[~Christina]

The Fibromyalgia monster is roaring today. Not to mention my psoriatic arthritis is even more flared , blood work today would show my body’s inflammation sky high I bet. Its such a hard thing to cope with some days *sigh* I hope no one winds up with this, it’s truly awful.

Woke up on the “ poor me “ side of the bed in a few ways.

I know I will get over this so I don’t really fear it’s here to “ stay “

I wish I could think of something to brag about, maybe that would make me feel better ?!? But I’m just not that kind of person, why people do that I’ll never know ?!?!?

So .... I’ll keep breathing and stay busy.

Reading a new book at night is a good distraction. But for now I’m covered with light cozy blankets and wandering Pc giving advice as “ helping others gets me out of my own head” it really does help to not just focus on myself.

Hugs to any that need it.

[Moose72]

Just back from lunch with friends. Im in bed. So full and it's cold and rainy. Its only 5:20 and i could go to sleep.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

The Fibromyalgia monster is roaring today. Not to mention my psoriatic arthritis is even more flared , blood work today would show my body’s inflammation sky high I bet. Its such a hard thing to cope with some days *sigh* I hope no one winds up with this, it’s truly awful.

Woke up on the “ poor me “ side of the bed in a few ways.

I know I will get over this so I don’t really fear it’s here to “ stay “

I wish I could think of something to brag about, maybe that would make me feel better ?!? But I’m just not that kind of person, why people do that I’ll never know ?!?!?

So .... I’ll keep breathing and stay busy.

Reading a new book at night is a good distraction. But for now I’m covered with light cozy blankets and wandering Pc giving advice as “ helping others gets me out of my own head” it really does help to not just focus on myself.

Hugs to any that need it.

Yes, I deal with Fibromyalgia and Psoriatic Arthritis, too. I know you are very uncomfortable!

Bragging is often a very unattractive trait.. I will say I feel people who brag do so because their own self-esteem is very low and they are trying to feel worthy.

You certainly do not deserve the pain you must endure my friend.
I hope you get some relief pronto!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Taking it easy today.
Had to run around yesterday; it was necessary.

Saw some T'giving pictures taken two days ago and an feeling very FAT!
I need to take a few pounds off again!

I have gained weight on Abilify. I am currently tapering off of it, thankfully!

I hope everyone is doing okay as we are all trying to make it through the holiday season as well as possible.

Love to All!

WC

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Taking it easy today.

Had to run around yesterday; it was necessary.


Saw some T'giving pictures taken two days ago and an feeling very FAT!

I need to take a few pounds off again!


I have gained weight on Abilify. I am currently tapering off of it, thankfully!


I hope everyone is doing okay as we are all trying to make it through the holiday season as well as possible.


Love to All!



WC

So happy that you finally had a day to start and recover.

I can’t even think of my weight gain * shudder* thanks psych meds for metabolic syndrome!!!

I’m glad your able to wean off Abilify , it was a drug I could not tolerate on so many levels.

Continue to rest and be kind to yourself

[TheSeaCat]

I had the plan of doing absolutely nothing today but laying on the couch with a warm blanket and two cats and watching football. I wake up this morning and my father is cursing at the toilet, sink and shower it's not working right. I didn't feel like dealing with no plumbing so I went to Aunt's house and watched football with the Uncle instead at least I had working plumbing. It really is the little things.

I'm not quite sure my Cardio med is working, I used the pulse oximeter and it was still well into the 100's and I was laying on a couch with a pit bull crushing me. I just wish to be able to see a number not in the 100's. I haven't bit my nails in a week so progress with the anxiety I guess. I just haven't felt the usual stress that makes me want to bite them.

Hugs to everyone

[wildflowerchild25]

We made it home from Tennessee! I’m so happy to be out of the car and into my own bed later on. It was such a nice trip. I’m so glad we went. This may very well be my father in law’s last Thanksgiving and I’m glad we got to spend it with him. Yesterday we went eight seeing in the Appalachian mountains. It was great. We went to Kentucky just to say we’ve been there haha. Had a decent trip back today except my SIL slipped on ice At a rest stop in PA and possibly broke her ankle again. I felt so bad. I hope she feels better soon.

I’m going out with my new man again tomorrow (heretofore referred to as RS). I’ve been talking to him every day. He seems really sweet and genuine. We are going to take a trip to a famous botanical garden in our area next Saturday and look at the Christmas lights. It should be really fun and romantic. I’m excited.

I have soooo much cleaning to do. I’ve got to clean my son’s room to make room for all his birthday toys. Hopefully he will keep it relatively clean until Christmas so we can fit the Christmas toys in there too. I went shopping for him online yesterday. I didn’t buy too many toys because he’s getting to the age where toys aren’t as interesting anymore. I got him a couple of board games and a couple of science gifts like a fossil dig and a crystal growing kit. I’m going to buy him pajamas and new shoes as well.

I’m going to pull out the Christmas decorations tomorrow and we will possibly decorate but if not definitely next weekend.

[Guiness187055]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

I had the plan of doing absolutely nothing today but laying on the couch with a warm blanket and two cats and watching football. I wake up this morning and my father is cursing at the toilet, sink and shower it's not working right. I didn't feel like dealing with no plumbing so I went to Aunt's house and watched football with the Uncle instead at least I had working plumbing. It really is the little things.

I'm not quite sure my Cardio med is working, I used the pulse oximeter and it was still well into the 100's and I was laying on a couch with a pit bull crushing me. I just wish to be able to see a number not in the 100's. I haven't bit my nails in a week so progress with the anxiety I guess. I just haven't felt the usual stress that makes me want to bite them.

Hugs to everyone

People react differently to different types of beta blockers. For me I have tried a few and only atenolol works so far. If your heart rate does not come down ask for a different beta blocker.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

We made it home from Tennessee! I’m so happy to be out of the car and into my own bed later on. It was such a nice trip. I’m so glad we went. This may very well be my father in law’s last Thanksgiving and I’m glad we got to spend it with him. Yesterday we went eight seeing in the Appalachian mountains. It was great. We went to Kentucky just to say we’ve been there haha. Had a decent trip back today except my SIL slipped on ice At a rest stop in PA and possibly broke her ankle again. I felt so bad. I hope she feels better soon.

I’m going out with my new man again tomorrow (heretofore referred to as RS). I’ve been talking to him every day. He seems really sweet and genuine. We are going to take a trip to a famous botanical garden in our area next Saturday and look at the Christmas lights. It should be really fun and romantic. I’m excited.

I have soooo much cleaning to do. I’ve got to clean my son’s room to make room for all his birthday toys. Hopefully he will keep it relatively clean until Christmas so we can fit the Christmas toys in there too. I went shopping for him online yesterday. I didn’t buy too many toys because he’s getting to the age where toys aren’t as interesting anymore. I got him a couple of board games and a couple of science gifts like a fossil dig and a crystal growing kit. I’m going to buy him pajamas and new shoes as well.

I’m going to pull out the Christmas decorations tomorrow and we will possibly decorate but if not definitely next weekend.

I am so glad you had a great trip to Tennessee I have always loved that area it's so gorgeous. It's always great to spent time with family, I will always be eternally grateful for all the extra time I have gotten with my mother, so I'm sorry to hear about you FIL.

I hope you and RS have a great time tomorrow, I hope you have a great time at the botanical gardens and seeing Christmas lights. I had difficultly buying for my cousins this year one is at the age she finds all toys besides Build-A-Bear stupid and the other one is more into maker sets instead of Barbie.

I need to decorate for Christmas, it's just I know the moment I do my cats will act like two stupid idiots and destroy whatever I put up, I'm half tempted to decorate the vacuum cleaner they don't go near that appliance.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

People react differently to different types of beta blockers. For me I have tried a few and only atenolol works so far. If your heart rate does not come down ask for a different beta blocker.

I'm on Bisoprolol cut in half until I have my 48 Holter Monitor in another week to see if the medication is lowering the Inappropriate Sinus Tachycardia. I know that if he doesn't like the results I'll probably be put on something a lot stronger, I just wish it would lower just a little bit. I know it isn't life threatening it's just a giant annoyance.

[VerMOZZica]

I had a nice Thanksgiving with my family. Sadly there is also the flu going on in our family. My dad was the last one to get it. I`m just praying that I don`t get it too. I`ve been feeling very tired today . I don`t know if that`s the flu coming on or just my meds. Hope you all had a happy holiday and I`m sending hugs to all those that need them.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

We made it home from Tennessee! I’m so happy to be out of the car and into my own bed later on. It was such a nice trip. I’m so glad we went. This may very well be my father in law’s last Thanksgiving and I’m glad we got to spend it with him. Yesterday we went eight seeing in the Appalachian mountains. It was great. We went to Kentucky just to say we’ve been there haha. Had a decent trip back today except my SIL slipped on ice At a rest stop in PA and possibly broke her ankle again. I felt so bad. I hope she feels better soon.

I’m going out with my new man again tomorrow (heretofore referred to as RS). I’ve been talking to him every day. He seems really sweet and genuine. We are going to take a trip to a famous botanical garden in our area next Saturday and look at the Christmas lights. It should be really fun and romantic. I’m excited.

I have soooo much cleaning to do. I’ve got to clean my son’s room to make room for all his birthday toys. Hopefully he will keep it relatively clean until Christmas so we can fit the Christmas toys in there too. I went shopping for him online yesterday. I didn’t buy too many toys because he’s getting to the age where toys aren’t as interesting anymore. I got him a couple of board games and a couple of science gifts like a fossil dig and a crystal growing kit. I’m going to buy him pajamas and new shoes as well.

I’m going to pull out the Christmas decorations tomorrow and we will possibly decorate but if not definitely next weekend.

So glad you've had a good time with family! You deserve it!
I hope you and RS have fun!
Thanks for the upbeat update!

WC

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

So happy that you finally had a day to start and recover.

I can’t even think of my weight gain * shudder* thanks psych meds for metabolic syndrome!!!

I’m glad your able to wean off Abilify , it was a drug I could not tolerate on so many levels.

Continue to rest and be kind to yourself

I agree about the Metabolic Syndrome, thank you Zyprexa. I'm sorry you are hurting today. I agree that posting here helps a lot.

[pirilin]

Life goes on. Soon I'll be gone.
So?. Who really cares. I should.
But I don't.
I'm having Fun!!! Fun!!! Fun!!!
and my daddy can't take the T-bird away.
a) He's dead. And never had one.
b) I'm not a girl.
c) I never liked the Beach Boys.

Cheers.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by pirilin

Life goes on. Soon I'll be gone.
So?. Who really cares. I should.
But I don't.
I'm having Fun!!! Fun!!! Fun!!!
and my daddy can't take the T-bird away.
a) He's dead. And never had one.
b) I'm not a girl.
c) I never liked the Beach Boys.

Cheers.

Are you ok?
bizi

[Blue_Bird]

I had a good day! I have been charting my sleep lately and it's really strange. 13 hours, then next night 3 hours, then 13 hours again, then 3 hours again. Not sure what's up with that. I'm tired a lot

[beauflow]

I am sorry if this is self centered. I thought I was doing ok, was pretty chipper today, was at peace with spending $500 or more recently ($250 I'll get back).. a part of me wonders if I'vespent more and don't recall it all. Any ways, once I tried to just sit and just be- because I've been nothing but busy today or obsession with thoughts- i went from okish to really agitated... really wanted a drink but I have rules that I try to be strict with-- no drinks btw... but still. had one of my mini melt downs. a lot ptsd topics came up. Kept trying to talk to myself, that I had to get it together- reminded myself its really ****ed up to do something in someone else's - home let alone the dogs- theu need someone to feed them. Kept reminding myself I believe in kindness and that I am not like the others ((past people)).
I am watching the dogs still.
The dogs, I think got scared of cries that I tried to stop but had issues containing, I kept apologizing to them. I sincerely hope their neighbors didn't hear me.
I did do some grounding with water, tried to meditate it only helped a little, did some art/craft that looks really kid like.. I am still very tense . the wind is blowing hard, it's been scaring me for some reason.
The dogs have been bu my side after I've calmed down a bit which I appreciate..
Idk wtf this is.. I just dunno and idk if a professional can tell.me anything different from the hand full of the others. This is not new but feels like I am reverting or perhaps .. dare saywl worse.. I am at someone's home, this isn't ok... I will be safe, I am actually tired now. Which is a change from the Last week. I hope I can actually sleep... I did forget to take my dose that I take , today... idk if that would had soften the blow of this

[Victoria'smom]

I'm in full Christmas swing. Finding creative presents. Everyone is already getting sick of me talking about it. I always pull it off in the end. It gives me something to think about other then my family falling apart.

[251turnaround]

I'm rev-rev-REVVED UP at 2:30 AM. Not good. I'm heading head first into hypo and I have work tonight. I need to have a full night's sleep before work, and that's not happening now.

Nice.

You know what else is nice? Being anxious at cars passing down the street at night and being overpowered by lingering scents and noises.

I can't turn my brain off. It's going so fast and it's so noisy. I am so done with this mania stuff.

Other than that I'm great!!!

[nikon]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I had a good day! I have been charting my sleep lately and it's really strange. 13 hours, then next night 3 hours, then 13 hours again, then 3 hours again. Not sure what's up with that. I'm tired a lot

that sounds quite stressful! glad you had a good day though

[nikon]

Originally Posted by beauflow

I am sorry if this is self centered. I thought I was doing ok, was pretty chipper today, was at peace with spending $500 or more recently ($250 I'll get back).. a part of me wonders if I'vespent more and don't recall it all. Any ways, once I tried to just sit and just be- because I've been nothing but busy today or obsession with thoughts- i went from okish to really agitated... really wanted a drink but I have rules that I try to be strict with-- no drinks btw... but still. had one of my mini melt downs. a lot ptsd topics came up. Kept trying to talk to myself, that I had to get it together- reminded myself its really ****ed up to do something in someone else's - home let alone the dogs- theu need someone to feed them. Kept reminding myself I believe in kindness and that I am not like the others ((past people)).
I am watching the dogs still.
The dogs, I think got scared of cries that I tried to stop but had issues containing, I kept apologizing to them. I sincerely hope their neighbors didn't hear me.
I did do some grounding with water, tried to meditate it only helped a little, did some art/craft that looks really kid like.. I am still very tense . the wind is blowing hard, it's been scaring me for some reason.
The dogs have been bu my side after I've calmed down a bit which I appreciate..
Idk wtf this is.. I just dunno and idk if a professional can tell.me anything different from the hand full of the others. This is not new but feels like I am reverting or perhaps .. dare saywl worse.. I am at someone's home, this isn't ok... I will be safe, I am actually tired now. Which is a change from the Last week. I hope I can actually sleep... I did forget to take my dose that I take , today... idk if that would had soften the blow of this

i used to scare my dogs when i was in a bad space and felt dreadful for doing it. dogs will love you anyway though

yesterday I wanted to self harm (I didn't, despite having access to what I wanted), I ended up watching some comedy show on tv and forgot about it

today those thoughts are even stronger (and I'm still near the item in question). I've so far watched a christmas movie and a programme about the ambulance, but it's not really making a diffrence to how I feel.

tonight I'm having my roast dinner like usual, then probably like usual go back to my room and do nothing.

again today isn't really my day (hasn't been my day for ages)

[Blueberrybook]

I woke up a bit down today. I ran but wasn't feeling it, so I ran less than usual, which is good for everything but the ED voices, I suppose.

Still need to shower. Then make lunch. Feels like meals come around too often for me.

Hubby and I are home as of very late last night (12 midnight or even a bit later). We were supposed to have had a 2:50 pm flight from Fort Lauderdale to a small airport in our state, but the flight was delayed for over 4 hours. Then the flight took a bit longer because of extremely poor visibility due to the heavy rain. I have to say the visibility was pretty bad as we approached the area. A flight attendant told me on the way out of the plane that we were lucky we weren’t redirected to Pittsburgh, PA, which was considered. Then at our home area airport you have to go outside to leave the plane. They don’t have the sleeves going into the airport. It was a downpour! Then they took forever to get our luggage into the baggage claim. People were severely complaining and yelling, etc., in the spirit of the people from my area. Then once we got our luggage, we had a long walk to our car during extreme downpour. It was pretty unpleasant, especially for the odd-ball people who were still wearing flip flops and shorts. Anyway, I’m happy to be home. We woke up around 8 am then went to get our bird boy. He’s happy to be home. It’s nice to have him with us.

[scatterbrained04]

This weekend has been a bit challenging for me. I've been feeling kind of off. Slightly in the realm periodically of things not feeling quite real. Have been down, with passing thoughts of SI and SH but nothing serious. Worrying a lot about what if I get really bad again. I have so many things I need to do today, but I just want to lay around. Ugh. Not feeling right at all.