I want to drink!!!!

I want to drink!!!!
There I said it...
am having major cravings tonight.
Read my post on my thread if you want to....
today is only 8 days so far alcohol free....It feels like forever.
How did I ever do a long stint at a time????
This is miserable.
bizi

Can you get antabuse? do you believe in AA?

thanks MM.
I want to not want to drink.
Antabuse I don't think takes the cravings away just deters you from drinking or get violently ill if you do drink.
I went to one AA meeting, um...not for me.
bizi

can you do non-alcholic beer, or wine?

Hang in there. Are you in a 12 Step program? I’m not suggesting get out and go people at an AA meeting...just do the exercises on your own. I drank myself into a seriously fragile liver. That sucker might repair itself but it can’t keep up trying to wet vac your blood supply over the long haul. I quick cold turkey on a random day in late 2009. I had a few headers off the wagon when my mom died but sine 2011, I haven’t had more than a (see, I’m enjoying your overly decorated party) sips of champagne or wine...just until I could find an unsuspecting potted plant to pour it into. It’s tough. I’m not gonna lie but it’s baby steps. Even if you have to self talk every minute...just think, “for the next sixty seconds I’m still ok...” and go from there. Call somebody you can trust and ask them t check on you a few times a day. Set an alarm on your phone that includes a note of positivity. If you have an iPhone and can’t find anyone to talk to...talk to SIRI. Sometimes that can be incredibly entertaining. Just find ways to go another day then reward yourself and start over. I’ve watched you be so awesome to others struggling, including me when I finally got clear of a spastic manic enough to help the hubby and do the thing I hate most in the world...Peopleing. Do what you have to in order to love yourself...you got this!

Im on night 1 and it sucks so I feel for you. I can usually make it a month with the first week being bad then a couple good weeks and then another breakdown leading me right back where I was.

Hopefully this time will last longer. How long have you gone before? And do you have much support? I refuse outside help every time it is brought up but my husband took my whiskey tonight while he is gone to work and I have the kids so no way to get more.

I have gone almost 6 months and then we had an ice storm that brought me home early and drinking sounded like a good thing to do, so I drank 9 beers in a short amount of time....I am a binge drinker.
this is day 8 for me.
am heading to bed
thanks for your note and good luck, keep in touch
bizi

thanks MM.
I hate nonA beer and don't like wine.
I am a binge drinker,,,can't just have one or 2
sigh
I am an alcoholic, I tried to moderate and that failed.
I really want to lose this weight gain...50 pounds in 3 years.
I am only going to be able to lose it by not drinking those fattening beers that gave me this beer gut to begin with.
bizi

Thank you so much for this!

Thank you.
I live in lafayette, have we chatted before?
Taking 2 AP has really affected my memory.
Thank you for your advice.
I am headed to bed, hubby is there already.
I do fine at home with this computer to entertain me. It is the getting into social situations that really rattles me.
thanks again
bizi

You can do it. I have 2 years sobriety and if I can do it anyone can.

Bizi, I feel for you, truly.

Addiction is tough to deal with. I can recall trying to quit smoking 20 years ago. It was very difficult to quit. It took me several attempts. I was getting to feel hopeless about ever being able to quit!

I have known you for awhile now. I have seen you go AF for a very long time! I hope you can do this again?

I love you and am pulling for you to experience victory over drinking.


WC

I gave up smoking in 1999 for my pregnancy and it was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. I believe in you. You can do this.
((((( bizi )))))

Thank you so much for your kind words of support. I appreciate you guys.
Today is a new day.
I forgot to weigh my self naked, so weighed with clothes on...happy to see the number dropping even with clothes on. so that means I might actually be out of the 180's for sure bymonday!!!!!
bizi

((((((( Bizi )))))))

You live in one of my favorite little towns. It’s beautiful there but no, we haven’t spoken before. I just joined. But, feel free to PM. It may be a day before I get back with you. I’m in the middle of a working manuscript so I am back and forth mentally and, at times, don’t check my email for a day or so. Drives my kids nuts but I feel the same way when they hang me to dry on a text. I do not speak emoji so I don’t get the “I’m done texting with you” emoji clues. The kiddos remark on my “advanced” age and “warped” brain. It’s a good thing I am a satirist at heart and don’t take these things personally.

Anywho...yeah, peopleing when you are just beginning to dry out is rough. If you can avoid it...do it. If not, try not to do it alone or with a party oriented friend. And, don’t feel bad if you just need to go. No goodbyes, no offer of explanation- just haul bumm and remove yourself from that environment. Send a text the next day if you need to but never sacrifice your own mental/emotional improvement for the sake of politeness- despite the Southern commandment- Thou shalt NOT leave a party without telling the host how magnificent her horse de verve table was- . Just beat feet and get thee to a safe zone pronto. You got this!

I gave up on sobriety months ago, just weeks after my second stint in rehab. Just can't do it. I hope you have a better mindset...I just don't have a compelling reason NOT to do it.

Hi Bizi. I hope you didn't take a drink. If you did, don't beat yourself up. Just don't pick up another. If you feel you benefit from support (AA, therapy, other) please seek it out. I know very well how difficult it is to stop drinking. I struggled for a good five years after originally resolving to stop. But I did get past the cravings. I did, and you can, too. Though I didn't need it after some time, I did benefit from a medication that is known to help with alcohol cravings. It is called acamprosate. It really did help to a large degree. Prior to that my psychiatrist prescribed naltrexone. Naltrexone was not as helpful for me as the acamprosate. I guess it depends on the individual. There may also be other similar medications now used. Naltrexone and acamprosate are not like Antabuse. They just help reduce cravings.

Drinking and taking psych medications can be very dangerous. Please don't drink! Please try as hard as you can not to, and really seek that support you need. I had been a very heavy drinker prior to taking bipolar medications, but it was only after taking bipolar medications that when I had "slips", I started to have blackouts and sometimes violent bouts of vomiting. I've heard of some people dying because of the combination. However, not taking bipolar medications is not the answer!

My dad may be going into the hospital today as a result of his drinking. It's possible he has liver failure. His legs are swollen and his eyes are discolored and he's physically unwell in other ways, too. It's scary! I'm waiting to hear back on the status of his situation.

Love this.
I've never struggled with addiction, but this seems like good advice for any sort of reason one would be uncomfortable in a social situation. And humorously put too.

One day, one hour, one minute at a time. We BPers tend to have a lot of practice with that, so consider yourself ahead of the game.

Also think it's great BirdDancer shared about those 2 medications that might be of assistance.

Bizi, I believe in you. Like CrT0811 said, "you got this"!

Detoxing from alcohol isn't a fun ride. But it gets incrementally easier! When I quit alcohol I lamented that I'd never feel "free" or "happy" again, I was sad that I would be missing out on the social aspects of it. As time wore on, it's weird that once you get into serious drinking your entire life begins to revolve around it. Had a bad day? Drink. Had a good day? Drink. Want to take a vacation? Well it better be a place where I can drink! After about 6 months I began to realize how much of an addiction it really was. At that time too, I was like "whelp I'm clean now - maybe 1 or 2 here and there couldn't hurt" so I tried that tactic a couple ties, and you know - it wasn't hard, but then I realized after those drinks I would think about it again, and I'd want to do it more. So I quit for good - or else I would fall back down that rabbit hole.

Quitting drinking was the best thing I ever did for myself. I know how much it sucks in the beginning, but it is so worth it.

I have quitted worse. Alcohol always tasted bad to me.
Even if I was drinking from my pocket bottles in the bus at 17.
Also drank rum-in-the-cone. A water cone full of rum was 40 cents at the time.
Two cases of beer was my normal for a regular 1 day party.
When I grew up (like at 20) a 750 of Belvedere was part of my daily diet. Shots.
I have Havana Club, Belvedere and Malibu in the house right now.
I haven't had a Mojito in three weeks. Or any alcohol, for that matter.
My times of drinking alone have passed. I don't crave it anymore.
La Bruja drinks two glasses a day of cheap wine. And stops.
You can kill her and she won't take another zip.
So I don't really have a drinking buddy.

I know one thing. Proximity killed the cat.
I go to Miami and go biserk. In every aspect.

All you need to quit is 24 hrs sober.

yall thank you for sharing and for your support.
I did not drink!
see my thread for the full story.
bizi
I tried naltrexone for 4 months and it did not help. Though I really was not trying either back then.
bizi