[TheSeaCat]

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

I had a good Thanksgiving with family went out to eat nobody wanted to cook at all and I was sick of being the dedicated dish washer. So it was nice having everything prepared and having no cleanup.

I went Black Friday shopping with my Aunt since there were so many good deals this year. I don't agree with her getting the 10 year old a smartphone for Christmas then again I didn't have my first smartphone until I went to school for my Associates Degree. I know times have changed but I honestly didn't get my first ever cell phone until I turned 16. Oh well I managed to get the girls marked off my shopping list. I also got out of explaining the relationship fiasco.

I am meeting up with another work friend and she and I are going clothes shopping tomorrow and then I am taking the girls out to dinner and a movie.

Hugs to everyone

[yellow_fleurs]

Had a great time seeing my family yesterday. Sometimes there is tension or stress, but everything was relaxed and there were good vibes! Got to see the niece/nephews who always bring me so much joy! We even had a cozy fire in the fireplace.

The conversation did turn to mental health with my aunt and brother, specifically how they both suffer from depression. It made me sad to see my brother is struggling and he confessed over the years his depression is getting progressively worse. I encouraged him to be proactive to seek help and warned him of my mixed episode med reaction in case he has the same. Fortunately SSRIs helped numerous others in my family--aunt, grandma, sister--with depression so I am hoping he has a type of depression that can be treated relatively easily.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I had a lovely meal with my in laws. It was really nice. No tension or rudeness like there always is at my grandma’s house. Just good people enjoying good food. And bonus, it was sixty degrees in Tennessee whereas it was only 29 in NJ. I lucked out on that one!

Tomorrow I think we’re going into the mountains to do some sightseeing. I’m hoping to take some good pictures. The last time we were here we went into the smokies. It was gorgeous. I think we’re going into Appalachian country tomorrow. Not sure though. But it’ll be fun.

Then the long drive back to the dirty jerz on Saturday. My son got a kindle fire for his birthday from his grandma so I’m going to download some movies onto it for him to watch on the way home. Hopefully that will keep him better occupied.

I'm glad you had a good Thanksgiving. I was blessed with good in-laws too though my mother-in-law passed away last December. And they lived in CA and us in TX. Things just are not the same there. H & his sister not have a giant rift between them. I wish they would just fix it, but I don't know if or when that will happen.

I bet your son was happy to get a kindle. How old is he?

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Had a great time seeing my family yesterday. Sometimes there is tension or stress, but everything was relaxed and there were good vibes! Got to see the niece/nephews who always bring me so much joy! We even had a cozy fire in the fireplace.

The conversation did turn to mental health with my aunt and brother, specifically how they both suffer from depression. It made me sad to see my brother is struggling and he confessed over the years his depression is getting progressively worse. I encouraged him to be proactive to seek help and warned him of my mixed episode med reaction in case he has the same. Fortunately SSRIs helped numerous others in my family--aunt, grandma, sister--with depression so I am hoping he has a type of depression that can be treated relatively easily.

I am glad your Thanksgiving went well and am sorry your brother is struggling. A lot of people on my mom's side of the family are struggling but not getting help for it, including my mom. And I think my middle sister too. My sister has gained so much weight (she is morbidly obese), she must have a problem with binge eating. A lot of EDs are the result of abuse, usually sexual abuse, and her first major boyfriend in high school was a jerk even when other people were around, saying negative things about my sister while she was standing there. God knows what the private parts of that relationship were like. I have never asked her. It is probably best a topic to discuss only if she brings it up. And she went through boyfriends crazy in college (we lived together as she is around 16 months younger than I am, and we attended the same large university, where I am sure a lot of things could have gone on). So I think she must have some type of mood disorder since most people with eating disorders do. My mom needs treatment herself & will not take any medication for it.

I have to say it really sucks when you have a sibling struggling. I don't think my sister is BP, I guess she could be with the boyfriend of the week exchange in college until she met her now husband her last year there & they have been married longer than I have (mine is 14 yr), but I've never heard of her having episodes of mania beyond that. She could have hypomania though; there are definitely some things she goes way above & beyond, and I just wonder about it...how long it takes her, how perfect it is. I hope your brother is responsive to the SSRIs as well.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

I had a good Thanksgiving with family went out to eat nobody wanted to cook at all and I was sick of being the dedicated dish washer. So it was nice having everything prepared and having no cleanup.

I went Black Friday shopping with my Aunt since there were so many good deals this year. I don't agree with her getting the 10 year old a smartphone for Christmas then again I didn't have my first smartphone until I went to school for my Associates Degree. I know times have changed but I honestly didn't get my first ever cell phone until I turned 16. Oh well I managed to get the girls marked off my shopping list. I also got out of explaining the relationship fiasco.

I am meeting up with another work friend and she and I are going clothes shopping tomorrow and then I am taking the girls out to dinner and a movie.

Hugs to everyone

Glad your Thanksgiving went well. I just can't deal with so many people in a store at once. I got my first cell phone when I started my Masters Degree, and that was in 2001. We didn't have smartphones for a long time, but maybe around 5 years ago, H decided to upgrade. My daughter (turning 11 in December) has an old iPhone, for instances when she is alone with H -especially someplace large - and could lose him after using the restroom, things like that.

Next year, I am going to make her take it to school. She doesn't right now. But next year, we live close enough to the 6th grade school the bus won't take her. There is basically our street, the end of it (about a 2, 3 minute walk), A crossroad, then the school. That way she can text that she made it safely. I just know she would not want me walking her to school when she is out of elementary school.

[Blueberrybook]

We didn't do much for Thanksgiving. I warmed up a small spiral ham and glazed it with honey sauce. We had ham sandwiches on rolls. But I think everyone was fine with it. In the afternoon, a cleaning bug hit me, and I cleaned a lot in the master bedroom, even areas I couldn't remember the last time I cleaned them.

I still feel hyper today. Got about 5 hours sleep. Need to try for an afternoon nap. Not sure if it's skipping Lamictal accidently, semi-normal me, or hypomanic me. I think maybe a bit hypomanic. I am thinking about working on cleaning out some of my clothes though my bottom underwear drawer has sex toys in it I do not want my daughter to see. It would be just my luck she'd get fascinated by my going through my clothes & want to watch or help. Maybe get the toys out of there and hidden on a high shelf in my office while my daughter is in the bathroom or otherwise occupied.

[scatterbrained04]

Worked half a day today. Doing a few chores here and there this afternoon. Will probably get take out and chill this evening. Struggling with some negative thoughts. Anxiety, low self-esteem type BS.

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I'm glad you had a good Thanksgiving. I was blessed with good in-laws too though my mother-in-law passed away last December. And they lived in CA and us in TX. Things just are not the same there. H & his sister not have a giant rift between them. I wish they would just fix it, but I don't know if or when that will happen.

I bet your son was happy to get a kindle. How old is he?

He just turned eight. He already has an iPad but she really wanted to get him a kindle too. I’ll be borrowing the kindle at night to watch movies on lol.

I bagged up all the clothes that don't fit me anymore and stored them in my closet today. I have practically nothing left. Oh well, not like I wear anything but PJs anyways. I hate how much weight I'm putting on. Hate.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Spikes, my family dr prescribed metformin for me when I was gaining too much weight on clozapine. It stopped the gain and I was able to lose everything I'd gained plus 20 more lbs. with diet and exercise. Might be worth asking about; the weight gain is tough.

[Blueberrybook]

And yep, I was right. Daughter drawn right to my underwear/sock drawer. I did get the toys put in a different spot but had to do a little fast talking on some lingerie.

The good news is my underwear/sock drawer is organized (no more stray socks!) as is my PJ/workout clothes drawer though I somehow managed to lose a pair of grey sweatpants I had at the start of that drawer. Not in the donation bag, not in the trash bag. No clue where they went.

I am always losing stuff. Finally found my nightguard yesterday after nearly a week without it. (Buried in dust bunnies way under the bed. Did a Listerine soak on that after the water rinse.) I am 99% certain I did not imagine those grey sweatpants. Stupid BP. Because of it, I cannot be completely sure I have those grey sweatpants. Did I imagine them? Even mixed, I only rarely get away from the racing thoughts, which I think are the cause of my losing most items or thinking I have moved or used an item I have not. Or maybe thinking I still have an item I once owned because I know I did have grey sweatpants last winter. So frustrating!

[beauflow]

I constantly lose things too ..
"how many hats have I made that I can't find so I make another?" (Crochet)

I am doing ok..... still ping ball a bit.

I wrote too much, be well all

[Moose72]

My house is clean! Well minus the bedrooms... But I got the cleaning bug today: dishes, many loads of laundry, swept and mopped the kitchen, etc. Now Im watching videos on youtube about the history of Disney World. How much electricity they use, what they do with their garbage, what EPCOT was supposed to be instead of the theme park that it is.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I messed up my meds AGAIN. Which is 3 times in 6 weeks. My pdoc is not going to be happy with me. First I messed up the math and lowered my klonopin way too fast and had to correct that. Then I missed a day of clozapine and almost took a double dose. Now I ran out of gabapentin Sunday and forgot to add the new supply to my pill box when it came in the mail. So I'm off that totally which is a long-term goal but not until after I'm off klonopin. So I'm going to get back on that although I'll start at a 400 mg dose and go up if it seems ok. No wonder I've had weird nightmares (although oddly I've been sleeping through the night better this week).

I can't believe I've done this. I'm so careful with my meds and very rarely mess up. I do not want to have to go back to supervision with meds. When I did that before it was because of suicide risk but I know if I'm not safe for any reason I'll be monitored again. I understand this but I hated it and don't want to go back to that. My therapist and pdoc are both going to be unhappy.

Better get the gabapentin before I forget it again.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I messed up my meds AGAIN. Which is 3 times in 6 weeks. My pdoc is not going to be happy with me. First I messed up the math and lowered my klonopin way too fast and had to correct that. Then I missed a day of clozapine and almost took a double dose. Now I ran out of gabapentin Sunday and forgot to add the new supply to my pill box when it came in the mail. So I'm off that totally which is a long-term goal but not until after I'm off klonopin. So I'm going to get back on that although I'll start at a 400 mg dose and go up if it seems ok. No wonder I've had weird nightmares (although oddly I've been sleeping through the night better this week).

I can't believe I've done this. I'm so careful with my meds and very rarely mess up. I do not want to have to go back to supervision with meds. When I did that before it was because of suicide risk but I know if I'm not safe for any reason I'll be monitored again. I understand this but I hated it and don't want to go back to that. My therapist and pdoc are both going to be unhappy.

Better get the gabapentin before I forget it again.

I am so sorry. I went through a period similar to that. To curb the main problem, I had to buy very different pill boxes for morning and night meds. One box you just open the boxes, the others, you push a piece of plastic to pop it open. Then, my vitamins, well, it's not a huge deal when I do take those. Mostly it's mixing up night & morning meds I do not want to do.

BTW, my math skills suck now too. An "A" in university calculus, and I can barely do basic math now.

I had a lamotrigine mix-up because places can't use the same manufacturer or decide to try a new one and mail order will use another manufacturer. I have 3 forms of lamotrigine 200 mg: large round white tablets, blue pentagons, and pink/peach caplets. Not one looks like the other. Picked up the Adderall today: now my 20 mg capsule (take 2 in the morning) is all blue instead of a brownish/tan color. It just keeps going on. Tizanidine they like to change between a couple of looks. Clonazepam 1 mg may be blue or green, etc., etc.

[liveforsummer]

Saw pdoc. Zoloft increased and lorazapam changed to klonopin. I’ll proceed with the Z change but not the other.

Either way happy Friday

[TheSeaCat]

Today was a very good day up until I got home. I saw my therapist this morning. He agrees he was wrong and that what he is seeing is long period of stability. I could have told him that. So Bipolar 2 is back on my laundry list of issues not that it was ever off in my book, he admitted he was bias to an extent and that he needed to learn more about the Bipolar 2 since it's apparently very different compared to Bipolar 1.

Went shopping with another PA friend, she and I went shopping and I spent a lot but everything is finally off my list and I can go back to stock piling my checks. I broke down and bought a pulse oximeter to have at home to see if the mediation is working the Cardiologist suggested getting one, it's even my favorite color. We also did coffee and she asked what the other PA and I are doing about our feelings. I honestly have no idea where to even begin with that so I said friends. She's like the whole office has a running tab of when you two finally hook up. My face was a lovely shade of scarlet.

I took the girls out to dinner and took them to see Ralph Breaks the Internet is was okay about how I felt about the first one more geared to children but it was an alright movie. The girls were awfully clingy compared to usual.

I came home to find that Demon had attacked father while I was gone and that his brother, Blaze had chewed through my thick headphone cord, I have another one but I'm still mad that he chewed through it.

Hugs to everyone

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

We didn't do much for Thanksgiving. I warmed up a small spiral ham and glazed it with honey sauce. We had ham sandwiches on rolls. But I think everyone was fine with it. In the afternoon, a cleaning bug hit me, and I cleaned a lot in the master bedroom, even areas I couldn't remember the last time I cleaned them.

I still feel hyper today. Got about 5 hours sleep. Need to try for an afternoon nap. Not sure if it's skipping Lamictal accidently, semi-normal me, or hypomanic me. I think maybe a bit hypomanic. I am thinking about working on cleaning out some of my clothes though my bottom underwear drawer has sex toys in it I do not want my daughter to see. It would be just my luck she'd get fascinated by my going through my clothes & want to watch or help. Maybe get the toys out of there and hidden on a high shelf in my office while my daughter is in the bathroom or otherwise occupied.

Not sure if you are "hypomanic?'
What are some of the signs for you?
Writing about your sex toys and lingerie, perhaps?

If you are concerned about your daughter discovering your "toys," maybe clean that drawer when your daughter is at school?

Please take care!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

I am very tired after a long, yet enjoyable, Thanksgiving Day. All went well. Pulled it off for 16 people. Had some help from my youngest sister and her partner. H helped, too.

It may take me a couple of days to recover.

Love to All!

WC

[liveforsummer]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am very tired after a long, yet enjoyable, Thanksgiving Day. All went well. Pulled it off for 16 people. Had some help from my youngest sister and her partner. H helped, too.

It may take me a couple of days to recover.

Love to All!

WC

WC, I’m glad your thanksgiving went well and you had some help. Rest today, take care of yourself. That was a large group to host!

[Blueberrybook]

I'm here today, tired, a bit down.

I realized my pills were messed up today. They could have been messed up all week besides skipping the morning dose of lamotrigine. I re-fill the boxes on Sunday, so all I have to go by is today. I try to re-fill the meds when I'm clear-headed, but sometimes I just can't, and there are other times I think I'm doing just fine when I'm not.

Spent a lot of the morning sleeping because I had taken Clonidine (a night med, makes me sleepy) in the morning.

So frustrating.

[Nammu]

Well...a empty brain syndrome today. Got a notice my library books were due. The whole drive to the library I kept zoning out....oh yeah I'm on my way to the library! .....oh yeah I'm on my way to the library. It was like the fog invaded my brain today and turned me into Dory. Nothing to do with BP just a brain fart, I'll be fine tomorrow or maybe I should eat something nutritional. Kind of just sit here staring at nothing.

Funny aside, my cat was sitting on me, I'm just sitting here zoned out ( no radio or tv on cause I can't follow it) and start breathing as he breathes, copying his breath......he freaked out! Ha ha.

deeply depressed for much of the day, very little accomplished too.

was hot this afternoon so had to open my window to let in some cold air from outside (and some rain). I guess that was nice. nice because it was some fresh air without actually being outside

but yeah.... nothing special about today

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

WC, I’m glad your thanksgiving went well and you had some help. Rest today, take care of yourself. That was a large group to host!

Thanks so much!

I have had my feet up, playing cribbage today.
It's always nice to have you posting!
I hope all is well!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

deeply depressed for much of the day, very little accomplished too.

was hot this afternoon so had to open my window to let in some cold air from outside (and some rain). I guess that was nice. nice because it was some fresh air without actually being outside

but yeah.... nothing special about today

Sorry you are feeling deeply depressed.
Fresh air... I love fresh air!
Please take care!

WC