[Tryingtobehappy5]

You are all too nice to me but I dont know why I post here. I need to stop, Im not bipolar. Im fine. Im home from the hospital and I told them i would take meds and see my T and Dr but I just like being the way I am. I will try to drink slower next time and only have one tonight. Im just a selfish person thats all thats wrong with me and I just have more or less energy than othet people sometimes but i dont have a disorder and i dont really feel bad about it.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Hi Blue_Bird,

I'm sorry you haven't gotten more sleep. It sounds like you are highly motivated to reach some goals today. Thanks so much for the upbeat post!
I hope you are having a productive day!


WC

Thank you WC!

[Blue_Bird]

Today went pretty well. I took a few walks around town. I started a sketch, out of my own imagination. I normally have to rely on pictures or things in front of me like still life, but I thought I'd try a landscape I came up with. My doctor called in my med refills so I'll have to pick those up Monday.

I'm so excited to be on winter break soon. A whole month off will be nice!

I hope I get good sleep tonight, I'm exhausted

[~Christina]

Hiya everyone !

Sorry I can’t go back and respond to everyone my brain just isn’t firing on all cylinders... even with the forum running slow right now.

I’m just riding the “meh I’m okay “to the “holy hell depression train” and I have a trip to Florida to see the kids and grandbaby soon. I will slap the “ I’m fine face” and get through it, I always do it somehow.

I have a “ loud head “ all the time. Like a roar of people behind me mumbling .... but if I start to hear words I have to immediately start doing grounding skills and hold my shyt together until I see my T or confided in close BP friends. Just to get it out of my head, it sucks. My diagnosis is BPI with psychotic features as I just don’t fit Sza criteria , which I agree with.

I have know BP 1 and B 11 deal with this in various degrees. I think some of it boils down to a person knowing coping skills and “ when” to use them.

At least my take on things floating around this thread. My brain is wandering off I better go catch it.

Update on my frozen shoulder , I have lost all desire to try to unfreeze it right now , it’s been this way for a year what’s the rush ? Right? Ugh maybe tomorrow.

It’s just grey dreary rain filled day here, matches my mood I suppose

Hugs to everyone

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Tryingtobehappy5

You are all too nice to me but I dont know why I post here. I need to stop, Im not bipolar. Im fine. Im home from the hospital and I told them i would take meds and see my T and Dr but I just like being the way I am. I will try to drink slower next time and only have one tonight. Im just a selfish person thats all thats wrong with me and I just have more or less energy than othet people sometimes but i dont have a disorder and i dont really feel bad about it.

Just because you don’t have Bipolar doesn’t mean you can’t post here.

Hugs

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hiya everyone !

Sorry I can’t go back and respond to everyone my brain just isn’t firing on all cylinders... even with the forum running slow right now.

I’m just riding the “meh I’m okay “to the “holy hell depression train” and I have a trip to Florida to see the kids and grandbaby soon. I will slap the “ I’m fine face” and get through it, I always do it somehow.

I have a “ loud head “ all the time. Like a roar of people behind me mumbling .... but if I start to hear words I have to immediately start doing grounding skills and hold my shyt together until I see my T or confided in close BP friends. Just to get it out of my head, it sucks. My diagnosis is BPI with psychotic features as I just don’t fit Sza criteria , which I agree with.

I have know BP 1 and B 11 deal with this in various degrees. I think some of it boils down to a person knowing coping skills and “ when” to use them.

At least my take on things floating around this thread. My brain is wandering off I better go catch it.

Update on my frozen shoulder , I have lost all desire to try to unfreeze it right now , it’s been this way for a year what’s the rush ? Right? Ugh maybe tomorrow.

It’s just grey dreary rain filled day here, matches my mood I suppose

Hugs to everyone

I'm sorry you're having a tough time. Travel is always stressful, even if it's going to see people you love. When do you leave?

Sorry about the loud head. I get that with stress, even just knowing a change in routine is coming up.

The frozen shoulder on top of fibro has to be tough. I hate any extra pain on top of fibro (broken small toe, a burn, etc.).

We've had gray dreary rainy & windy weather here too. I don't think the sun came out once today. It sucks.

Take care of yourself. I hope you will have a good time once you see your family. I know it's hard to play fine all the time though.

[Blueberrybook]

Kid birthday party officially over except the cleanup. My daughter had fun though, and I think her friends did too. We had it lower key this year due to finances, and that helped me with the stress so much. OMG, it's night & day from last year's party. I didn't snap or get irritable once

Tired though and have to work on straightening the house and making dinner. I didn't plan out a meal for this evening because of the party, so I have to figure something out.

Moodwise, I'm doing OK though I wish my house could magically clean itself.

Hugs to everyone needing them right now. It may be too soon to tell, but I think the extra 100 mg of Seroquel is starting to slow the manicky thoughts a bit.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

If Peter does this a lot, it may be time to tell him how you feel about this. You might also tell him you are not going to wait more than "x" minutes for him in the future. You don't deserve to be treated this way.

Shortbread with mom sounds like fun!
Why not go to you mom's now?


WC

He did show up but then wanted to leave soon after! He does this too.

I finally went to my mom's and made shortbread and watched old home movies. Why isn't it 2003 anymore?

I can't even focus enough to read anyone else's posts--sorry. I'm obsessing over bears now, listening to instrumental music because lyrics are bothering the hell out of me, and I really want to cancel ECT next week.

[tecomsin]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Just because you don’t have Bipolar doesn’t mean you can’t post here.

Hugs

That's so true. I might have sza but still mostly post here because it is more active and I was DX bipolar for 8 or so years beforehand. It does help to have an idea of what the diagnosis is though.

[Unrigged64072835]

Thanks to all of you for the well wishes. My back has settled back into it's normal amount of complaining, so I think I'll make it to Tuesday when I have the RF nerve block. Then I'll be in less pain or less a left leg, depending upon how the doc is that morning. This is the one that had his office raided by the FBI and some other law enforcement agencies early last month. He's one of only two pain management offices in town that take Medicare, and I can't have it done at the base hospital because I'm a retiree. So we'll see.

I spent most of the day in my Ikea chair, immobilized by my cat. I have this thick, warm knit throw and she thinks it's hers, too. At least I was able to catch up on the sleep that I missed from being in the ER.

Have meals planned out to Christmas. This year my daughter won't be around until Christmas night, so I won't have to make the cinnamon rolls that would put Cinnabon to shame as far as obliterating nutrition content. That leaves the dinner of spiced pineapple ham, bucket of roasted garlic mashed potatoes, and a few torched Brussels sprouts. And apple pie. I'm tasking my daughter for that. Not that I don't make a good apple pie, but I'm going to have enough to do.

Not having her until Christmas night means we also sleep in on Christmas Eve. That is one tradition I am glad to let go, although the temptation is there to open at least one present. I know most of my presents already, so having a warm jacket would be a good thing.

Lots of love and hugs to you all.

[TheSeaCat]

My laptop seems to be working and charging fine today so I think last night was just a glitch. Working on a paper and trying to study for finals. I still have a headache that Excedrin refuses to help, if it doesn't get better by Monday I'll mention it to my primary. My heart rate is still ridiculous and I keep forgetting to drop by the hospital to turn the Holter Monitor in.

When I made the follow up I didn't realize I would run out of Prilosec so I am now back to one pill a day trying to fight indigestion; just got to suffer until Monday.

I spent the morning getting coffee with M there was nothing good playing at the theater so we went to the mall and got the shopping done for the office Christmas Party secret santa. I really felt off today and he could tell that the headaches were really getting to me so we ended up calling it an early day and he and R are helping me to study.

Hugs to everyone

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Sea Cat- Could you get some OTC prilosec until you can get your script filled? I keep forgetting to tell you this but I realized that I developed GERD on Seroquel too and had to go on (then) prescription Nexium. Now I'm on generic protonix which actually works better than anything else I've ever tried (prilosec, nexium, prevacid, etc) although I'm not on Seroquel now.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Sea Cat- Could you get some OTC prilosec until you can get your script filled? I keep forgetting to tell you this but I realized that I developed GERD on Seroquel too and had to go on (then) prescription Nexium. Now I'm on generic protonix which actually works better than anything else I've ever tried (prilosec, nexium, prevacid, etc) although I'm not on Seroquel now.

Thank You Rainbow; I could but I'd rather not pay OTC prices when my insurance covers a 30 day supply at no cost to me. I was on one a day for a while it's just right around midnight I start feeling the fire and belching up a storm. I have enough to get me to Monday so it will only be two days at this dose. My doctor, R and M says GERD is super common with Seroquel; I do okay on Prilosec for the most part, just sometimes no matter what I am on pizza refuses to comply. lol

[Wild Coyote]

Bronchitis is much improved.
I am soooo grateful!

Mood-wise, I am very confused about what is going on with mood.
I feel like I am all over the place, alternating between feeling sedated from side-effects until they wear off, and then feeling super speedy, with irritability, sensitivity to noise, sensitivity to light, sensitivity to everything. I also get very irritated when people talk to me. Bleh!

Time will tell!

I hope everyone has a peaceful, restful night!

WC

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Bronchitis is much improved.
I am soooo grateful!

Mood-wise, I am very confused about what is going on with mood.
I feel like I am all over the place, alternating between feeling sedated from side-effects until they wear off, and then feeling super speedy, with irritability, sensitivity to noise, sensitivity to light, sensitivity to everything. I also get very irritated when people talk to me. Bleh!

Time will tell!

I hope everyone has a peaceful, restful night!

WC

I am glad your bronchitis is better! I really dislike being that mood state you are describing, it is very uncomfortable! Dark rooms or dimmed lighting and relaxing music help me a bit. Hope it doesn't last long for you

[Nammu]

Excellent suggestions fleur

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Bronchitis is much improved.
I am soooo grateful!

Mood-wise, I am very confused about what is going on with mood.
I feel like I am all over the place, alternating between feeling sedated from side-effects until they wear off, and then feeling super speedy, with irritability, sensitivity to noise, sensitivity to light, sensitivity to everything. I also get very irritated when people talk to me. Bleh!

Time will tell!

I hope everyone has a peaceful, restful night!

WC

I'm glad you are feeling better so far, WC.
I really hope you feel better as far as the irritability and other symptoms. Sorry you are struggling.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Bronchitis is much improved.
I am soooo grateful!

Mood-wise, I am very confused about what is going on with mood.
I feel like I am all over the place, alternating between feeling sedated from side-effects until they wear off, and then feeling super speedy, with irritability, sensitivity to noise, sensitivity to light, sensitivity to everything. I also get very irritated when people talk to me. Bleh!

Time will tell!

I hope everyone has a peaceful, restful night!

WC

Glad your bronchitis is improving.

I hope things even out with your mood. I think this time of year makes everything harder.

[xRavenx]

I am feeling really restless and have racing thoughts. I took Klonopin as an attempt to try to help with this, until I am able to get in to see the pdoc for a better solution. I still feel jittery though and wired!! I remember she mentioned Lithium, so I wouldn't be surprised if that is the next step to help with the mania/mixed state. She also mentioned Risperdal. We'll see.

Hugs for everyone.

[happywoman]

Checking into today after last check in 9 months ago.
I’m 51 this year and had another episode last month, 7 years since my last episode. Wasn’t so disruptive to my live to the episodes I had 30 years ago but still coping with the fallout. Can anyone relate to that pattern and the associated feelings ?

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Bronchitis is much improved.

I am soooo grateful!


Mood-wise, I am very confused about what is going on with mood.

I feel like I am all over the place, alternating between feeling sedated from side-effects until they wear off, and then feeling super speedy, with irritability, sensitivity to noise, sensitivity to light, sensitivity to everything. I also get very irritated when people talk to me. Bleh!


Time will tell!


I hope everyone has a peaceful, restful night!



WC

I’m glad your bronchitis is finally getting better.

I so understand what you going through, it’s a shyt place to be. The unknown to me is the worse. I hope you can level out.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by happywoman

Checking into today after last check in 9 months ago.

I’m 51 this year and had another episode last month, 7 years since my last episode. Wasn’t so disruptive to my live to the episodes I had 30 years ago but still coping with the fallout. Can anyone relate to that pattern and the associated feelings ?

Sure I can relate , most everyone can I bet. Bipolar can really upset our lives. I feel the only way to stay as stable as possible.

Using every coping skills you have , there are hundreds. Take medications if you are on any.

Good sleep hygiene exercise and healthy food etc


Hope your recovering from the last episode.

Glad to have you back posting.

[beauflow]

Checking in, today has been stressful.
For the most part I was in this odd daze.
Just doing work when I wasn't supposed to be doing work.
Having one of those days that "everybody's incompetent, nobody can follow directions or communicate properly.
I know that is not true..deep down somewhere anyway.. there's no absolutes, right?
, however it's very hard for me to not believe.

Some where inside-I want to be around people, like I wish I had friends -actual friends. France I could hang out with but didn't just *****ed- about life ... actually have deep conversations with.. those days don't seem to exist .

I Had to leave my apartment tonight....
Felt like I was crawling out of my skin.
Like many times, like this-
so much in my mind what I want to, could be doing ((I've been wanting coke, have not done that in a decade or so.. but still)). But a lot of those things of what I could do,would have been really counterproductive and maladaptive...
Though I'm still smoking some weed...
I did go get a game too... super smash brothers this one has been on my mind off and on with don't buy it, and go get it
..
I had to leave, and I didn't explain why.
I am safe will stay home, will tell my ex that I need some time if he does come hang out again.

[wildflowerchild25]

Had another great night with RS. I know it’s very soon but he met my son and hung out with him for awhile. My logic is that my ex met my son later and he didn’t like him and didn’t like how I parented so I want to know now if they can get along because I’m not gonna waste my time on someone who doesn’t like my son. Thankfully they got along great even though my son acted like a complete fool alll night. Not like a brat, he wasn’t being disrespectful or anything, but he was WAY too excited about the whole thing. AND he told RS that I said I hoped he would be my last boyfriend 😩😩😩 I had said that to my son a couple of nights ago. I was SO embarrassed. We haven’t even called each other boyfriend and girlfriend yet, I mean it’s only been five dates. Damn my son lol.

But anyway it was a great night and I’m looking forward to many more with him.