[Tryingtobehappy5]

I ended up going for a run last night even though I wasnt planning on it since I had already been cleaning and dancing all day plus its cold out and my legs hurt. But the energy started building up and I was yelling and swearing too much. The run was wonderful, temp actually wasnt too bad and it was lightly snowing and there were lots of christmas lights to look at. But my legs hurt so bad now and my toe is bruised and painful as well.

I fell asleep early just after 10pm but woke up just before midnight. I spent time texting my friend and listening to music in bed but didnt fall asleep again.

Then H came to bed(he had fallen asleep on the couch) and we talked for a while. Well I did most of the talking, couldnt settle down so he went to watch tv. I came out too because bed wasnt working so maybe I will fall asleep watching tv

I go to work today for evening shift so I was hoping to get more sleep than 2hrs.

[Tryingtobehappy5]

Originally Posted by Tryingtobehappy5

I ended up going for a run last night even though I wasnt planning on it since I had already been cleaning and dancing all day plus its cold out and my legs hurt. But the energy started building up and I was yelling and swearing too much. The run was wonderful, temp actually wasnt too bad and it was lightly snowing and there were lots of christmas lights to look at. But my legs hurt so bad now and my toe is bruised and painful as well.

I fell asleep early just after 10pm but woke up just before midnight. I spent time texting my friend and listening to music in bed but didnt fall asleep again.

Then H came to bed(he had fallen asleep on the couch) and we talked for a while. Well I did most of the talking, couldnt settle down so he went to watch tv. I came out too because bed wasnt working so maybe I will fall asleep watching tv

I go to work today for evening shift so I was hoping to get more sleep than 2hrs.

Tv worked and I got another 2hrs, much better

[Moose72]

Christine- if i drink iced drinks in this weather i get cold all over and cant warm up. In fact Ive got a small coffee at mcdonalds across the street from my pdoc appointment in 25 mins.

suicidal and irritable.

certainly not the greatest combination

I replaced the chest of drawers today in my bedroom, too.

old ones broke- sort of hard work trying to plug everything back in and making it all work

and these ones are a lot smaller too!

listening to music now while I'm on here.

then tv when I've finished- maybe

I hate how I've always got so much tv to catch up on. I am so bad at being current

Originally Posted by raging vortex

suicidal and irritable.

certainly not the greatest combination

Haven't been taking my meds as prescribed and already lost a few pounds. It'll be awesome when I can fit into more pants than just PJs and sweats. I'm sure ECT will keep me from going off the rails.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

suicidal and irritable.

certainly not the greatest combination

I’m sorry you are struggling. I hope you feel better soon. Are you safe?

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by spikes

Haven't been taking my meds as prescribed and already lost a few pounds. It'll be awesome when I can fit into more pants than just PJs and sweats. I'm sure ECT will keep me from going off the rails.

I’m glad you’ve lost weight. Please be careful about not taking your meds as prescribed. Keep as eye on it.

[nikon]

happy belated birthday Nammu!

[nikon]

i'm sorry you're in such a rough space, raging vortex. hope you are safe.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Thanks!
I cannot imagine trying to sleep in a gym full of people!
I don't sleep well as it is.

I hate the weight gain side-effects of so many of these meds!
Are you continuing to do judo?


WC

Ive lost weight according to today's pdoc appointment. I will go to judo tomorrow morning.

[Moose72]

Today has been a good day. I got up early and got a shower and took off for my med review with my nurse practitioner (aka "pdoc"). She lowered seroquel to whatever I want. That is, I can break the 200's into 100's. My haldol is reduced from 10 mg to 5. Apparently, halfol is in short supply so they mostly have 5's.

I'm sitting in Starbucks right now with a woman whom I met here several months ago. She has lots of work to do because she's in school to be an occupational therapist. I admire that she can keep the deluge of information organized in her brain. Another friend is meeting us here in a little bit.

I have been told by people that I should type more about my daily life rather than all the times I have serious issues: it makes it seem like I'm always in crisis which isn't true at all. I have stable times- like now.

Also, according to being weighed this morning I have lost weight! That's great! Really makes me happy since I felt stuck recently.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Today has been a good day. I got up early and got a shower and took off for my med review with my nurse practitioner (aka "pdoc"). She lowered seroquel to whatever I want. That is, I can break the 200's into 100's. My haldol is reduced from 10 mg to 5. Apparently, halfol is in short supply so they mostly have 5's.

I'm sitting in Starbucks right now with a woman whom I met here several months ago. She has lots of work to do because she's in school to be an occupational therapist. I admire that she can keep the deluge of information organized in her brain. Another friend is meeting us here in a little bit.

I have been told by people that I should type more about my daily life rather than all the times I have serious issues: it makes it seem like I'm always in crisis which isn't true at all. I have stable times- like now.

Also, according to being weighed this morning I have lost weight! That's great! Really makes me happy since I felt stuck recently.

I don’t think it seems like you always have serious issues. I enjoyed reading the above post about your day.

[liveforsummer]

Finally getting used to my new mattress. I hope! Good day so far. Did errands and will likely go for a walk this afternoon. Trying really hard to meditate more. Wow that’s hard to keep focussed but I do what I can.

[Guiness187055]

Been a much better day. A friend of mine changed the heating element in my dryer and it now works. Thank God because I am leaving for Texas on Saturday morning and have a ton of laundry to do. Hope everyone is having a great day.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

Been a much better day. A friend of mine changed the heating element in my dryer and it now works. Thank God because I am leaving for Texas on Saturday morning and have a ton of laundry to do. Hope everyone is having a great day.

Heat is a good thing these days. I love to wear clothes straight outta the dryer.

My husband and I went into the city (NYC) today for a special celebration. We had a nice time. Attended a rehearsal of the NY Philharmonic at Lincoln Center, then had a lovely lunch at a nearby restaurant with a view of Central Park. Obviously, we spent a lot of money today. We're heading home via train.

[nikon]

had an average sort of day. work was up and down, there were quite a few rude people and i got p-d off at colleagues who spent a lot of time having tea and leaving me to deal with things. still getting rage spells. yesterday or the day before i came very close to colliding with a minivan, and last night i had a nightmare about having an accident, but when i'm driving rage comes up often.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

My husband and I went into the city (NYC) today for a special celebration. We had a nice time. Attended a rehearsal of the NY Philharmonic at Lincoln Center, then had a lovely lunch at a nearby restaurant with a view of Central Park. Obviously, we spent a lot of money today. We're heading home via train.

Sounds like a really great time!
Thanks so much for sharing!

WC

[tecomsin]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

My husband and I went into the city (NYC) today for a special celebration. We had a nice time. Attended a rehearsal of the NY Philharmonic at Lincoln Center, then had a lovely lunch at a nearby restaurant with a view of Central Park. Obviously, we spent a lot of money today. We're heading home via train.

That sounds lovely! Thanks for posting. I lived along time ago near NYC and remember going in to the city to enjoy the arts and a nice meal with my late husband. Brings back fond memories.

[Scooter9]

I'm rather stressed today. Money is running low.

I was out of work for months and living off savings. Now I'm working but won't be paid for another 2 months, as in until the end of January!

I have some savings stashed away for times like this but I wasn't planning to use it anytime soon. Came up way too fast. And now the holidays!

Other than stress I'm feeling ok... usual low mood but I'm managing.

[wildflowerchild25]

Was feeling pretty crappy most of the day, depressed and irritable. Starting to doubt the reduction in haldol. But I decided to go to the gym after work for the first time since March. I feel so much better now! I feel normal. I hope I continue feeling this way. It was really bad last night, I started letting my thoughts run away from me. No SI, just negative dark thoughts. I was panicking because it was so bad I was worried that I was going into an episode. If I feel ok tomorrow I can conclude that it was just a blip brought on by lack of sleep. If I don’t even after going to the gym then I might have to rethink the haldol reduction.

I told RS that I have depression. I just felt so awful last night I needed some comfort. I didn’t want to spring bipolar on him yet but I did say I’m on meds and in therapy. He doesn’t seem to be bothered by it. He’s really sweet. I’m excited to see where this goes. I’m not completely carried away like I was with my ex in the beginning (thx hypomania) so I think we are taking things at a healthier pace. I’m glad there’s only one more day left until I see him again though.

I hope I continue to feel ok tomorrow. And sleep well tonight. Last night I slept well so let’s keep it up body K thx bye.

[251turnaround]

I feel stable? My doc said otherwise. I don't know what to believe. I slept last night.

I'm calm.