[BeyondtheRainbow]

OK. Tonight I took my meds and I took ALL my meds. I did not let myself nap so I should sleep well tonight.

I just signed up for a Med D plan for next year. The one I had this year was a mistake as it had clozapine as a tier 4 and I had to pay $50/month for it. Last year it was $4/month. Coverage for clozapine really limits my choices and I had to get an expensive plan to get it covered well. But I had this plan before and really liked it. My other option was cheaper but it's a new plan and I'm too nervous about problems. Maybe next year I'll have data on it and feel more comfortable. I'm just glad to have that over with. Every year it stresses me out and it's worse with clozapine (because t has to be filled every 30 days and can't be mail-ordered).

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Thanks. I don't know if that is an option or not, but I suspect not. I think my best bet is to find another job. For multiple reasons.

Thanks. I don't know. I don't think there's a sliding scale option for the regular stuff based on what I tried to learn before this latest. They *do* have an emergency situation clinic, and *that* does though. So there's that. I haven't tried GoodRx, but may well do so. I made sure to get all available meds by the cutoff to buy me some time.
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www.rxoutreach.com has generics for low prices. I used it when I wasn't insured while waiting for Medicare and it REALLY helped. One my meds was less for a 90 day supply than a 30 day in the cheaper pharmacy.

For name brand meds you can get patient assistance. I get it for a few meds even though I have Medicare. I just apply and enclose a note explaining my financial situation makes the drug cost beyond my means despite having insurance and that I really need the med as nothing else works. I've done this for a number of meds and never been rejected. If you have no coverage you'll be approved without a doubt. The patient assistance apps are on the drug company webpages.

Do you have a large teaching hospital nearby? I was able to get free care through charity care at mine while uninsured. They even paid for my hysterectomy. I think you often wind up seeing a resident who is backed up by a doctor; I just kept seeing my pdoc of many years since she was already at that hospital.

I hope this all works out for you. It is so stressful.

[tecomsin]

Trying 5 mg of olanzapine tonight. Hopefully will sleep through the night. Otherwise seeing my pdoc tomorrow and will discuss what to do.

[Blue_Bird]

Going to sleep. I don't want to but I need to

[wildflowerchild25]

I had a good day today thank god. Went to sleep around 10:30 last night so I got plenty of sleep. I’ve been given a more permanent assignment at work until my student comes back so I won’t be bounced around every day. That gives me relief.

RS came over tonight and we watched tv and cuddled all night so it was really nice. Made my day that much better.

I think I’m adjusting to the haldol decrease which gives me hope that I will be able to drop it completely in the future.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Well, it just keeps getting better and better. I just got off the phone with medicaid AFTER A 2 HOUR 45 MINUTE HOLD(!!!!!)

I indeed have no coverage. The income number they have for me would calculate out to be double my actual income. I have to send them paystubs, after which it could take another 45 days for them to make a determination. Here's a potential kicker... they go month by month. Soooo, the wage bump that work gives us for a short time during the busy season could actually put me over(??), when considered monthly. I don't know. But in the meanwhile, there is nothing I can do. And if/when they reject me again, I will have to start all over again. From scratch. It takes 2-3 months to get in where I've had my mental health care. So I could easily be looking at having no insurance and no care for months and months.

I'm in shock right now, but it won't be long till I go straight up desperate despair. These sorts of situations never fail to follow that trajectory.

I started crying getting off the train. I'm trying to make it in today (I was sick this morning which was the only reason I could stay on hold for such a ridiculous length of time).

FML
Seriously. F.M.L.

I think I would have lost my crap after being on hold after nearly three hours, but I think that is standard for insurances.

I'm sorry you have no coverage as of now. I'm am on Medicaid too so I'm constantly terrified of going over the cutoff; since I usually have overtime. I hope Medicaid rules in your favor.

As others have mentioned some clinics/hospitals have either a sliding fee or an assistance program for those that need it. GoodRX is something to look into too, depending what you are on some companies make a card for those without insurance or public insurance so if's newer in nature that might be something to look into as well. Sending you many

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

I had another day of irritation. I didn't sleep well at all last night; in fact I spent most of the night trying to scratch these stupid electrodes off. I ended up calling M in the middle of the night crying my eyes out because the pain was just so bad. He told me to remove clothing try a sports bra, take a Benadryl and try to get at least some sleep and to come straight to his office in the morning. I ended up wearing scrubs and my top still didn't cover the stupid stickers. Not to mention the stupid device kept falling off the waist of my scrub pants. Perhaps I should wear a turtleneck tomorrow maybe that will hide the stupid stickers.


Turns out I'm allergic to whatever brand of sticker they used, here I was thinking the tape was irritating me, nope it's the stickers which caused a rash. M pulled off all the tape, put Kenalog around the stickers where the irritation was happening and we left the tape off my entire shift and before I left he put more of the sensitive tape around it. I seem to be a lot less itchy with the Benadryl and cream. I still desperately want a shower; like nothing would make me happier than peeling off all the tape and stickers and taking a nice hot shower. Unfortunately I still get to suffer another night and another half day. I just hope I can get some sleep tonight.


Hugs to everyone

What a terrible pita , it will be over soon tho.

So kind of M to answer your call at night and then to proceed in helping you with the tape. Special guy, I meant to ask before is he around your age ? Was it odd him fiddling with the ekg plugs as I call them LOL and you showing off skin lol I might have been kinda freaked about that , just getting to know him and all.

Soon the holter will be gone and it will be over. I didn’t care if the wires showed or not , I figured ... Hey I work in medical so no need to worry who sees what.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Sounds very uncomfortable!
So glad M could help you.
Sorry you have to stick with this one more night!

Sweet dreams.

WC

It's so uncomfortable, I know realistically it wouldn't have been so bad had I not been allergic to it.

I apologized all day for waking him up; ironically I think I was more upset about it than him.

I will be so glad when I can peal this off tomorrow.

Thank you so much Wild.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

What a terrible pita , it will be over soon tho.

So kind of M to answer your call at night and then to proceed in helping you with the tape. Special guy, I meant to ask before is he around your age ? Was it odd him fiddling with the ekg plugs as I call them LOL and you showing off skin lol I might have been kinda freaked about that , just getting to know him and all.

Soon the holter will be gone and it will be over. I didn’t care if the wires showed or not , I figured ... Hey I work in medical so no need to worry who sees what.

I am honestly counting down the hours until I can pull it off. I keep thanking whomever made dry shampoo.

I thought he would be angry with me waking up, I think I was more upset than he was with the three am wake up call. He's 30 and I'm 24, so it's a difference but not that bad of one. The last one was 26 about to be 27. I like them older, I cannot stand immaturity and that tends to be associated with guys my age. I had my bra on, he saw it at the cardiologist office no big deal in my mind; the plugs are below the bottom bra line and the top of the bra line. Even then I was in a cami, I wear those things with everything. At this point I don't care who sees what, nothing medical is awkward to me anymore.

I just feel if I have to deal with a patient then they are just staring at either the large pager like thing on my hip, or the stickers sticking out. I feel like they are staring even though they aren't intentionally doing it.

[wildflowerchild25]

2am. Can’t sleep. Didn’t take trazodone because by the time RS left I thought it was too late. Mistake. I also feel like I have a cold coming on. Probably not going to work tomorrow. Bah.

[Lefty Seven]

Stone, T'ang dynasty (618-907), China. 8.5" high, Christie's London, Realized GBP 52,500, Autumn 2003.

My T explained everything this afternoon and I forgot it all in twenty minutes. Go, meds.

[Blue_Bird]

I was only able to sleep 3 hours but it's better than nothing. I finished a big paper last night so I'm very relieved. Now all I really need to do is study till the final exam on the 17th.

Have class in the afternoon. Other than that not much going on, might go to the gym.

[pirilin]

Three days to blast off.

[nikon]

Innerzone - i'm really sorry you're in such a horrible situation with insurance. can't imagine how stressful that is

[nikon]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

I am honestly counting down the hours until I can pull it off. I keep thanking whomever made dry shampoo.

I thought he would be angry with me waking up, I think I was more upset than he was with the three am wake up call. He's 30 and I'm 24, so it's a difference but not that bad of one. The last one was 26 about to be 27. I like them older, I cannot stand immaturity and that tends to be associated with guys my age. I had my bra on, he saw it at the cardiologist office no big deal in my mind; the plugs are below the bottom bra line and the top of the bra line. Even then I was in a cami, I wear those things with everything. At this point I don't care who sees what, nothing medical is awkward to me anymore.

I just feel if I have to deal with a patient then they are just staring at either the large pager like thing on my hip, or the stickers sticking out. I feel like they are staring even though they aren't intentionally doing it.

that sucks you had a bad reaction to the stickers! hope the time passes quickly now so the test is over

[nikon]

i've had an average kind of day, but stupidly i somehow forgot to take my meds again this morning, so spent the whole day having brain zaps and feeling like my face was tingling. i took a half dose of my meds when i got home, just because i've now missed them for two whole days and worry that some levels are going to get messed up, and now i've been stable for a few weeks and just for xmas would be a *wonderful* (not) time to crash just because i keep forgetting my meds. i'm not sure if taking my morning meds would interfere with my sleep. i have a very structured way of getting ready in the morning, like i do everything in the same order, but somehow taking my meds is the easiest thing to forget out of everything. a friend made the suggestion of just keeping some in my bag so if i forget at least i have some at work with me.

work was really quiet so i ended up reading stories on creepypasta for a while. i can't read them at home, would get too freaked out.

today was productive, since I decided that today would be the day that I finish off all my decorating for christmas- and since I did it in under an hour (more or less), I treated myself to mcdonalds

I'm not meant to eat during the middle of the day (to do with my eating problems), but I'm feeling okay- no ill affects from it yet

a little irritated over the fact that people are telling me one thing, but actually doing another- but hat seems a daily occurance. I think being honest with me is something peoplej ust can't do for some reason- and it seems I'm like the only one

[tecomsin]

I took 5 mg of olanzapine prn last night to keep me asleep. It worked better than the 2.5 mg that I took the night before. I woke up around midnight and had a hard time falling back asleep but this time I finally did and slept until 7 am, then had a mini-sleep until about 8 am, so I am guessing about 9 hours of sleep.

Feeling groggy this morning but more composed. Will see pdoc this afternoon. Maybe just continue on olanzapine until my sleep is good and then wean off again.

Good day so far. Fast paced a bit, found myself doing 75mph in a 50 and kinda bouncing around the house with more speed than a therapist would like. Whoops. But I can calm down. I am relaxing right now. Ben & Jerry's and April Rain ftw.

[Moose72]

Thanks for sharing Birddancer. I enjoyed your long post!

[Nammu]

While I'm waiting for the DNA results I'm trying to fill in the family tree. It's kind of fustrating as its awkward and doesn't show everyone at a glance. My sisters are hidden and I wanted to add their sponges and children. But did find out I had great grandparents born in Prussia, Czechoslovakia and of course Germany, most of them were from Germany. My mother's mom's side hasn't been reveled yet but Laabs is a very German name. Have nothing on my father's side of the family yet!

[Moose72]

Feeling a lot better today. N2 and I signed our new lease this morning. Just hanging out with a friend who is writing a paper for grad school. Its wednesday. Saw my fwb last night. Its always different yet its a lot the same too. Guess that happends after 13 years. N3 had a paper to write last night. He still hadnt started it at 8:00. I can encourage and remind but I can't do it for him.

[Blueberrybook]

Trouble concentrating lately, read what I can, sorry not keeping up here much.

I had a pdoc appt. today, and the pdoc feels I am getting manicky. He's upped the Seroquel 100 mg and says if that doesn't help, he will up another 100 mg. See him again in 2 weeks.

Maybe an end to being mixed, but I easily fall into depression or just complete numbness. End one problem, start another. Maybe stability, that would be such a gift.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Trouble concentrating lately, read what I can, sorry not keeping up here much.

I had a pdoc appt. today, and the pdoc feels I am getting manicky. He's upped the Seroquel 100 mg and says if that doesn't help, he will up another 100 mg. See him again in 2 weeks.

Maybe an end to being mixed, but I easily fall into depression or just complete numbness. End one problem, start another. Maybe stability, that would be such a gift.

Do you always fall into depression following mania? Maybe you won't. Maybe this is just hypomania?

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Nammu

While I'm waiting for the DNA results I'm trying to fill in the family tree. It's kind of fustrating as its awkward and doesn't show everyone at a glance. My sisters are hidden and I wanted to add their sponges and children. But did find out I had great grandparents born in Prussia, Czechoslovakia and of course Germany, most of them were from Germany. My mother's mom's side hasn't been reveled yet but Laabs is a very German name. Have nothing on my father's side of the family yet!

It is interesting though when my sister did it, we didn't get any surprises, she came back mostly Czech, a little German. We knew 3 of our grandparents were Czech & one German, though we did find my German grandfather had ties to a German community in the U.S. Midwest, which we didn't know. Nearly all of my Czech ancestors immigrated to the U.S. fairly recently by ancestry standards, around 1900 and my paternal grandfather in the 1940s, after WWII. We don't know my husband's ancestry but think it is likely English.