt, retinal detachment is likely in my future).

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Mulling over the idea of SH. Trying to drown out thoughts by blasting Adele 25.

Im happy this way. Happy is so hard.

My youngest just put on Faure's Requiem.

SH is not the answer.

Can you get in touch with a case manager, pdoc, someone on your case ASAP? Because I think you should call them and tell them you NEED inpatient. Hell, take the 72 hr. hold. Tell them you are having more & more thoughts of SH and if you don't get help soon, you are afraid of what might happen. If they won't listen, dial 911. Get some help.

Because it sounds like you really, really need it.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by zijax

I wish I was dead. I wish I would have a quick heart attack or something. There is nothing but good things going on in my life and I should be happy but I am down...spiralling out of control.

I don't have any close friends anymore to call. My husband is very supportive but I just want to be left alone. I don't know what to do but just numb out on the couch.

I am sober too and have been for 4 months. I'm taking my mds. What is wrong with me. I thought getting it out might help to write it out but I don't care if I ever feel any better if you know what I mean.

I wish I knew what to say to you. I'm newish to the board and don't know your situation. Have you been on meds long? Is this a first try or has it been a long time? Are you in therapy? When is your next pdoc appointment? If it's not next week, call the front desk and tell them you need an urgent appointment. Tell your pdoc exactly how you feel. Meds are not an exact science; what works for one doesn't work for all.

Great job on the sobriety too!

I don't have any close friends too. My one good friend is now in Connecticut, and my only other 2 close friends are my sisters, which at least I have a good relationship with them. One lives in a decent driving distance; the other does not. But if it weren't for my sisters, I'd have no friends. And my sisters are not people I had to go out on a limb to meet. So I understand that feeling.

My husband tries to help, but he thinks meds are a crutch. They help, but I don't expect them to perform miracles and magically make me feel better either. He doesn't understand that. He struggles to understand MI at all. He still out and out refuses to believe I have an eating disorder. It is anorexia purging type (via exercise, not throwing up), which is super easy to hide. It looks like I am going out just to exercise, I maybe I overexercise and lose too much weight. That is how he sees it. He doesn't see all the thoughts of scales, numbers, weight, foods, guilt in my head. I tend to eat normally (but by then I have exercised off more calories than I can eat in a day by eating normally). He'd flip at the number on the scale, but I don't tell him. Now and again he'll say I'm a little bony and could stand to gain some weight, but he just does not see the ED.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

My pdoc said it's a no-go on increasing the Modafinil, so I'll be sticking with 200mg for the next several weeks while we wait to find out if it's actually doing anything.

Mood-wise, I'm feeling low, as usual. I tried to motivate myself to go for a walk today but just couldn't do it.

Sorry you are still low. I hope the Modafinil starts helping you. How long have you been on it? A lot of these psych meds can take up to 6 weeks to work.